Thursday, January 17, 2013

complex



COMPLEX

LIVING WITH NO SENSE OF SELF IS LIKE ANIMALS, LIVING WITH TOO MUCH SENSE OF SELF IS SUFFERING

SELF COMES OUT IN TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCE OR NEW EXPERIENCE, INCOMPETENT EXPERIENCE. UNDERDEVELOPED PERSONALITY/INTELLIGENCE, OVEREXCITABILITY.

SELF COMES OUT DUE TO ATTACHMENT AND IDENTIFICATION WITH OWN LIFE.

IN COMPLEX, SELF MAKES APPEARANCE, SENSE OF SELF1-SELF2 AND SELF1-OBJECT. WITHOUT SELF1, OBJECTS IS JUST OBJECTS AND WITHOUT THE SELF1, OUR SELF2 IS JUST A SYMBOL. SELF2 IS OUR ME, OUR ROLE LIKE OTHER OBJECTS THAT HAVE ROLES. SELF ATTACH TO ITSELF CREATE POWERFUL GLUED. SELF2 IS COGNITIVE LIKE OBJECTS. SELF1 IS SENSUAL/EMOTIONAL, OUR SENSE OF SELF. HOWEVER, THIS SENSE OF SELF IS NOT OUR PHYSICAL BODY. IT IS AN INTERACTION BETWEEN OUR BODY AND LIFE, THUS THE SELF IS CREATED. THIS IS THE SELF THAT GETS HURT AND FEEL THE PAIN OF JEALOUSY AND ENVY. THIS IS OUR SOCIAL DEFENSE THAT SHIELD OR FILTER US FROM PAIN. THIS IS OUR ATTACHMENT WITH LIFE AND BODY. OUR INFATUATION WITH LIFE. IT’S MORE LIKE THE PARENTAL TYPE OF ATTACHMENT THAT DEVELOP OVERTIME. WHEN IT IS THREATENED OR HURT OR NEGLECTED, IT WILL CRY AND SULK, AND I FEEL BAD. THIS I IS THE BASIC SELF. THE FIRST SENSE OF SELF CREATED IN CHILDHOOD BEFORE SOCIAL PHASE. THIS I IS AN OBSERVER OR ORGANIZER OF PSYCHOLOGICAL EXPERIENCE, THE EGO.

INSTEAD OF INFATUATED AND TRYING TO GUARD LIFE, WE INFATUATED WITH THE SELF WHO WE TRUST TO PROTECT US AND GIVES US WARNING. WE ATTACH TO THE SELF1 LIKE WE ATTACH TO OUR CHILD. THIS ATTACHMENT QUALITY IS SHAPED BY OUR ATTACHMENT QUALITY WITH OUR PARENTS. INSECURE ATTACHMENT WITH OUR PARENTS WILL CREATE INSECURE ATTACHMENT WITH THE SELF1 AND LEAD TO OVEREXCITABILITY AND FEAR OF DETACHMENT. HOW I, THE EGO/OBSERVER, ATTACH WITH MY PARENTS WILL DETERMINE WHAT KIND OF ATTACHMENT I HAVE WITH THE SELF1.

MY ATTACHMENT WITH SELF1 WILL DISTORT AND DETERMINE SELF1 RELATIONSHIP WITH SELF2 AND OBJECTS. IF MY ATTACHMENT WITH SELF1 IS SHAKY, SELF1 WILL HIJACK MOST ATTENTION AND REQUIRE ATTENTION FROM SELF2 AND OBJECTS. SELF1 WILL CREATE A SELF2 IMAGE OF GRANDIOSE OF FAME, POPULAR, AND WEALTH AND DEMAND ATTENTION AND APPROVAL AND ACCEPTANCE FROM OTHERS ALL THE TIME TO KEEP PATCH/MAKE UP FOR HIS SHAKY ATTACHMENT. SELF1 WILL CREATE UNREAL AND OVERIDEAL SELF2 TO MAKE UP FOR NEGATIVE VIEW OF SELF1. I PROJECT ITS OWN FRUSTRATION TO SELF1. SHAKY RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PARENTS WILL GET TRANSFERRED INTO SHAKY RELATIONSHIP WITH SELF1. THE PARENTS ARE BAD BECOME THE SELF1 IS BAD. BECAUSE THE PARENTS CANNOT BE BAD AND I CANNOT BE BAD, I HAVE TO TRANSFFERED BADNESS TO SELF1. I HAVE TO KEEP CONTROLING THE SELF1 FROM MESSING UP SOCIAL LIFE. AT THE SAME TIME, WHILE TRYING TO FIX THE SELF1, I HAVE TO HIDE SELF1 FROM OTHERS. I WILL MAXIMIZE AN IDEAL SELF2 AND MINIMIZE OTHERS TO LIVE WITH SELF1. SO, LIFE IS SPENT FIXING THE SELF1 IN PRIVATE AND DENYING IT AND HIDING IT BY LIVING WITH FAKE SELF2 AND LITTLING OTHERS. IT’S LIKE LIVING WITH PROBLEM CHILD, ENABLING IT AND TRYING TO FIX IT SLOWLY.

 SELF1 IS TO SELF2 IS SUBCONSCIOUS. SELF2 IS DOMINANT PERSONALITY (THE MOST USED AND COMFORTABLE STYLE). SELF1 IS THE SHADOW (THE MOST UNUSED).

FI IS SELF2, NE IS SELF1.9, SI IS SELF1.8, TE IS SELF1.7, TI IS SELF 1.6, SE IS SELF 1.5, NI IS SELF 1,4 FE IS SELF1. SELF1 AND SELF2 IS NOT TWO SEPARATE STATIC SELF, BUT ASPECTS OF 1 SELF OF 8 TACTICS, 4 OF COLLECTING INFO AND 4 FOR UNDERSTANDING IT. 4 EXTROVERT AND 4 INTROVERT,

FI NE
SI TE IS OPPOSITE/ENEMY

NI FE IS COMPANION/OPPOSITE ATTRACT

SELF3 IS THE CONSCIOUS SELF AND OBJECT. SO I ATTACH TO THE PERSONALITY PLAYING THE CONSCIOUS SELF AND OBJECTS.

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