It s been raining all night and morning
the cool breeze and grey sky blanket the city
shut and quiet down activities and sounds around
bring out strong emotion of my own fragility
How do I escape the drama of the youth?
How do I escape this war inside of my head?
How do I escape this loneliness that hits me like a brick?
life is like a sad love song sang in the morning rain
slow and full of minor keys
sad love songs are songs better to sing to one own
for who wants to hear a sad love song
so here I am, surrounded by bleak and greyness
tears seem ready to break lose
feeling like a child that I see on the streets
that don't deserve to be there
that life is not fair
I just want to be alone but afraid to be lonely
afraid of relationship but desire for one
This is what happen for avoiding social contacts and being socially awkward
narcissisting and autisting itself...
surrounded by love yet feeling empty inside
like feeling hungry on a buffet table
like living in the shield
I can see the love but I can't do anything about it
like watching a movie
It seems that my life is full of "not getting what I want and getting what I don't want"
ah, the rain is stoping... i probably need to stop mopping either...
sing away....
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