LOVE AND RELATIONSHIP

I USED TO THINK THAT I KNOW WHAT LOVE IS. I USED TO THINK THAT I KNOW WHAT RELATIONSHIP IS. NOW, I DON'T.

I DON'T KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN LIKE AND LOVE. I DON'T KNOW WHAT "LOVING SOMEBODY" MEANS. I DON'T KNOW HOW COMMITMENT PLAY A ROLE IN LOVE.

WHY DO PEOPLE HURT EACH OTHER WHEN THEY SAY THAT THEY LOVE EACH OTHER? WHY DO PEOPLE GET TOGETHER AND NOT TRYING TO BE HAPPY? WHY PEOPLE FIGHT EACH OTHER AND STAY WITH EACH OTHER?

SOME SAY THAT CONFLICT IS PART OF LIFE AND PROBLEMS ARE PART OF RELATIONSHIP. SOME SAY THAT IT IS NORMAL TO ARGUE AND FIGHT. WELL, I DON'T HAVE TO GET INTO RELATIONSHIP TO DO THAT.

WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO LOVE SOMEBODY? TO SACRIFICE MYSELF FOR OTHERS? WHY DO PEOPLE PRETEND AND SAY THAT THEY SACRIFICE THEIR LIFE FOR OTHERS WHEN THEY ACTUALLY DON'T? WHY DO I HAVE TO SACRIFICE MY LIFE AND MY SELF FOR OTHERS, ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY DON'T RETURN THE FAVOR?

WHY IN THE NAME OF RELATIONSHIP, SOME PEOPLE DOMINATE OTHERS AND DEMAND FOR LOVE WHEN HE DOESN'T DO IT IN RETURN? WHY STAY IN ABUSE AND BULLY FOR THE SAKE OF RELATIONSHIP?

WHAT DO I GET FROM RELATIONSHIP THAT I CAN'T GET WITHOUT?

I AVOID CONFLICTS LIKE I AVOID TRAFFIC ACCIDENTS. I DON'T WANT TO HIT OR GET HIT IN TRAFFIC. BECAUSE IT IS MESSY EITHER WAY. IT IS AN ACCIDENT PEOPLE SAY. IT IS BUT WE DON'T TREAT IT LIKE THAT. IT'S SOMEONE'S FAULT. THE SAME THING WITH RELATIONSHIP. PEOPLE MAKES MISTAKES BECAUSE OF ACCIDENTS, THEY DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY DO. BUT WE FIGHT IN THE NAME OF JUSTICE. IF IT IS ACCIDENTS, LET'S TREAT IT LIKE ONE.

TRAUMA

THE WORD CRISIS IN CHINESE IS COMPOSED OF 2 CHARACTERS, DANGER AND OPPORTUNITY. IT IS WISE NOT TO MAKE FUTURE DECISION WHEN IN CRISIS. WHEN IN CRISIS, SELF PRESEVERTION MODE KICK IN. THE SIDE EFFECT OF THIS HEIGHTENED SENSE OF AWARENESS CAN LAST A LONG TIME. THE MOST IMPORTANT TO DO IN EMERGENCY IS TO COOL DOWN, TAKE A "TIME OUT" IN A WAY.

WHEN THINKING IS BACK, PROBLEM SOLVE AND MAKE FUTURE DECISIONS.

THE SIDE EFFECT OF CRISIS IS WHAT WE SOMETIMES CALL TRAUMA. TRAUMA IS AN HEIGHTENED EMOTIONAL REACTION. IN OTHER WORDS, IT IS A STRONG REACTION TO SOMETHING REAL/IMAGINED. OTHERS CALL THIS UNFINISHED BUSINESS. THE MIND RELIVE THE CRISIS OVER AND OVER AGAIN INVITING THE STRONG EMOTIONS. IN TRAUMA, WE LIVE IN THE DRAMA OF THE CRISIS, OR WHAT JUNG CALLS COMPLEX WHERE WE PLAY THE PUPPETS OF THE DRAMA IN OUR MIND.

A PERSON DOESN'T KNOW THAT HE IS IN TRAUMA. ONLY WHEN A PERSON REALIZE THAT HE IS IN TRAUMA, HE IS OUT OF TRAUMA. IT'S AN OLD ANCIENT BIOLOGICAL SYSTEM TRAPPED IN A MODERN CIVILIZED SYSTEM.

INTERPERSONAL COMMUNICATION

RELATIONSHIP IS COMMUNICATION, THERE IS NO RELATIONSHIP BEYOND COMMUNICATION
RELATIONSHIP IS THE SENSE WE HAVE, IT'S NOT SOMETHING WE DO
HUMAN INTERPERSONAL COMMUNICATION INVOLVED THREE MAIN FACTORS, SENDER, RECEIVER AND SYMBOLIC MESSAGE.
SENDER AND RECEIVER ENCODE AND DECODE THE MESSAGE INTO SYMBOL TO TRANSFER
HOWEVER, THEY ENCODE AND DECODE USING THEIR OWN INDIVIDUAL KNOWLEDGE BASED ON PAST EXPERIENCE

WHEN COMMUNICATING, A SENDER DON'T ACTUALLY CONVERSE WITH THE RECEIVER. THE SENDER CONVERSE WITH THE RECEIVER IN HIS MIND AND VISA VERSA. PHYSICALLY, WE DO TRANSFER INFORMATION BUT WE DON'T ACTUALLY PARTICIPATE IN THE PHYSICAL CONVERSATION. WE FOLLOW THE MODEL IN OUR MIND. IN A WAY, WE BRING PEOPLE INTO OUR MIND WHEN WE COMMUNICATE. A PERSON WHO IS ANGRY IS NOT "ANGRY AT YOU", HE IS "ANGRY NEAR YOU". HE IS NOT ANGRY AT YOU PER SE, HE IS ANGRY WITH "YOU IN HIS MIND".

IF I AM ANGRY AT YOU, IT IS NOT "BECAUSE OF ME OR BECAUSE OF YOU". IT IS BECAUSE "WHAT I THINK YOU ARE".  PEOPLE'S THOUGHT, FEELING, AND BEHAVIOR CAN BE EASILY EXPLAINED IN THIS MODEL. FOOLISHLY, WE THINK THAT WE ACTUALLY CONVERSE WITH ANOTHER PERSON AND HE IS REALLY ANGRY AT ME.

What is real?

Waking up, when the feeling is strongest an the mind clearest
I question what is real or not real
this feeling sensation or the ideal background environment imagination
the feeling feels more real to me
feeling is an uninterrupted sensation
subjectivity win out over objectivity
concrete over abstract
foreground over background
the objective mind is a background
it is an illusion of goals and expectation
guides of conduct and social protocol
it is more ideal than the real accurate interpretation
it can go where no feeling can go but it can get stuck in the cloud
we confuse the mind as being real and the feeling as nuisance
we think the mind is the environment
we overrate the mind and underrate the feeling
sensation is real, feeling is strong sensation
like strong thoughts pop up in the current of consciousness
it is a game of foreground and background
strong and weak experience of sensation and thoughts
that gives the perception of real
identification with the characters
animate the non-animals
living the lifeless
a puppet master and its puppet

subjectivity is psychological experience and observation based sense experience
this is the unique individual factor of an experience
objectivity is verbal based
this is collective and linguistic

sense experience, psychological experience, and verbal experience is an abstraction increase in that order.
We usually rely on psychological and verbal experience by pingpong our experience between them

the sense experience tell us what and how i am instead of where when who or why i am. the sense experience tell me that I am.

we scan the body, environment, and information, in that order
reality as such/the thing itself, perceiver, and perceived
a book is papers with information, it is not measured for the papers but the information
a person is a meat with life, it is not measured for the meat but the life
however, what matter is the papers and the meat
the physical matter not the story written on it
the matter not the information.


addiction is using non entertainment object as entertainment

Evening

Many favor morning, I like evening
strange indeed, what is the meaning?
people coming home from work
the daylight is getting dark
We call it the day
delaying stress for another day

we'll see family and friends
or simply just to vent
to recreate what have been spent
or simply to have broken parts mend

the light from the streetlamp and from the cars

and the sound of evening prayers from afar

is a bell to start our body to rest
this part is simply the best

psychological problem

THE MIND IS NOT THE PROBLEM, NOR THE CONSCIOUSNESS
THE HIGHEST NATURAL MADE INTELLIGENCE
THE PROBLEM IS THE CONSCIOUSED EMOTION IN THE MIND
EMOTION ITSELF IS NOT THE PROBLEM
WE ARE NOT AWARE OF OUR EMOTION
EMOTION IS LIKE LEARNING/INTELLIGENCE
IT'S A REACTIVE PROCESS THAT WE HAVE NO AWARENESS OR CONTROL OVER
HOWEVER, IT REACT TO MANY FACTORS, MANY FACTORS AFFECT IT
AS LONG AS THERE IS REACTION, OUR EMOTION IS WORKING FINE
IT'S JOB IS TO TAKE ON THE MOST BASIC NEEDS, THE CONCRETE
BEFORE THE COGNITION TAKE OVER THE MORE ABSTRACT

THE CONSCIOUSED EMOTION IN THE MIND IS THE FEELING
HOW WE EXPERIENCE OUR EMOTION
EMOTION IS INTERNAL SENSE
SENSE TO THE BODY IS LIKE FEELING TO THE SELF
SINCE WE DON'T "LIVE" IN THE PHYSICAL/BIOLOGICAL WORLD MOST OF THE TIME
WE DON'T LIVE ON OUR SENSES, WE JUST USE THEM TO SCAN/DETECT.
WE LIVE IN THE MENTAL DIMENSION MOST OF THE TIME
THE IMAGINATION/MEMORY BASED MODEL OF THE WORLD
WE MANAGE FEELING

THIS MENTAL DIMENSION IS DIFFERENT THAN THE EMOTIONAL/BIOLOGICAL DIMENSION
OUR EMOTION GET CAUGHT IN THE WRONG PLACE, THE PROBLEM OF FEELING
THE SOCIAL DIMENSION, A BIG PART OF MENTAL DIMENSION, IS IN CONFLICT WITH EMOTION, BECAUSE IT IS BASED ON SEMANTIC AND LOGIC
EMOTION DON'T FIT IN IT

MANAGING FEELING, THOUGHT, AND BEHAVIOR OCCUR ONLY IN CONSCIOUSNESS WHERE THERE IS A PERCEPTION OF MANUAL CONTROL
THIS MANUAL CONTROL IS AN ILLUSION OF CONSCIOUSNESS, THE GENIUS/TRICK OF NATURE
THE SOLUTION IS NOT TO CONTROL THE EMOTION IN THE CONSCIOUSNESS, BUT TO DETACH FROM CONSCIOUSNESS ALL TOGETHER, TO UNCONSCIOUS IT
NOT TO OVERIDENTIFY WITH THE CONSCIOUSNESS OF FEELING, THOUGHT, AND BEHAVIOR, ESPECIALLY FEELING.
THAT WE/OUR EMOTION DON'T HAVE TO LIVE IN THIS FALSE WORLD WITH UNREALISTIC EXPECTATIONS
OR EMOTION IS SIMPLY PART OF LEARNING PROCESS IN THIS WORLD
LIKE STRESS.
STRESS/FEAR IS PREY'S EMOTION

CONSCIOUSNESS IS A BUBBLE/SHIELD THAT WE LIVE IN
OUR SENSES ONLY SENSE/DETECT ENVIRONMENT FOR ANYTHING TO "DISTURBANCE IN THE FIELD"
WE SEE SOMETHING BUT WE RELATE TO IT IN OUR MIND
WE REPORT "GOING ON IN THE NERVOUS SYSTEM" AS COMMUNICATION

DON'T GET INTO REALITY, DON'T TRUST ANYTHING YOU SEE IN THERE
IT'S NOT REAL
WE ARE TRAPPED WITH OUR OWN LEARNING DEVICE

friends

two souls met in journey of time
a friend who always be mine
although we are further apart
time cannot separate
because with you I never need to talk
but is always a walk in the park

though I can't always keep my own bargain
you always remain as a friend
you never question
always want to listen
 sometimes, where there is nothing to talk about
we always find something to laugh about

Emptiness
Where are you now
the empty seat blanketed by the snow
the black hole in my heart
the well going deep into the core of the earth
the darkness within
the shadow remain
i try to fill it in
though it never filled to the brim

The beast

I look mild and harmless
like I have been tamed
I have, I have been civilized, culturally neutred
but inside, I am not
I am wild and dangerous
They can't get close to tame this beast
It went and hide inside
Don't get close to me
I roar and bite the same
when angry or hungry
don't get close to me
I can't control this thing
and believe me, I don't want you to get hurt
I recently learned of my deception
Now, I can only warn you
when it shows its ugly face, it s not pretty
it can take more than it needs
Don't get close to me
pay heed to the warning...

A Cage

Life is meant to be free
an adult more than a child
an adult imprisoned is like a bird in a cage
I do not dare to want this or to ask you for this
I will play along until I die
unlike a child, I have my own life
not good but it's a life
when will it come till I am free again?
yes i am not free because of my own failures and handicaps
that I have to depend on my parents
my childishness and stubbornness to do it my way
detour me through the long harder way
if i am good, can I play?
if I am successful, can I be free?
I guess it's true that if I didn't study I won't be happy
I live carelessly and I still don't know what to do
I don't mean to make you guilty or putting you in the tough spot
Even though that's what I did with my complaining
When I was a child, I asked for more freedom that I shouldn't
Now, I am still asking for more freedom
it is sad and pathetic that a grown adult, like a child, is still helpless and dependent on his parents
no, it's not about freedom anymore because I don't have the right to until the day of independence
yup, it's this piece of shit me that's the problem
even a donkey must carry weight beyond it capable of
building castle in the air instead of a house on earth
Yup, this is just another piece of crap guilt trip...

Emotional language

Emotional language is more sensical, metaphorical, hyperbolical, and abstract
words dance without music, they fly without boundaries
words are lifted to the highest pedestal
as Gods or Goddesses in the Semantic temple
words engaging in orgy and ecstassy
fireworks explossion and pandemoneum
the freedom from oppression
the reuniting of long lost loved ones
the triumpth of underdogs
the birth and death of life
the birth of hero
the miracle of the ordinary
the champion of freedom and individuality

severe overexageration of the midiocre
narccistic and borderline in nature
this is who we are meant to be
the silent voice in the dark
the invisible shadow lurking at night

it is not rational and it is not logical
it is not socially structured or standardized
no two lines are alike and circles are not always perfectly circular
the world without grammar and knows no rhyme
it dances to its own rythym
yet through it all, it is primal, wild, and raw
it speaks to the universe much stronger than any words could
because this is the language of the One
it expresses the unexpressable
it goes where no man has gone before
it sees the invisible and hears the silence
it touches the abstract
This is the Big Bang that starts it all.

Symbolism for the extreme
for those living on the edge
take it or leave it
but beware for those who enters
for this leaves no stones unturned
you will die like trees in the winter
awaiting for rebirth in the spring to come...

"No one care" is rational, "Heaven don't understand" is emotional.
it carries the depth of the core of the earth
even the underworld shakes by its words

consciousness gets in the way,
be hypnotized and tranced, lower the inhibition, knock the door of this world
take the elixir and become new
don't settle for less, for drugs or alcohol who only gives glimpses of this world
go all the way, open your mind, open your heart
be vulnerable, be intimate
let the wrath of God fall upon you
for those who hurt can also heal
those who hit you can also hug you
those who hate you can also love you
Let the world hate you and the universe to despise you
let your enemy sees you
then and only then, you shall roar and wake everyone who can hear you

retire yourself to the corner of your heart
listen to the voice from this world
for it is much wiser and knowledgable than what the world can offer
for it is the alpha and omega, the One
it speaks sensical, metaphorical, hyperbolical, and abstract

dance without music and fly without boundaries

Emotional language is very abstract
looking without focus, looking afar
seeing bigger patterns rather than individuals
that cover multiple level of individual patterns
like seeing pattern of similar color bubble rather than individual color bubble
that form a pattern

to perceive the abstract symbol is to open up the multiple level of interpretation
however, to create, it must climb multiple level of meaning to get to the highest abstract floor
to see the whole city in one swoop. then, we can see pattern between buildings and streets.

for example, an apple, we eat apple, an apple is a fruit, an apple is plant, an apple is alive, an apple is made up of chemicals and atoms, an apple is part of the universe. we can see universe from an apple, stars is ripe and decay like an apple, being born and die, get sick like an apple. an apple can be rotten like a child, it can poison snow white, it's even in the garden of eden.

once we lift the object to this level, we can play with it because it's not restricted by its concrete verbal meaning, like improvisation of musical notes and chords when it s not restricted by standardized chords and notes. The object can be anything we want and it can touch deep into the core due to its' big picture information and detailed atomic description.

so, lift the object above the ground, lift it as high as you can take it, beyond the atmosphere boundary and gravitation and let it fly weightlessly.

Rain

Rain
the blessing from heaven
the cleansing of the earth
nature meditate
calm before the storm
calm amidst the storm
like tears cleansing the soul
they washes away the worldly troubles
even for a moment
they quiten the noise
dispersing the crowd
in that moment, and in just that moment,
I feel peace with the dark grey sky
thunders and the lightening
and the sounds of touching the pavement and window pane
is like music to my souls
that's when I feel it
the call to go inside
to listen to the voice inside
because that's the only time, it will come out and teach
but for me, when it rains, time to meditate...

bread

each morning, a bread and a cup of coffee are waiting for me
the bread with its sweet chocolate filling
the only one I like since I was a child
the gift of nature, the food of God
breaking the bread in the morningtide
immortalized by "this is My body..."
a cup of coffee, the eye opener
made sweet by sugar and milk
as sweet as the Mother's love
as the bread filled my mouth, the love filled my heart
in thanksgiving, I eat both the bread and the love...

PREDICTION

INTENTION IS BASED ON PAST DECISION. I M GOING TO DO WHAT'S BEEN DECIDED.

PREDICTION IS BASED ON PAST KNOWLEDGE OR PRESENT SENSE EXPERIENCE.

The Mind GUARDIAN

CONSCIOUSNESS IS THE GUARDIAN OF OUR MIND
IT PROPEL US INTO SIMULATION LIKE ROOM TO WATCH OVER OUR BEHAVIOR, FEELING, AND THOUGHT ITSELF
TO AVOID GETTING HARMED
TO SCAN/DETECT SCAM
WE GET HURT PSYCHOLOGICALLY BY SOMETHING WE ARE NOT AWARE OF
JUST LIKE GETTING HIT PHYSICALLY BY SOMETHING WE DON'T SEE COMING OR TOO LATE TO AVOID
PSYCHOLOGICALLY, GETTING ABUSED AND BULLIED ARE PUNCHES AND KICKS THROWN AT US
ONLY BY BEING AWARE OF THEM DO WE GET TO MARTIALLY FIGHT THEM
OTHERWISE, WE ARE GETTING HIT LEFT AND RIGHT OR GET INTO PSYCHOLOGICAL WARFARE
CONSCIOUSNESS ALLOW US TO GET BEYOND THE WARFARE, TO WIN WITHOUT FIGHTING

Idiom

I AM PSYCHOLOGICALLY COACHPOTATOES AND BUILD CASTLE IN THE AIR MOST OF THE TIME
I FEEL LIKE A SQUARE PEG ON A ROUND HOLE DUE TO MY LAZINESS
LAZY TO CHANGE SELF OR OTHERS, I JUST WANT TO FIT THE PEG TO THE ROUND
AND CALL IT INJUSTICE WHEN THE GLOVE DON'T FIT THE HAND
LIFE IS NOT READILY ASSEMBLED, RELATIONSHIP NEEDS TO BE WORKED THROUGH AND ASSEMBLE
I JUST GAVE UP TOO EASILY WHEN THINGS DON'T FIT...

Crumbs

I thought you said you want it to be the best
but you seem to settle for lest
I thought you want a leader
but when things get sour you get bitter
I thought we can be
what we are meant to be
we fell to the floor long time ago
i ve never meant to hurt you
i was just late to got to you
it was broken to pieces
and left crumbs all over the place...

FORGETFULNESS

I FORGET TO HAVE TO WAKE UP FOR APPOINTMENT
WHAT HAPPENED IF WE JUST FORGET OUR PROBLEMS
HOW TO REMEMBER APPOINTMENT BUT FORGET THE CONSEQUENCE?

How to remember appointment but not the self, not person-person, not to have personal relationship. Be cause emotions come out in personal relationship with the universe.

Emotion create the object's quality, the value of an object. The affective connotation or adjective of a noun. Emotion of frustration/gratification create positive/negative value of object. Negative emotion will produce negative object and visa versa. "she is a pretty girl" is a report of gratified emotion.

1/28/13

IS IT POSSIBLE THAT TOO MUCH INFORMATION/SKILLS MAKE A TASK BORING? LIKE WEALTH OR HEALTH?
LITTLE HEALTH OR WEALTH IS TROUBLESOME BUT TOO MUCH HEALTH OR WEALTH DOESN'T MAKE A PERSON HAPPIER.

BOREDOM HAPPENS WHEN WISHING DOING SOMETHING ELSE LIKE LONELINESS WHEN MISSING SOMEONE ELSE.

PARENTING AS PROFESSION.

WHY HELP PROBLEMATIC PEOPLE? MAYBE, THEY SHOULD LEARN FROM LIFE ITSELF. THEY WILL HIT ROCK BOTTOM AND LEARN FROM THE PAIN ITSELF.

Encoder decoder

In our mind, we encode and decode
create thought and perceive thought
decoding comes before encoding
since we don't create something from nothing
we react to form a sentence
we decode our feeling, decipher it
turning it into understandable experience
like we decode our experience
before we encode our response to it.

perception type has strong decoding skills, and judging type has strong encoding skills. introvert communicate and act internally where extrovert do it externally. feeling encode/react thru senses where thinking encode/react thru verbal. intuition decode/collect abstract information where sense decode/collect concrete information. judgement type focus on reacting, where perception type focus on collecting information.

SOME PEOPLE HAS PROBLEM DECODING FEELING
SO THEY REACT TO UNDECODED FEELING
SOME HAS PROBLEM DECODING THOUGHTS
THIS IS USUALLY EXTROVERT'S PROBLEMS
THE ABSTRACT HAS PROBLEM DECODING CONCRETE INFORMATION
THE CONCRETE HAS PROBLEMS DECODING ABSTRACT INFORMATION
THE FEELING HAS PROBLEMS DECODING LOGIC
THE LOGIC HAS PROBLEMS DECODING FEELING

INTROVERTS HAS PROBLEM DECODING INTERPERSONAL AND INTERACTIVE ENVIRONMENTAL EXPERIENCE
THE ABSTRACT HAS PROBLEM WITH CONCRETE INTERPERSONAL AND INTER ENVIRONMENTAL INFORMATION
THE CONCRETE WITH ABSTRACT INFORMATION
THE FEELING TYPE WITH ORGANIZATION, RULES,AND ORDER
THE THINKING TYPE WITH EMPATHY

SOME PEOPLE, ESPECIALLY THE PERCEPTION TYPE, HAS PROBLEMS WITH ENCODING INFORMATION, DECISION MAKING OR UNCERTAINTY TO REACT

Weight

oh, how I feel heavy
knowing what's ahead of me
like flying with a stone tied to the leg
or swimming while being tied to a big rock
it drag me down

dreaming in not so dreamworld
living in kind of a dream
turn dream into nightmare
and life into living hell
when I live with what I don't have
Having what I don't want
life is like dreaded chores
waiting for holiday
what a miserable existence indeed.
oh, how i feel heavy
having to go to places I don't want to go and do things that I don't want to do
wishing for the magic trick that can turn it around
a prayer, or simply just waiting...
even if they come, I am gonna miss it if I m not awake..
what is life without emotion, the stone that drag me down to the bottom of bottomless...

CONSCIOUS EXPERIENCE

CONSCIOUS EXPERIENCE RISE UP AS I AWAKE FROM SLUMBER
ALL THE SENSOR AND THE AGENDA OF TOMORROW OR THE NEXT 12 HOURS
AS IF NOW DOESN'T COUNT
EMOTIONALLY RESTLESS, PREPARING FOR THE EXAM THAT IS THE FUTURE
IT IS HOW WE WILL FEEL WHEN THE EVENT COME
SO, WE ARE PREPARING AND CREATING HOW WE FEEL
WE ARE CREATING REALITY
BECAUSE HOW WE FEEL MATTER MORE THAN WHAT WE SEE
IF MY PETS DIE TOMORROW, I KNOW HOW I AM GOING TO FEEL
AND THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT WE FEEL IF IT DOES TODAY OR TOMORROW
LIFE IS AN ILLUSION OF TIME AND SPACE
WE PROBABLY ARE NOT GOING ANYWHERE OR ANYWHEN
WE JUST STAY HERE
THE EARTH JUST STAY HERE
OUR MIND IS THE ONE THAT MOVE
WE ARE CREATING EVENT CHRONOLOGICALLY
WE STAY HERE AND LIFE PASS US BY
WE STAY HERE AND LIFE EXPERIENCE PASS US BY...

emotion social

SOCIAL INTERACTION IS DEALING WITH PEOPLE'S EMOTION AND OWN'S EMOTION

EXTERNALLY, INTROVERT IS JAGO KANDANG, WHEN COMFORTABLE THEN TALKATIVE
FAMILIAR ENVIRONMENT, HIGHLY PREDICTABLE AND TRUSTED ENVIRONMENT LIKE INTERNAL ENVIRONMENT, THEN TALKATIVE. VERY INTIMATE ENVIRONMENT, SHOW REAL SELF

EXTERNALLY, EXTROVERT IS PEOPLE SMART, COMFORTABLE IN UNFAMILIAR, LOW PREDICTABLE AND TRUSTED ENVIRONMENT
EXTROVERT WEAR EMOTION ON THEIR SLEEVE, ALWAYS TALKATIVE.

INTERNALLY, EXTROVERT IS NOT GOOD WITH PROCESSING THOUGHT/FEELING. WHEN FAMILIAR, THEY PROCESS MORE THOUGHT/FEELING, INTIMATE ENVIRONMENT, THEY GET IN TOUCH WITH THOUGHT/FEELING

DEALING WITH INTROVERT IS DEALING WITH INTERNAL EMOTION, INDIRECT INTERACTION, DEVELOP TRUST

DEALING WITH EXTROVERT IS DEALING WITH EXTERNAL EMOTION, DIRECT INTERACTION, EASY COME EASY GO

DRAMA IS AN THEATER OF EMOTION, SOMETHING TO BE WATCHED, NOT TO EXPERIENCE

WHAT IS LIFE WITHOUT EMOTION? PLEASURE. BOREDOM KICK IN WHEN WE WISH DOING SOMETHING ELSE. MATCHING THE  SKILLS WITH THE TASKS.

SUNDAY 27-1-13 POETRY, DEPTH, FEELINGS, ETC

POETRY LANGUAGE IS SYNAESTHESIA, USING ONE SENSE FOR ANOTHER SENSE, LIKE SEEING THE SOUND, TOUCH, OR TOUCHING THE VISION
IT IS HIGH ABSTRACTION METAPHOR WITH LOW ABSTRACTION STRUCTURE.
IT IS HIGH ABSTRACTION METAPHOR WITH LOW ABSTRACTION COMPARISON/ASSOCIATION/CONVERSION
TURNING ABSTRACT EXPERIENCE INTO SENSE EXPERIENCE
LIKE FEELING
TO GIVE LANGUAGE AND MEANING TO TALK ABOUT THE EXPERIENCE, LIKE SPIRITUAL LANGUAGE ENABLE US TO TALK ABOUT ABSTRACT EXPERIENCE
TO GIVE MEANING TO EXPERIENCE.

POETRY  RELY ON FIRST IMPRESSION, THE EFFECT WEAR OFF AFTER A WHILE.
IF IT IS OVERUSED OR ABUSED AS SYMBOLS, LIKE RAYUAN GOMBAL

A PERSON IS DEEP OR SUPERFICIAL DEPENDS ON THE FACTORS HE CONSIDER AND THE LEVEL OF ABSTRACTION HE USE
A SUPERFICIAL PERSON CONSIDER LESS FACTOR AND DEAD LOW LEVEL OF ABSTRACTION.
A DEEP PERSON CONSIDER LOTS MORE FACTORS AND DEAD HIGH LEVEL OF ABSTRACTION

TWO BASIC FEELINGS ARE  SEEKING AND FEAR
IN SEEKING MODE, WE "GET SUCKED INTO THE EXPERIENCE", FORGET THE TIME AND PLACE AND JUST FOCUS ON THE OBJECTS

IN FEAR MODE, WE "STEP BACK FROM THE EXPERIENCE" TO REFLECT (LEARN) OR ANTICIPATE (USE WHAT WE LEARN) TO COMPLEMENT/IMPROVE THE EXPERIENCE. IT IS LIKE GRIEF. THIS IS THE COMMENTARY/3RD PERSON PERCEPTION WHERE WE IDENTIFY WITH THE EXPERIENCE. WE USE FEELING TO "SCAN/GET THE FEEL/DETECT" THE DANGER/FRIENDLY AND SUGGEST TO CHANGE THE COURSE.

manual

difficulties in life is due to trial/error due to no manual or tools, like fixing own cars takes much longer than taking it to mechanics

three type of poetic language: narrative (the story), lyrical (states, incidents, moments, 1st person), drama (verse, voiced of others characters.

we run these three types in our mind, there is the self (lyrical), others (drama), and narrative (the story)

Loneliness
 oh, lonely I feel, yet not alone
like  a child lost in a market
surrounded by crowd, yet
being crowdblinded like a shield covering my sight
it's seems dark

A handful of nicotine and caffeine sooth me alright
standing and not daring to move
the time passes carrying pieces of the lost memory
hoping to bring me the lost one that I look for.

What, me, you don't like me?
what? you don't like my look or something tells you there is more
it's ok I tell myself
I don't like me either sometimes
and that something tells me things too
but you don't have to live with me, I do
you know, I don't like mean people so I don't live with them
you don't have to like me or live with me
but I must like me and live with me
So be it, like yourself and live with yourself
but please let me like you...

Love story
He keeps falling for them
and they keep letting him down
the story of my life
is it a curse?

having what he doesn't like
but he can't have what he likes
is grass greener on the other side of the fence?
or is he simply lucky in life not in love

Is it me?
this is the dagger that I hesitate to push down
the mistery, curiously inviting yet terrifying
the ugly duck, the shy guy
aaaah, nobody wants to be that...
let's leave it for another day...

Who am I
More unknown than the edge of the universe
The unsolved mistery
They say I am swirling atoms that can think
Think? how can the atoms think?
what is this Think?
imagination they say
what kinds of atom has imagination?

they say to stop this curiousity
"a knife doesn't cut itself"
So, I can't know about myself
No, you can't know yourself
like "teeth can't bite itself"
but, you can know about yourself
like you can know about a flower
what;s the difference?
you can know flower and you can know about flower
you can know about yourself but you can't know yourself
like, you can know about Jesus but you may not know Jesus
Like you can know about other cities, countries, but doesn't mean you know
sadly my friend, all you know about yourself is about yourself not yourself
Look at the mirror and what do you see?
myself.
No, you see a reflection about yourself depending on the light condition and the quality of the mirror, but you don't see yourself
But I can know others? you can know others and you can know about others.
What's a difference? You can recognize what you know about but not what you know.
So, how do i know I don't know myself? because your eyes can't see itself.

THINKING BEING

WHAT MAKES US HUMAN IS THE MENTAL THINKING ABILITY
TO GIVE FREEDOM TO CONTROL ACTION
TO ESCAPE THE GRAVITY OF NATURE AND ANIMAL KINGDOM
IT IS ESSENTIAL TO DEVELOP THE MIND TO CONTROL THE EMOTION
NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND.
SUFFERING IS EMOTIONAL LIVING IN COGNITIVE WORLD
THE INCOMPLETE PHASE OF EVOLUTION

THIS IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A PSYCHOPATH AND MYSTIC. THEY BOTH ACT VERY LOGICAL AND FREE FROM EMOTION
BUT, THE PSYCHOPATH'S EMOTION IS SURPRESSED WHERE THE MYSTIC IS REALLY FREE FROM EMOTIONS

EMOTIONS ARE "TO BE CONTROLLED" NOT BECAUSE THEY ARE BAD
BUT BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT SUITED TO DEAL WITH HUMAN ENVIRONMENT
THEY ARE ANCIENT AND IS EFFECTIVE TO DEAL WITH NATURAL ENVIRONMENT.

EMOTIONAL FACTOR

Secara global peristiwa ini dipengaruhi oleh faktor psikososial dan lingkungan yang terdiri atas dua faktor, yakni faktor biopsikososial (seperti tekanan dalam bentuk sugesti) dan faktor sosiokultural (kepercayaan masyarakat Indonesia mengenai unsur-unsur mistis),

WHAT IS PSYCHOLOGICAL FACTORS BUT EMOTIONAL FACTORS?
KETERIKATAN EMOSI ATAU AFFLICTED EMOTIONS TO OUR NIGHTMARE
THE INTERACTION BETWEEN EMOTIONAL AND SOCIAL DIMENSION

EMOTIONAL FACTORS IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN TRAUMATIC AND NONTRAUMATIC MEMORY. BETWEEN FIRST AND THIRD PERSON VIEW. BETWEEN THEORY AND REAL EXPERIENCE. DIATAS KERTAS DAN PENGALAMAN

CONDITIONAL THINKING

THERE ARE 3 LEVEL OF CONDITIONAL THINKING:
O LEVEL - 100% RELATIONSHIP

1 LEVEL - 50 TO 100% RELATIONSHIP

2 LEVEL - 0 TO 50% RELATIONSHIP

3 LEVEL - 0% RELATIONSHIP, IN THE PAST.

CONFUSING THEM CAN LEAD TO PROBLEMS. LIKE THINKING 3 LEVEL CONDITIONING IN THE PRESENT, LIKE THINKING ABOUT THE PAST.

HOPING LEVEL 2 AS LEVEL 0 CONDITIONING, LIKE IN COURTING

FORCING LEVEL 2 OR 3 THINKING AS LEVEL 0 THINKING, IN AGGRESSIVE ENTITLEMENT THINKING.

EXPECTATION IN RELATIONSHIP

IN SOCIAL RELATIONSHIP AND ACTIVITIES, THERE IS EXPECTATION, CLEAR AND UNCLEAR
ANYTHING BOUND BY LAW HAS WRITTEN AND UNWRITTEN EXPECTATION

RELATIONSHIP PAIN AND SUFFERING IS THE ONLY PSYCHOLOGICAL PAIN/SUFFERING BECAUSE RELATIONSHIP IS A PSYCHOLOGICAL CONCEPT.

TOPENG

SEMUA DOSA BERSEMBUNYI DI BALIK TOPENG KEBAIKAN.
ALL SINS HIDE BEHIND THE MASK OF KINDNESS.

WE ARE NOT ADDICTED TO LOVE, WE ARE ADDICTED TO PLEASURE, CRAVE ACCEPTANCE AND APPROVAL. IF WE NEED ACCEPTANCE FROM OTHERS, WE HAVE TO CONTROL OTHERS, WE HAVE TO POSSESS OTHERS.

FILTERED REALITY/REALITAS YANG TERSARING. A PRESIDENT OR CEO CAN'T ABSORB ALL INFORMATION ABOUT HIS COUNTRY OR COMPANY. HE WILL HAVE HIS ASSISTANT TO SUMMARIZE THEM AND MAKE A SHORT REPORT.

USE CONCEPT TO TAKE YOU TO THE OBJECTS/REALITY. WHEN YOU GET TO THE OBJECTS, LEAVE THE CONCEPTS AND USE AWARENESS. TO KNOW BEYOND KNOWLEDGE, THE HORSE THAT TAKE YOU TO A HOUSE CAN'T TAKE YOU INSIDE THE HOUSE.

KEINGINAN BUKAN PREFERENSI, PILIHAN

PENGALAMAN MENYENANGKAN MEMBUAT HIDUP JADI INDAH, PENGALAMAN TIDAK MENYENANGKAN MEMBUAT KITA TUMBUH.

ANDA BUKAN DUNIA, ANDA ADALAH SATELIT. ANDA BUKAN PENARI, ANDA ADALAH TARIAN

HAVE NO EXPECTATION FOR OTHERS FOR MY HAPPINESS AND WELL BEING. WE CAN HAVE EXPECTATION FOR BEHAVIORS FOR A FUNCTIONAL SOCIAL ACTIVITIES, NOT TO MAKE THEM HAPPY.

JANGAN MENCARI SAYA, TAPI MELUCUTI LABEL2 YANG MENEMPEL PADA SAYA. JANGAN MENCARI KEBENARAN TAPI BUANG PENDAPAT2.

FEELING AND COGNITION - PREPARING SELF FOR POTENTIAL PROBLEMS THAT ONE ENCOUNTER BASED ON PAST EXPERIENCE.

MEMPERSIAPKAN DIRI UNTUK TEKANAN YANG AKAN ADA HADAPI BASED ON PAST EXPERIENCE.

THIS BIOLOGICAL SYSTEM WORK IN ANIMAL ENVIRONMENT WHERE THE ENVIRONMENT IS PREDICTABLE AND SIMPLE, EAT AND REPRODUCE TO SURVIVE. THE SOCIAL SYSTEM IS MORE COMPLICATED THAN THIS WITH MANY MORE FACTOR TO PREDICT THAN USING FEELING BASED PREDICTION. IT WORK BEST FOR BASIC GENERAL PREDICTION, BUT NOT FOR SPECIFIC. COGNITION WITHOUT FEELING WORK BEST WITH SPECIFIC PREDICTION.

TRAUMA ACTIVATES PREDICTION

Imaginary Self and subject permanence

THERE ARE TWO FACTOR CREATING THE ILLUSION OF SELF: THE IMAGINARY SELF AND SUBJECT PERMANENCE. WHAT GLUE THE IMAGINATION IS THE EMOTIONAL DEPENDENCE/ATTACHMENT.

WE ARE FAMILIAR AND CONSCIOUS OF TERMS IMAGINARY FRIENDS AND OBJECT PERMANENCE.
IMAGINARY FRIENDS ARE PSYCHOLOGICAL IMAGINATION OF PEOPLE THAT A CHILD ATTACH TO AS IF THEY ARE REAL. SOME OF THESE FRIENDS ARE IMAGINARY SUPERHERO WHERE A CHILD PRETENDS THAT HE IS ONE. THIS PRETEND PLAY IS ENABLED BY INTROVERT'S ATTACHMENT TO THEIR IMAGINATION. THE MORE THEY GO INSIDE THE LESS THEY GO OUTSIDE.
THE WORLD IN THE PRETEND PLAY IS PASSIVE AND IS DIRECTED BY OWN SELF.

A CHILD IS DEVELOPING A SENSE OF SELF IN A PRETEND PLAY WITH IMAGINARY FRIENDS. HE IS DEVELOPING AN IMAGINARY SELF. JUST LIKE THE IDEAL FRIENDS AND ENVIRONMENT THAT HE CREATE JUST FOR THE PURPOSE OF PLEASURE, HE DEVELOPS AN IDEAL IMAGINARY SELF WITH POSITIVE ROLE, A NARCISSISTIC ROLE OF POWER, BEAUTY, WEALTH, AND FAME. EITHER SOCIAL OR HEROIC. THIS FANTASY PLAY OF IDEAL SELF AND ENVIRONMENT IS ENABLED BY OUR EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENT/IDENTIFICATION TO THE CHARACTERS IN THE PLAY. THIS EMOTIONAL ATTACHMENT POWER UP AND MAKE THE CHARACTERS COME ALIVE.

ANOTHER FACTOR IS THE SUBJECT PERMANENCE. PIAGET SAID THAT A CHILD DEVELOP AN INTELLIGENCE TO UNDERSTAND THE PRESENCE OF ABSENT OBJECTS CALLED OBJECT PERMANENCE. AT THE SAME TIME, WE ALSO DEVELOP SUBJECT PERMANENCE, A DESIGNATE FOR OUR BODY IN THE MAP OF ENVIRONMENT.

HOWEVER, OUR EMOTIONAL ENERGY ARISES FROM OUR PERSONALITY CONFLICTS AND DYNAMIC GETS INTO THESE CHARACTERS OF SUBJECT AND OBJECTS AND PLAY THEM LIKE A PUPPER MASTER PLAY HIS PUPPETS USING HIS HANDS. OUR PERSONALITY USES ITS "HANDS" TO PLAY THESE IMAGINARY SELF AND FRIENDS TO LIFE AND USE LANGUAGE TO CREATE PLOT FOR THEM IN THIS FANTASY/PRETEND PLAY.

OUR PERSONALITY PROVIDES THE BACKGROUND ENVIRONMENT LANDSCAPE AND INTERNAL PERSONALITY OF ITS CHARACTER, SELF AND OTHERS. OUR PERSONALITY IS THE DIRECTOR AND PRODUCER OF THIS MOVIE TO PLEASE HIMSELF.

THE PROBLEMS WITH OUR INTERNAL ACTORS ARE THAT THEY ARE PASSIVE AND AT OUR WHIM. THEY ARE PERSONALITY PUPPETS. THEY ARE THE PAPER PUPPETS. WE ARE ADDICTED TO THIS PAPER PUPPETS. OUR OWN PLEASURE CONTROL.

PERSONALITY IS LIKE A DRUG TO REGULATE OUR PLEASURE. IT IS EMOTIONAL DISTORTION OF REALITY, DEVIATION OF REALITY, PREFERENCE

THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ANALYSIS/INFORMATION AND AWARENESS. LIKE READING ENCYCLOPEDIA OR MEDICAL JOURNAL ABOUT STATISTICS, THEORY, HYPOTHESIS AND EXPERIENCING IT. I KNOW ABOUT STATISTIC AND HOW TO QUIT SMOKING BUT CAN'T QUIT SMOKING. THERE IS THE HUMAN FACTOR, OUR EMOTION AND OTHERS THAT WE CAN'T CONTROL AND ENVIRONMENTAL FACTORS.

WE ARE ADDICTED TO THE INFORMATION BECAUSE WE ARE NOT AWARE. LIKE "PEACE", "HAPPINESS", "KINDNESS". THIS BECOME EXPECTATION. DOSA BERSEMBUNYI DI BALIK TOPENG KEBAIKAN.

3rd PERSON SELF

NOTICE THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN OBSERVING THE ROOM AND OBSERVING THE SELF. WE USE OUR SENSES TO OBSERVE THE ROOM BUT WE USE OUR IMAGINATION TO OBSERVE THE SELF. BECAUSE WE ARE LAZY, WE ALSO USE IMAGINATION TO OBSERVE THE ROOM AND DON;T OBSERVE THE REAL ROOM.

LIKE WE ARE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT SOMETHING AND OBSERVING THE PERSON WHO IS TRYING TO FIGURE OUT. THE I IS NOT THE PERSONALITY OR THE SELF.

WHEN OUR FRIENDS MUST TAKE AN EXAM, WE DON'T FEEL STRESS. WHEN WE EXPERIENCE NON TRAUMATIC MEMORY, WE DON'T FEEL STRESS. LIKE VISITING OLD COLLEGE OR OLD JOB PLACE. WE FELT STRESS WHEN WE WERE DOING IT, BUT NOW, IT'S JUST A PLACE AND PEOPLE. THERE IS NO SELF EXPECTATION, NO STRESS. WE IDENTIFIED WITH THE SELF WHO MUST TAKE THE EXAM OR MUST WORK.

IN TRAUMATIC MEMORY, WE STILL FEEL THE NEGATIVE AFFLICTIVE EMOTION. THE SELF STILL MAKES APPEARANCE. OUR BODY IS HIJACKED BY THE SELF. SHOULD BE THE OTHER WAY AROUND. WE GET HIJACKED BY OUR FANTASY AND FEELING - PERSONALITY

BABY CAN ONLY DRINK MILK, ADULTS CAN DRINK MILK BUT CAN ALSO DRINK OTHER BEVERAGES. MATURITY IS FLEXIBILITY.

I USE PERSONALITY TO ATTACH TO THE CONSCIOUS SELF.
PERSONALITY DISTORT REALITY BY PREFERENCE AND DENY SOME PARTS.

THIS IS OUR PSYCHOLOGICAL ATTACHMENT/DEPENDENCE ON SELF/OTHERS. WE LET OUR SELVE OR OTHERS HIJACK US TO MAKE HAPPY.

intro/extro

INTROVERT USE HIS INTROVERTNESS TO DEAL WITH EXTROVERT WORLD.

EXTROVERT USE HIS EXTROVERTNESS TO DEAL WITH HIS INTERNAL WORLD. FILL THE EMPTINESS

INTROVERT IS QUIET BECAUSE HE PROCESS AND TEST OUT INFORMATION FIRST. EXTROVERT IS ACTIVE BECAUSE HE TEST OUT AND PROCESS INFO OUTSIDE.

INTROVERT PRIVATE LIFE IS ALIVE BUT HIS PUBLIC LIFE IS RESTLESS AWKWARD.

EXTROVERT PUBLIC LIFE IS ALIVE BUT HIS PRIVATE LIFE IS RESTLESS AND AWKWARD.

ENNEAGRAM 1 IS INTROVERT THINKING
2 IS INTROVERT FEELING
3 IS INTROVERT SENSING
4 IS INTROVERT INTUITION
5 IS EXTROVERT INTUITION
6 IS EXTROVERT SENSING
7 IS EXTROVERT FEELING
8 IS EXTROVERT THINKING

BEHAVIORS

WHAT WE PHYSICALLY SEE IS BEHAVIORS. WE INFER THE PERSON FROM THE BEHAVIORS
RULES GOVERN BEHAVIORS, NOT THE PERSONS
WHAT WE PREDICT IS BEHAVIORS
WHAT WE CAN MANAGE AND GOVERN IS BEHAVIORS
BEHAVIORS IS WHAT WE ARE AFRAID OF FROM CREATURES AND HUMAN
BEHAVIORS ARE NOTHING BUT MOVEMENT AND CHANGE

TRAFFIC RULES REGULATE OUR DRIVING BEHAVIORS, NOT FOR HAPPINESS. JUST THE BEHAVIORS.

WHAT IS FRUSTRATING WHEN WE COMPARE BEHAVIORS AND EXPECTATION. BEHAVIOR WILL NEVER MEET EXPECTATION/GOAL.
BEHAVIOR IS DIFFERENT THAN PREDICTION. PREDICTION IS EXPECTATION.

LEARNING BY KNOWING IS DIFFERENT THAN LEARNING BY DOING. WE CAN LEARN FROM INFORMATION THE TASTE OF ORANGE BUT IT IS DIFFERENT THAN TASTING IT. LEARNING BY DOING IS EXPERIENCE, LEARNING BY KNOWLEDGE IS THEORITICAL. THIS IS THE EXTENTIAL LEARNING NOT THE INTENTIONAL LEARNING.

IT S OKAY TO USE INTENTIONAL INFORMATION TO COMPLETE MISSING PICTURE, BUT DON'T RELY ON IT BY ITSELF. ITS PURPOSE IS ONLY TO COMPLETE THE EXTENTIONAL EXPERIENCE THAT WE HAVE.

January 19 2013

IS AUTISM EMOTION/SENSE AND IMAGINATION, INTRAPERSONAL/INTERPERSONAL EXCITABILITY (UNDEVELOPED) AND DEVELOPED MOTOR INTELLIGENCE OR BRAIN DISORDER? COGNITIVE REGRESSION?

EMOTIONAL HYPERSENSITIVITY OR COGNITIVE DISSAPEARANCE?

CONSCIOUSNESS DISSAPEARANCE OR OVEREXCITABILITY? THE PROBLEM OF CONSCIOUSNESS.

EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS? OR BIOLOGICAL PROBLEMS?

SOMETIMES, SAVANT HAS HIGH LOGIC ABILITY OR IMAGINATION (VISUAL MEMORY) OR MOTORIC MECHANICAL ABILITY. THE ABILITY TO MIMIC WHAT IS SENSED (VISUAL MEMORY). WHAT IS MISSING IS THE CONSCIOUSNESS AND EMPATHY. THEY HAVE EMOTION (RAGE). THEY HAVE PREY EMOTION. FEAR BASED EMOTION.

LEARNING BY MEMORIZING VISUAL MARKERS
LEARNING BY DOING INVOLVES OTHER SENSES, MORE POWERFUL.

EVERYTHING IS IDEA. INTROVERT IS IDEA WITHIN IDEA.

EXTROVERT DEALS WITH EXTERNAL ENVIRONMENT. INTROVERT WITH INTERNAL ENVIRONMENT, IDEA WITHIN IDEA.

THINKING IS LOGICAL. EXTROVERT REGULATE ENVIRONMENT LOCICALLY. INTROVERT REGULATE ITS MIND LOGICALLY.

FEELING IS EMPATHIC. EXTROVERT REGULATE ENVIRONMENT EMPATHICALLY, ATTACHMENT/CONNECTION (OTHERS CAUSE FEELINGS). INTROVERT REGULATE MIND EMPATHICALLY. ATTACHMENT TO IDEA.

THINKING REGULATE TRUTH, FEELING REGULATE SATISFACTION/FRUSTRATION.

SENSE IS CONCRETE DATA. EXTROVERT LOOK FOR CONCRETE DATA IN ENVIRONMENT. INTROVERT LOOK FOR CONCRETE DATA IN MIND.

INTUITION IS ABSTRACT DATA. EXTROVERT LOOK FOR ABSTRACT DATA IN ENVIRONMENT. INTROVERT LOOK FOR ABSTRACT DATA IN MIND.

INTROVERT, GOOD WITH INTERNAL WORLD AND STRUCTURE, ARE GOOD AT GETTING INTO OTHERS' INTERNAL. INTERNAL GOING TO INTERNAL. GETTING BEYOND THE SHIELD OF OTHERS. LIKE ANTENNAE FOR OTHERS' INTERNAL STRUCTURE. GETTING INTO THEIR WORLD, MIND AND FEELING. GETTING INTO THEIR PSYCHOLOGICAL STRUCTURE AND WORLD.

INTROVERT IS GOOD AT INTER INTERNAL COMMUNICATION, FROM MY INSIDE TO OTHERS' INSIDE. HE IS GOOD AT REVERSE ENGINEERING, BREAKING DOWN SOMETHING, INTERNAL MANAGER, MANAGER OF INTERNAL WORLD.

IF THE INTERNAL WORLD IS FINE, HE IS FINE.

INTERNAL COMMUNICATION SEE PRESYMBOLIC, HIDDEN STRUCTURAL. THUS HE IS EMOTIONALLY SENSITIVE, BECAUSE HE IS SO OVERLOADED WITH RICH STORAGE EMOTION THAT GETS TRIGGERED VERY EASILY. HE IS SO AWARE OF HIS EMOTION AND IMAGINATION THAT IT DOESN'T TAKE MUCH TO TRIGGER IT. THIS CAUSE A LOW THRESHOLD FOR EXTERNAL EMOTION. DUE TO RICH IMAGINATION, THE REAL WORLD LOOK PALE COMPARED TO IT. AND DUE TO OVERIMAGINATION, THE REAL WORLD CAN DOWNRIGHT IS OVERBEARING WITH DETAILS PROVIDED BY THE IMAGINATION.

DUE TO OVEREMOTION AND OVERIMAGINATION, THE EXTERNAL WORLD CAN BE OVERBEARING WITH THE DETAIL INFORMATION PROVIDED FROM INSIDE. HE WILL TURN OFF THE EXTERNAL DATA IF GIVEN ENOUGH DATA FOR THE INTERNAL WORLD. HE WILL GO OUT TO LOOK FOR DATA IF NEEDED OR CALM. THEY CREATE AND HAVE THE WORLD INSIDE AND DON'T NEED ADDITIONAL EXTERNAL WORLD. THEY FEEL EMPTY ON THE OUTSIDE AND TRY TO FILL THE EMPTINESS WITH THEIR INTERNAL WORLD. THEY HAVE DEVELOPED EMOTIONAL, IMAGINATION, AND INTRAPERSONAL INTELLIGENCE AND LACK SENSUAL MOTORIC AND INTERPERSONAL INTELLIGENCE. THEY HAVE SENSUAL MOTORIC AND INTERPERSONAL EXCITABILITY BECAUSE THEY ARE UNDEVELOPED (BEYOND COMFORT ZONE)

EXTROVERT ON THE OTHER HAND FEEL SO UNDERSTIMULATED FROM INSIDE THAT THEY SEEK STIMULATION FROM OUTSIDE. THEY DON'T TRUST IMAGINATION AND FEELING THAT THEY DON'T SEE ANYTHING INSIDE. THEY FEEL EMPTY INSIDE AND TRY TO FILL IT WITH EXTERNAL THINGS.  THEY HAVE DEVELOPED SENSUAL MOTORIC AND INTERPERSONAL INTELLIGENCE AND LACK EMOTIONAL IMAGINATION AND INTRAPERSONAL INTELLIGENCE. THEY HAVE EMOTIONAL IMAGINATION AND INTRAPERSONAL OVEREXCITABILITY BECAUSE THEY ARE UNDEVELOPED (BEYOND COMFORT ZONE)

introvert is comfortable with words/symbols rather than the actual objects. He works with pre action rather than action. they are good with prediction. That s why  they investigate structure and reverse engineer. that's why introverts are the scientists of the world. Nature is fair, since the introvert is externally slow, he has special ability of predicting behaviors. Introvert prefer top down processing.

Mental Development

THERE ARE 3 KINDS OF COGNITION: LOGIC, CONSCIOUSNESS, AND MENTAL STRENGTH.

LOGIC IS WHAT IS USED TO PLAY CHESS, TO CALCULATE, TO PREDICT.

CONSCIOUSNESS IS TO RECOGNIZE, TO TURN DATA TO INFORMATION

MENTAL STRENGTH IS THE ABILITY TO DELAY REACTION. IT IS PROBABLY MORE PHYSICAL THAN MENTAL. :) TO WITHSTAND STRONG INTERNAL STIMULI BARRAGE

intro/extro

INTROVERT HAS STRONG SENSITIVE FEELING AND IMAGINATION FOR STIMULATION, THEY DON'T NEED EXTERNAL FEELING AND IMAGINATION. THEY CAN'T STAND EXTERNAL FEELING AND SCENE, THEY WILL GET OVEREXCITABLE AND WILL SHUT DOWN EXTERNAL INPUT AND EXECUTE OUTPUT BEHAVIOR.

FOR INTROVERT, OUTSIDE WORLD IS OUTSIDE THE COMFORT ZONE AND WILL CREATE UNWANTED DRAMA/NIGHTMARE THAT CAN SUCK THE ENERGY OUT OF HIM. DUE TO HIS INTERNAL DRAMA THAT HE CAN AT LEAST CONTROL, THE OUTSIDE WORLD IS JUST TOO THREATENING.

EXTROVERT HAS STRONG EXTERNAL FEELING AND IMAGINATION FOR STIMULATION. THEY LACK INTERNAL FEELING AND IMAGINATION, IF THEY GO INSIDE THEY GET UNDEREXCITABLE.

THERE ARE INTROVERT WHO BECOME EXTROVERT DUE TO TRAUMA
EXTROVERT WHO BECOME INTROVERT DUE TO TRAUMA
WHO ARE NEITHER EXTROVERT NOR INTROVERT LIKE BEING PING PONG LIKE BORDERLINE BECAUSE OF TRAUMA. BETWEEN ROCK AND HARD PLACES.

suffering and change

NATURE CHANGE AND MOVE ALL THE TIME
ON ONE HAND, WHEN WE RESIST THE CHANGE IN NATURE, WE SUFFER
THINGS HAPPEN BECAUSE OF FACTORS, INTERNAL AND EXTERNAL
IT IS BEYOND OUR CONTROL
EVEN OUR BODY IS BEYOND OUR CONTROL
WHAT IS NATURAL CAN'T BE CONTROLLED
IT'S MUCH STRONGER THAN WE ARE

WE ALSO SUFFER WHEN FOLLOWING NATURE
THERE IS NOTHING THAT IS NOT NATURAL
LIKE GREED AND DESIRE
THEY ARE MADE FROM FACTORS
WE SUFFER BECAUSE WE DON'T HAVE HUMAN MENTAL STRENGTH YET TO DEAL WITH HUMAN EMOTION SUCH AS GREED
GREED IS ADVANCE HUMAN EMOTION TO COGNITIVE IMAGINATION ENVIRONMENT
WE HAVEN'T EVOLVE ENOUGH WITH THE MENTAL DEVELOPMENT TO MATCH THE ADVANCE EMOTION
ONLY THOSE WHO PRACTICE MENTAL DEVELOPMENT CAN TAME THIS WILD EMOTION
IN THIS CASE, WE SUFFER DEALING WITH NATURE
LIKE GETTING SWEPT BY THE STORM

DESIRE ON THE OTHER HAND IS TOO ANIMAL
BALANCE OF LIFE: ANIMAL HAS POWERFUL EMOTION AND WEAK INTELLIGENCE, HUMAN HAS WEAKER EMOTION BUT MORE POWERFUL INTELLIGENCE
ANIMAL THAT HAS POWERFUL EMOTION AND INTELLIGENCE ARE DANGEROUS, LIKE HUMAN WHO HAS ANIMALISTIC EMOTION AND POWERFUL INTELLIGENCE. LIKE THE PLANETS OF THE APE.

LET THE NATURE RUN ITS COURSE

WHATEVER MADE FROM NATURE CHANGE BECAUSE FACTORS CHANGE CONSTANTLY

SHADOW 2

WE DON'T SEE OBJECTS, WE SEE REFLECTIONS OF LIGHT ON OBJECTS
IT IS THE SAME REASON THAT WE DON'T SEE OBJECT IN OUR MIND, WE SEE REFLECTION OF LIGHT (PAST KNOWLEDGE) ON OBJECTS. WITHOUT THIS LIGHT, WE DON'T RECOGNIZE AN OBJECT JUST LIKE WITHOUT PHYSICAL LIGHT, WE DON'T SEE AN OBJECTS.

JUNG CALLED THIS PROJECTION OF SHADOW. REFLECTION IS PROBABLY MORE APPROPRIATE THAN SHADOW. PHYSICALLY, A SHADOW IS CREATED WHEN THE SURFACE DOESN'T REFLECT BACK. FOR EXAMPLE, IF YOU ARE STANDING ON A PAVEMENT WITH THE SUN BEHIND YOU, YOU WILL SEE A BLACK SHADOW BECAUSE THE PAVEMENT IS NOT REFLECTIVE. HOWEVER,  IF YOU STAND ON TOP OF A MIRROR, YOU WILL SEE A REFLECTED YOU.

SO, THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A SHADOW AND REFLECTION IN OUR MIND IS THAT REFLECTION IS RECOGNITION BY THE LIGHT OF KNOWLEDGE AND SHADOW IS SOMETHING WE DON'T RECOGNIZE DUE TO THE LIGHT OF KNOWLEDGE. IT'S LIKE A BLINDSPOT THAT CAN HIT YOU THE SAME. THIS IS THE BIAS AND UNKNOWN PART OF OURSELVES.

WE PROJECT OUR INTERNAL WORLD TO THE EXTERNAL WORLD AND INJECT OUR EXTERNAL WORLD INTO THE INTERNAL WORLD. SHADOW IS ANYTHING WE DENY, THAT WE DON'T REFLECT, THAT WE DON'T WANT TO RECOGNIZE OR ADMIT. LIKE CHILDREN WHO ARE AFRAID TO SEE SHADOW AT NIGHT, WE ALSO SCAPEGOAT SHADOW. SHADOW IS A RAW FORM OF AN OBJECT. BECAUSE WE DON'T KNOW IT, WE ARE AFRAID OF IT. BECAUSE WE ARE AFRAID OF IT, WE DON'T WANT IT AND GIVE IT TO OTHERS. JUST LIKE WE REFUSE TO KNOW AND DESPISE OUR SHADOW, WE ALSO REFUSE TO KNOW AND DESPISE THIS SHADOW IN OTHERS. THIS IS PROJECTING THE SHADOW. THE BIGGER SHADOW WE HAVE, THE BIGGER SHADOW WE SEE IN OTHERS.

FOR EXAMPLE, IF WE LIKE TO STEAL AND STEALING IS SOMETHING FROWN BY OUR PRINCIPLES, WE WILL HATE IT. WE WILL HATE THE SAME STEALING BEHAVIOR IN OTHERS. SELFISH PERSON HATES ANOTHER SELFISH PERSON.

ONLY BY HAVING REFLECTION FROM THE OTHER SIDE, TO KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE STOLEN FROM, WE CAN LEARN NOT TO STEAL THAN WE CAN ACCEPT THE STEALING IN OTHERS.

WORDMAGICS AND FEELINGMAGICS

INTROVERT LIVES IN HIS WORLD
THE WORLD MADE OUT OF WORDS AND IMAGES AND FEELINGS
INTROVERT IS AN EXPERT WITH WORDMAGICS, TREATING WORDS LIKE A REAL OBJECTS
GETTING HIT BY A STONE CAN HURT YOU, BUT GETTING HIT WITH THE WORD OF STONE SHOULDN'T.

THE EXTERNAL SENSES HAVE BEEN DISABLE AND THE INTERNAL SENSES ENABLE
THE EXTERNAL SENSES ARE ONLY ENABLE TO GET DATA OR IDEA FOR THE INTERNAL PROCESS OR TO COMPLETE THE INTERNAL PICTURE

OTHER PEOPLE ARE WORDMAGIC, THE SELF IS WORDMAGIC. THESE ARE ABSTRACT WORDS TO COMPENSATE THE ABSENT REALITY.WE DON'T KNOW PEOPLE'S INTERNAL WORLD SO WE MAKE IT UP. WE DON'T SEE PEOPLE'S PSYCHOLOGICAL WORLD, LIKE WE DON'T SEE OUR PHYSICAL WORLD (HOW I AM VIEWED BY OTHERS), SO WE MAKE IT UP. AND WE BELIEVE THEM AS IS.

THIS ABILITY TO COMPENSATE ABSENT WORLD GIVES BIRTH TO FANTASY, IDEAL WORLD OF "WHAT IF". THE SUPERHERO, SUPERPOWER, ETC.

AT THE SAME TIME, WE PERCEIVE LITTLE BIT OF PERSONALITY/SELF1&2. IT IS LIKE THE MOVIE INCEPTION, WHERE I CAN DREAM DREAM-I THAT CAN DREAM DREAM-DREAM-I, ETC

OUR IGNORANT ATTACHMENT TO PERSONALITY BEYOND OUR CONSCIOUSNESS GIVES POWER TO OUR FANTASY. WE DEVELOP PERSONALITY BEFORE WE HAVE FULL AWARENESS OF DOING IT. WE STICK TO IT LIKE A GLUE, EMOTIONALLY AND GIVES RISE TO FANTASY TO EXPLAIN IT, EITHER MAKE IT WORSE AND IDEALIZE IT.

THIS ATTACHMENT TO PERSONALITY EMOTIONALWISE IS THE FEELINGMAGICS, WHERE WE BELIEVE THAT OUR FEELING IS OUR EMOTION. WHERE IN FACT, OUR FEELING IS ONLY OUR REACTION TO OUR PERSONALITY OR FANTASY IN OUR MIND. FOR EX, A PERSON IN A SAFE ENVIRONMENT MAY REACT LIKE HE IS IN DANGER BECAUSE A TABLE IS MOVED.

TWO WAYS OF REACTION:
1. OUR MIND WORK WITH ASSOCIATION BETWEEN SENSES. IT'S CALLED CONDITIONING. IF WE WATCH A MOVIE IN A BAD MOOD,  WE PROBABLY HAVE A NEGATIVE VIEW ABOUT THE MOVIE. WE ASSOCIATE AN EXPERIENCE WITH OUR PAST KNOWLEDGE. IF OUR PAST KNOWLEDGE ABOUT AN EXPERIENCE/OBJECT IS POSITIVE, WE EXPERIENCE ONE NEGATIVE EXPERIENCE, WE CALL IT SITUATIONAL. IF OUR PAST EXPERIENCE IS NEGATIVE, AND THE NEW EXPERIENCE IS NEGATIVE, THEN IT'S NOTHING NEW.

2. A PRE VISION ANIMAL REACT WITH NON VISUAL SENSES. CHANGE IN AIR PRESSURE OR VIBRATION CAN CAUSE REACTION.

THERE ARE INTROVERT/EXTROVERT TEMPERAMENT, BASIC PREFERENCE OF FUNCTIONING AND INTROVERT/EXTROVERT COPING SKILLS, MORE TEMPORARY SITUATIONAL COPING SKILLS. THIS IS CALLED THE ALTER EGO. AN INTROVERT MAY PUT AN EXTROVERT MASK OF SOCIAL SKILLS TO MASTER THE SOCIAL ENVIRONMENT OR SOCIAL DESIRABLE PROFESSION, LIKE COUNSELOR, HELPER, ETC, TO ATTRACT THE SOCIAL ENVIRONMENT. AN EXTROVERT WHO IS PUNISHED BY ENVIRONMENT MAY SURPRESS IT'S EXTROVERTNESS AND BECOME INVOLUNTARILY INTROVERT. THIS CREATES PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE BEHAVIORS. AN EXTROVERT WITH SURPRESSED INTROVERTNESS OR AN INTROVERT WITH SURPRESSED EXTROVERTNESS.

WE RECORD EXPERIENCE BY CREATING IT. THIS IS NOT A TWO SEPARATE MECHANISM, IT'S ONE. IT'S LIKE WRITING A CD. THE CD WILL HAVE WHATEVER DATA IT WRITES.

A WAY TO DETACH FROM THIS ILLUSION IS TO STOP THE ADDICTION TO IT. TO DISABLE IT. TO ENABLE THE OTHER WAYS TO FUNCTION.

complex

COMPLEX

LIVING WITH NO SENSE OF SELF IS LIKE ANIMALS, LIVING WITH TOO MUCH SENSE OF SELF IS SUFFERING

SELF COMES OUT IN TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCE OR NEW EXPERIENCE, INCOMPETENT EXPERIENCE. UNDERDEVELOPED PERSONALITY/INTELLIGENCE, OVEREXCITABILITY.

SELF COMES OUT DUE TO ATTACHMENT AND IDENTIFICATION WITH OWN LIFE.

IN COMPLEX, SELF MAKES APPEARANCE, SENSE OF SELF1-SELF2 AND SELF1-OBJECT. WITHOUT SELF1, OBJECTS IS JUST OBJECTS AND WITHOUT THE SELF1, OUR SELF2 IS JUST A SYMBOL. SELF2 IS OUR ME, OUR ROLE LIKE OTHER OBJECTS THAT HAVE ROLES. SELF ATTACH TO ITSELF CREATE POWERFUL GLUED. SELF2 IS COGNITIVE LIKE OBJECTS. SELF1 IS SENSUAL/EMOTIONAL, OUR SENSE OF SELF. HOWEVER, THIS SENSE OF SELF IS NOT OUR PHYSICAL BODY. IT IS AN INTERACTION BETWEEN OUR BODY AND LIFE, THUS THE SELF IS CREATED. THIS IS THE SELF THAT GETS HURT AND FEEL THE PAIN OF JEALOUSY AND ENVY. THIS IS OUR SOCIAL DEFENSE THAT SHIELD OR FILTER US FROM PAIN. THIS IS OUR ATTACHMENT WITH LIFE AND BODY. OUR INFATUATION WITH LIFE. IT’S MORE LIKE THE PARENTAL TYPE OF ATTACHMENT THAT DEVELOP OVERTIME. WHEN IT IS THREATENED OR HURT OR NEGLECTED, IT WILL CRY AND SULK, AND I FEEL BAD. THIS I IS THE BASIC SELF. THE FIRST SENSE OF SELF CREATED IN CHILDHOOD BEFORE SOCIAL PHASE. THIS I IS AN OBSERVER OR ORGANIZER OF PSYCHOLOGICAL EXPERIENCE, THE EGO.

INSTEAD OF INFATUATED AND TRYING TO GUARD LIFE, WE INFATUATED WITH THE SELF WHO WE TRUST TO PROTECT US AND GIVES US WARNING. WE ATTACH TO THE SELF1 LIKE WE ATTACH TO OUR CHILD. THIS ATTACHMENT QUALITY IS SHAPED BY OUR ATTACHMENT QUALITY WITH OUR PARENTS. INSECURE ATTACHMENT WITH OUR PARENTS WILL CREATE INSECURE ATTACHMENT WITH THE SELF1 AND LEAD TO OVEREXCITABILITY AND FEAR OF DETACHMENT. HOW I, THE EGO/OBSERVER, ATTACH WITH MY PARENTS WILL DETERMINE WHAT KIND OF ATTACHMENT I HAVE WITH THE SELF1.

MY ATTACHMENT WITH SELF1 WILL DISTORT AND DETERMINE SELF1 RELATIONSHIP WITH SELF2 AND OBJECTS. IF MY ATTACHMENT WITH SELF1 IS SHAKY, SELF1 WILL HIJACK MOST ATTENTION AND REQUIRE ATTENTION FROM SELF2 AND OBJECTS. SELF1 WILL CREATE A SELF2 IMAGE OF GRANDIOSE OF FAME, POPULAR, AND WEALTH AND DEMAND ATTENTION AND APPROVAL AND ACCEPTANCE FROM OTHERS ALL THE TIME TO KEEP PATCH/MAKE UP FOR HIS SHAKY ATTACHMENT. SELF1 WILL CREATE UNREAL AND OVERIDEAL SELF2 TO MAKE UP FOR NEGATIVE VIEW OF SELF1. I PROJECT ITS OWN FRUSTRATION TO SELF1. SHAKY RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PARENTS WILL GET TRANSFERRED INTO SHAKY RELATIONSHIP WITH SELF1. THE PARENTS ARE BAD BECOME THE SELF1 IS BAD. BECAUSE THE PARENTS CANNOT BE BAD AND I CANNOT BE BAD, I HAVE TO TRANSFFERED BADNESS TO SELF1. I HAVE TO KEEP CONTROLING THE SELF1 FROM MESSING UP SOCIAL LIFE. AT THE SAME TIME, WHILE TRYING TO FIX THE SELF1, I HAVE TO HIDE SELF1 FROM OTHERS. I WILL MAXIMIZE AN IDEAL SELF2 AND MINIMIZE OTHERS TO LIVE WITH SELF1. SO, LIFE IS SPENT FIXING THE SELF1 IN PRIVATE AND DENYING IT AND HIDING IT BY LIVING WITH FAKE SELF2 AND LITTLING OTHERS. IT’S LIKE LIVING WITH PROBLEM CHILD, ENABLING IT AND TRYING TO FIX IT SLOWLY.

 SELF1 IS TO SELF2 IS SUBCONSCIOUS. SELF2 IS DOMINANT PERSONALITY (THE MOST USED AND COMFORTABLE STYLE). SELF1 IS THE SHADOW (THE MOST UNUSED).

FI IS SELF2, NE IS SELF1.9, SI IS SELF1.8, TE IS SELF1.7, TI IS SELF 1.6, SE IS SELF 1.5, NI IS SELF 1,4 FE IS SELF1. SELF1 AND SELF2 IS NOT TWO SEPARATE STATIC SELF, BUT ASPECTS OF 1 SELF OF 8 TACTICS, 4 OF COLLECTING INFO AND 4 FOR UNDERSTANDING IT. 4 EXTROVERT AND 4 INTROVERT,

FI NE
SI TE IS OPPOSITE/ENEMY

NI FE IS COMPANION/OPPOSITE ATTRACT

SELF3 IS THE CONSCIOUS SELF AND OBJECT. SO I ATTACH TO THE PERSONALITY PLAYING THE CONSCIOUS SELF AND OBJECTS.

INTROVERT

THE INTROVERT LIVE NOT WITH PEOPLE OR THINGS
NOT WITH PEOPLE'S EMOTION NOR ACTIVITIES
HE LIVES WITH FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS
HE BARELY LIVE ON THE OUTSIDE, JUST ENOUGH
HE IS PASSIVE ON THE OUTSIDE
HE IS ACTIVE ON THE INSIDE
HE DOESN'T CREATE OR MAINTAIN RELATIONSHIP OR ACTIVITY
HE IS AWKWARD EXTERNALLY, NO COMPETENCE
HE IS NOT SOCIAL, AWKWARD WITH DEALING WITH PEOPLE
ACTIVITY IS SO TIRING, RELATIONSHIP IS UNSATISFACTORY BECAUSE IT DOESN'T FIT ITS IMAGE
HE KNOWS HIMSELF VERY WELL, HIS FEELING AND MAP OF HIS ENVIRONMENT
HE IS GOOD AT MAPPING OUT THE STRUCTURE BEHIND APPEARANCE
THE METAKNOWLEDGE
THE INTERNAL STRUCTURE TO PREDICT EXTERNAL BEHAVIOR IN ENVIRONMENT
HE IS GOOD AT REVERSE ENGINEERING AND STUDYING HIMSELF AND OTHERS
THEY ARE INTRAPERSONAL AND EMOTIONAL SMART
THEY HAVE OVERDEVELOPED INTRAPERSONAL, EMOTIONAL AND INTELLECTUAL AND IMAGINATION INTELLIGENCE BUT WEAK SENSUAL AND MOTOR INTELLIGENCE AND INTERPERSONAL INTELLIGENCE
THEY HAVE RICH INNER LIFE AND POOR OUTER LIFE
THEY HAVE A FEW FRIENDS AND ACTIVITY AND EVEN MATERIAL GOODS
THEY HAVE MORE WEALTH WITH EMOTIONAL AND INFORMATION
THEY HAVE ACTIVE INSIDE AND PASSIVE OUTSIDE
THEY HAVE INTERNAL SOURCE OF ENERGY FROM EMOTION AND THOUGHTS STIMULATION AND NOT FROM SENSUAL AND MOTOR. THEY GET OVERSTIMULATED FROM SENSUAL OR MOTOR STIMULATION. THEY HAVE OVEREXCITED SENSUAL OR MOTOR.

EXTROVERT IS THE OPPOSITE. THEY HAVE OVERDEVELOPED INTERPERSONAL, SENSUAL, AND MOTOR INTELLIGENCE AND UNDERDEVELOPED INTRAPERSONAL, EMOTIONAL, IMAGINATION INTELIGENCE. THEY BARELY GO INSIDE UNLESS THEY HAVE TO. THEY HAVE MANY FRIENDS AND ACTIVITIES. THEIR SOURCE OF ENERGY IS FROM SENSUAL AND MOTOR STIMULATION. THEY GET OVERSTIMULATION FROM EMOTIONAL OR IMAGINATION STIMULATION. THEY HAVE OVEREXCITED EMOTION/IMAGINATION

AUTISM HAS OVEREXCITED INTERPERSONAL, INTRAPERSONAL, EMOTION, IMAGINATION, SENSUAL, MOTOR STIMULATION OVERLOAD. HE IS NEITHER INTROVERT NOR EXTROVERT. THEY ARE INCOMPETENCE, HAVE NO PRACTICAL KNOWLEDGE, HAVE NO INERT KNOWLEDGE, NO GENERAL NOR SPECIFIC KNOWLEDGE.

NO RELATIONSHIP CONDITIONING - INDIVIDUAL ATTACHMENT, CULTURAL CONDITIONING - GROUP ATTACHMENT.

WHEN OVEREXCITED, KNOWLEDGE AND ATTACHMENT DEVELOPMENT WILL NOT HAPPEN. TRAUMATIC EXPERIENCE IN UNKNOWN ENVIRONMENT. NO SENSE OF SELF.

ATTACHMENT CAN HAPPEN SLOW AND QUICK. PARENTAL ATTACHMENT HAPPENS SLOW, INFATUATION HAPPEN QUICK.

FOR DEVELOPMENT, DEVELOP LESS DEVELOPED INTELLIGENCE/PERSONALITY. FOR EXCELLENCE, DEVELOP DOMINANT INTELLIGENT.

Needs

Don't worry about not having or getting what you want, if you need it, you are going to go for it. If you find yourself not going for it, you don't need it now. It is mostly superficial. One day, if you need it, you are going to go for it. Just listen to the wisdom of the body, it has been created to get what it needs and discard what it doesn't need. We learn to want something and create problems a long the way. Our greed for wanting more than we need is the source of problems. Just sit back, relax. You ll know if you need it... and you are going to go for it regardless of fear and worry. The beauty of the presence.

IF IT IS IMPORTANT ENOUGH, IT WILL COME UP.

PRIVATE AND PUBLIC LIFE

I NEED A PRIVATE SPACE TO BRING OUT MY INTERNAL WORLD
THROW MY INTERNAL WORLD INTO THE SCREEN OF MY PRIVATE SPACE AND PLAY WITH IT
TO DOWNLOAD AND OPEN THE EMOTIONAL CONTENT AND MOVE WITH THE MOTION
TO DOWNLOAD AND OPEN THE COGNITIVE CONTENT AND CALCULATE AND PROCESS THE INFORMATION
IT IS IN THIS WORLD THAT MY FEELING DOMINATE WITH OVERDEVELOPED EMOTIONAL CONTENT THAN COGNITION

THEN I UPLOAD THE EMOTIONAL AND COGNITIVE CONTENT AND GET INTO THE PUBLIC BEFORE THE NEXT PRIVATE DOWNLOAD TIME AGAIN... THIS IS WHERE I USE THE INTUITION CREATING A MAP OR BIG PICTURE TO MOVE ABOUT. I DON'T ACT, I LOOK FOR THE MAP FIRST THAN GO. I DON'T GO BEFORE KNOWING WHERE TO GO.

MY EXTRAVERTNESS IS UNDERDEVELOPED, THAT'S WHY IT'S NERVEWRECKING TO DO EXTERNAL THINGS. I ACT INSIDE, LOOK FOR INFORMATION OUTSIDE. ABSTRACT INFORMATION THAT IS. BECAUSE UNDERDEVELOPED, IT'S AWKWARD.

EVERYONE HAS ITS OWN BAG THEY CARRY. EVEN A WISE MATURE PERSON HAS ITS OWN SCARS AND WOUNDS. NOT A METAPHYSICAL SCARS BUT A PHENOMENIC SCARS, PSYCHOLOGICAL ONES. THE UNDERDEVELOPED ASPECT OF SELF, THE AWKWARDNESS. THE HUMANNESS

AWKWARDNESS IS UNDERDEVELOPED SKILLS.
MULTIPLE INTELLIGENCE: MOTOR SMART, PEOPLE SMART, SELF SMART, LINGUISTIC SMART, DLL.

Interpersonal:
People smart!
Interacts with others,
empathizes,
socializes, mediates
conflicts.

Naturalist:
Nature smart!
Aware of,
understands, and
appreciates
environment; sees
the big picture.

Logical/Mathematical:
Number smart!
Enjoys mathematics,
reasoning, logic,
and problem solving;
well-organized.

Linguistic:
Word smart!
Enjoys speaking,
writing, poems,
plays, manipulating
language.

Musical:
Music smart!
Enjoys picking up
sounds and
melodies; notices
and uses rhythm.

Spatial:
Picture smart!
Creates mental
images; enjoys
charts, puzzles, and
visualization tasks.

Bodily/Kinesthetic:
Body smart!
Enjoys physical
activities, crafts,
and hands-on
investigations.

Intrapersonal:
Self smart!
Focuses inward
on feeling and
dreams; follows
instincts; meditative
and reflective.


 PERSONALITY IS COMPETENCE INTELLIGENCE. INCOMPETENCE PERSONALITY IS LESS THAN DOMINANCE PERSONALITY. THE MORE COMPETENCE, THE MORE DOMINANCE. INCLUDING SELF DEFENSE MECHANISM. IT CAN HIJACK OR ROB THE LESS DOMINANT PERSONALITY.

IS AUTISM PRE ATTACHMENT CONDITION? THUS, OVEREXCIBILITY MOTORIC, SENSUAL, AND EMOTION BEFORE THE INTELLECT AND IMAGINATION THAT COMES AFTER ATTACHMENT?

SORROW

THERE ARE MANY KINDS OF SUFFERING
SUFFERING AS A RESULT FROM AGING, SICKNESS, AND RELATIONSHIP
RELATIONSHIP SUFFERING IS PROBABLY THE MOST OVEREXPERIENCED AS A SOCIAL BEING, AND THE MOST PAINFUL ONE
FRIENDSHIP, INTIMATE, PARENTING RELATIONSHIP IN THAT ORDER
THE SORROW CAUSED BY THOSE RELATIONSHIP CAN FEEL LIKE A HEART WOUND

INFATUATION AND ATTACHMENT ARE THE CAUSE OF THE SORROW
IT IS THE NATURAL GLUE OF RELATIONSHIP
AT THE SAME TIME, IT CAUSE THE GREATEST DESPAIR
LOSING SOMETHING THAT YOU ARE ATTACHED TO/GLUED TO, NOT HAVING SOMETHING THAT YOU ARE GLUED TO/ATTACHED TO?
HAVING SOMETHING THAT YOU DON'T HAVE?
NOT HAVING SOMETHING THAT YOU WANT?
AT THE SAME TIME, NOT WANTING SOMETHING THAT YOU HAVE.

OR SOMEONE.

IT FEELS LIKE GETTING PUNCHED IN THE GUT, HEART BEING SLICED WITH A KNIFE OF JEALOUSY, ENVY

INFATUATION/ATTACHMENT THAT CAN RENDER A PERSON SELFLESS ALSO CAN SHAKE A PERSON INTO CHILDISH TANTRUM. THE OBSESSIVE POSSESSIVENESS CAN DESTROY ONESELF AND OTHERS.

NO, JEALOUSY AND ENVY, OBSESSION AND POSSESSION ARE NOT SIGNS OF LOVE. THEY ARE SIGNS OF BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP, BUT THEY ARE NOT SIGNS OF LOVE.

BUT INFATUATION AND ATTACHMENT ARE THE SOCIAL PERKS IN LIFE. IT GIVES VOICE TO POEM, SONGS, AND EMPATHY
WITHOUT THEM, OUR LIFE IS NOT AS BEAUTIFUL AS IT IS. WE ARE NOTHING BUT ROBOT.
SO I GUESS THAT ANYTHING THAT WE CAN ENJOY CAN ALSO KILLJOY.

Rainy Thursday

It s been raining all night and morning
the cool breeze and grey sky blanket the city
shut and quiet down activities and sounds around
bring out strong emotion of my own fragility

How do I escape the drama of the youth?
How do I escape this war inside of my head?
How do I escape this loneliness that hits me like a brick?

life is like a sad love song sang in the morning rain
slow and full of minor keys
sad love songs are songs better to sing to one own
for who wants to hear a sad love song
so here I am, surrounded by bleak and greyness
tears seem ready to break lose
feeling like a child that I see on the streets
that don't deserve to be there
that life is not fair

I just want to be alone but afraid to be lonely
afraid of relationship but desire for one
This is what happen for avoiding social contacts and being socially awkward
narcissisting and autisting itself...

surrounded by love yet feeling empty inside
like feeling hungry on a buffet table
like living in the shield
I can see the love but I can't do anything about it
like watching a movie

It seems that my life is full of "not getting what I want and getting what I don't want"

ah, the rain is stoping... i probably need to stop mopping either...
sing away....

METACOGNITION

Thinking About Thinking
Some of the research on the characteristics of giftedness has focused on cognition and metacognition.
In these studies, researchers observed how students identified as gifted thought through a given problem or
situation (cognition), and how they reflected on their thinking throughout the problem-solving experience
(metacognition).
Cognitive Strategies: Not surprisingly, the studies on cognitive strategies showed that gifted students
acquired information and solved problems faster, better, or at earlier stages than other students, even in the
primary grades (Cho & Ahn, 2003; Delcourt, Cornell, & Goldberg, 2007). Some studies showed that higher
IQ individuals had more efficient memories, more information-processing strategies, larger and more
elaborately organized knowledge bases, and a better ability to solve mathematical problems by employing
their own symbolic encoding (Robinson & Clinkenbeard, 1998).
Sternberg has also investigated how different thinking styles in gifted students affect their academic
performance (Grigorenko & Sternberg, 1997). The study found that there were no differences in thinking
styles among groups of students at different ability levels, and that certain thinking styles contributed
significantly to prediction of academic performance. For example, the style that involved analyzing, grading,
or comparing things had the highest predictive value. Further, this contribution was independent of the type
of instruction the students were given. One other finding of interest was that the gifted students performed
best on assessment procedures that closely matched their thinking style. (This last finding corroborates the
results of decades of earlier research on different types of student learning styles.) Other studies have found
similar results (Rayneri, Gerber, & Wiley, 2006; Zhang & Sternberg, 2006).
Metacognitive Strategies: Research studies in metacognition (i.e., thinking about one’s own thinking)
have focused around three aspects:
• What do students know about thinking strategies?
• Can they use the strategies?
• Can they monitor their own cognitive processing?
Compared to other students, the studies showed that gifted students knew more about metacognitive
strategies and could use them more easily in new contexts. The first edition of this book noted that several
studies in the 1990s found that gifted students did not use a greater variety of metacognitive strategies than
other students, nor did they monitor their strategies any more than the other students (Alexander, Carr, &
Schwanenflugel, 1995). However, more recent studies have found that high performing elementary and
secondary school students with strong metacognitive skills were aware of them and knew how to use them
to successfully complete academic tasks (Coutinho, 2008; Steiner, 2006).
Neuroscientists—or more specifically, cognitive neuroscientists—also think about thinking. In recent
years, they have explored what differences in the structure and functions of the gifted brain may allow it to
achieve remarkable levels of performance. These researchers use many tools in their investigations. They
include imaging technologies, such as PET scans and functional magnetic resonance imaging (fMRI),
as well as electroencephalography (EEG) and magnetoencephalography (MEG). The techniques reveal
similarities and differences in the function of high-performing brains compared with the brains of students
showing no signs of the same kinds of giftedness. One area of particular interest is determining whether
there is any difference in how information flows in gifted brains as compared to typical brains.

OVEREXCITABILITY

ADDICTION AND OTHER COMPULSIVE BEHAVIORS ARE SENSUAL OVEREXCITABILITY, THE INABILITY TO RECEIVE INPUT.
COMPULSIVE BEHAVIOR IS OUTPUT BEHAVIOR

INTROVERT IS ALSO NOT RECEIVING INPUT, EXTROVERT IS NOT COMFORTABLE WITH OUTPUT BEHAVIOR.

AUTISM IS PSYCHOMOTOR AND SENSUAL OVEREXCITABILITY. COMPULSIVENESS IS EMOTIONAL EXCITABILITY CAN LEAD TO INTELLECTUAL AND IMAGINATION EXCITABILITY.

Psychomotor overexcitability: This is a heightened excitability of the neuromuscular system that
results in movement for its own sake, surplus of energy demonstrated by rapid speech, enthusiasm,
and intense physical activity. When tense, these individuals may talk compulsively, act impulsively,
misbehave, display nervous habits (such as tics, nail-biting), show intense drive, and be highly
competitive.Although they derive joy from their activity, others may find them overwhelming.At home
and at school, these children seem to be constantly on the go and never still. As a result, they have the
potential of being misdiagnosed as having attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD).
• Sensual overexcitability: This is expressed as a heightened and more expansive experience
of sensual pleasure or displeasure emanating from sight, smell, touch, taste, and hearing. These
individuals have an early and increased appreciation of aesthetic pleasures such as music, language,
and art. They may also feel overstimulated or uncomfortable with sensory input. When emotionally
tense, some may overeat, go on shopping sprees, or seek the center of attention, while others may
withdraw from stimulation. As children, they may find clothing tags, classroom noise, or cafeteria
smells so distracting that schoolwork becomes secondary. These children may also become deeply
absorbed in a particular piece of art or music to the exclusion of the outside world.
• Intellectual overexcitability: This is demonstrated by a need to seek understanding and truth, to gain
knowledge, and to analyze and synthesize. These individuals have incredibly active minds, are
intensely curious, avid readers, and keen observers. They are able to concentrate, engage in prolonged
intellectual activities, and can be tenacious problem solvers. The enjoy elaborate planning, love
thinking about thinking, and have excellent visual recall. They may focus on moral thinking, which
often translates into strong concerns about moral and ethical issues, such as fairness on the
playground, lack of respect for children, or even being concerned about the homeless, AIDS, or war.
Sometimes, they appear impatient with others who cannot sustain their intellectual pace. They may
be so excited about an idea that they interrupt the class at inappropriate times.
• Imaginational overexcitability: This reflects a heightened imagination with rich association of
images and impressions, frequent use of metaphor, facility for invention and fantasy, and detailed
visualization. These children often mix truth with fiction, and they escape boredom by creating their
own private worlds with imaginary companions and dramatizations. They have difficulty paying
attention in a classroom focused on teaching a rigid academic curriculum. In that case, they may write
stories or draw instead of doing assigned work or participating in class discussions. A novel idea may
send them off on an imaginative tangent and distract them from their classroom tasks.
• Emotional overexcitability: This is often the first OE to be noticed by parents. It is reflected
in intense feelings, extremes of complex emotions, identification with others’ feelings, and strong
affective expression. It may also include physical responses, such as stomachaches, blushing, or
concern with death and depression. These individuals have a remarkable capacity for compassionate
and empathetic relationships and demonstrate strong emotional attachments to people, places, and
things. They are acutely aware of their own feelings, of their own growth and change, and often carry
on inner dialogs and practice self-judgment. Their concern for others, their focus on relationships, and
the intensity of their feelings may interfere with everyday tasks like homework or household chores.

EXCITABILITY CAN INCLUDE EMOTIONAL, IMAGINATION, INTELLECTUAL EXCITABILITY TO AVOID SENSUAL PSYCHOMOTORIC

Meta knowledge

META MEANS BEHIND.
METAPHYSICS IS A KNOWLEDGE ABOUT PHYSICS
METACOGNITIVE IS A KNOWLEDGE ABOUT THINKING

WE REVERSE ENGINEER TO LEARN META KNOWLEDGE
WE BREAK DOWN A PHENOMENA TO LEARN ITS BEHIND THE SCENE ACTIVITY

ALFRED NORTH WHITEHEAD DIVIDE KNOWLEDGE INTO INERT KNOWLEDGE (INFORMATION/KNOWLEDGE THAT WE HAVE BUT UNABLE TO ACTIVATE AND APPLY IT FOR PURPOSEFUL GOAL). MOST OF OUR GENERAL EDUCATION KNOWLEDGE AND KNOWLEDGE WE LEARN IN SCHOOL IS THIS KIND OF KNOWLEDGE. ANOTHER ONE IS THE SELF REGULATORY SKILLS - THE INERT KNOWLEDGE THAT HAS BEEN CHANGED INTO APLICATIVE SKILLS FOR DAY TO DAY NEEDS.

The present moment

Present Moment is never unbearable...

The clock master was about to fix the pendulum of a clock when, to his surprise, he heard the pendulum speak.

"Please, sir, leave me alone," the pendulum pleaded,"It will be an act of kindness on your part. Think of the number of times I will have to tick day and night. So many time each minute, sixty minutes an hour, twenty-four hours a day, three hundred and sixty-five days a year. For year upon year... million of ticks, I could never do it."

But the clock master answered wisely,"Don't think of the future. Just do one tick at a time and you will enjoy every tick for the rest of your life."

And that is exactly what the pendulum decided to do. It is still ticking merrily away.

BELIEF

OUR THOUGHT IS WHAT I BELIEVE
NOT WHAT I BELIEVE IS TRUE, BUT WHAT I BELIEVE IS REAL
MY OPINION IS WHAT I BELIEVE
WHAT I ASSUME TO BE TRUE
BELIEF, THE CONNECTION BETWEEN WORD AND REAL
EVEN FANTASY, EVEN THOUGH I KNOW IT IS NOT REAL
BUT IT IS REAL ENOUGH TO GIVE ENTERTAINMENT

ABSTRACT PERSON BELIEVE IN ABSTRACT INFORMATION WHERE CONCRETE PERSON DON'T
THERE IS COLLECTIVE BELIEF AND INDIVIDUAL BELIEF
LANGUAGE IS COLLECTIVE BELIEF
THE LOWER WE GO, THE MORE CONCRETE, THE MORE INDIVIDUALIZED, THE MORE SPECIFIC
OPINION, VALUE, INTERPRETATION. FOR EXAMPLE, THE MEANING OF LOVE OR THE VALUE OF BEAUTY
THIS IS HOW WE GET INFLUENCED OR BRAINWASHED

PERCEPTION PERSON COLLECT INFORMATION AND CAN'T DECIDE

FEELING PERSON IS SUBJECTIVE, ENERGETIC, INTERNALLY OR EXTERNALLY

THINKING PERSON IS OBJECTIVE, COOL AND ANALYTICAL, INTERNALLY OR EXTERNALLY

JUDGING PERSON ACTS AND RELATES, INTERNALLY OR EXTERNALLY

INTROVERT CONTROL SELF TO CONTROL ENVIRONMENT, EXTROVERT THE OPPOSITE
PERCEPTION TYPE EXTERNALLY COLLECT INFORMATION FIRST, THEN ACT, THE JUDGING TYPE THE OPPOSITE

IF HE COLLECT INFO EXTERNALLY, HE WILL ACT INTERNALLY
IF HE ACT EXTERNALLY, HE WILL COLLECT INFO INTERNALLY

EXT PERCEPTION COLLECT EXT INFO FIRST, THAN ACT INTERNALLY
EXT JUDGE ACT EXT FIRST, THAN COLLECT INFO INTERNALLY

INT PERCEPTION WILL ACT INTERNALLY FIRST, THAN COLLECT INFO EXT
INT JUDGE WILL COLLECT INT INFO FIRST, THAN ACT EXTERNALLY.

BELIEF IS OUR PSYCHOLOGICAL GLUE TO OUR PSYCHOLOGICAL WORLD, WHAT MAGICALLY TURN OUR MIND INTO REALITY, TURN OUR PERCEPTION INTO SENSES, TURN WORDS INTO OBJECTS, TURN SYMBOLS INTO OBJECTS AND OUR EMOTIONAL REACTION TO IT.

REALITY AS SUCH IS OUT THERE BEYOND OUR PSYCHOLOGICAL DIMENSION, ANYTHING WE ARE CONSCIOUS OF IS OPINION, NOTHING MORE, COLLECTIVE OR INDIVIDUAL. IT'S WHAT WE THINK.
JUST LIKE WE DON'T SEE REALITY, WE SEE VISION OF REALITY BASED ON APPEARANCE. IT'S WHAT WE SEE, SO IT'S WHAT WE THINK.

UNGLUE THE BODY AND THE MIND, DETACH FROM IT. SYMBOLS ARE DIFFERENT THAN WHAT IT SYMBOLIZE. SYMBOLS ARE SYMBOLS, AND HOPEFULLY YOU SEE OBJECTS AS OBJECTS.

AUTISM

INTERNAL DYSYNCRONIZATION, EXTERNAL DYSINCRONIZATION

DEVELOPMENT:
1. INTELLECTUAL
2. MOTIVATION AND EMOTION
3. SPEECH AND LANGUAGE
4. MOTORIC
5. SOCIAL
6. GENERIC
7. SKILLS
8. STUDYING SKILLS
8. SOLVING PROBLEMS

IS AUTISM IN THE STATE OF PRE VISION WHERE THEY RELY MORE ON PRE VISION SENSES? THEY LACK VISION AND VERBAL PROCESSING. THEY SEE SOMETHING BUT THEY CAN'T DO ANYTHING WITH WHAT THEY SEE, LIKE BEING IN THE AUDIENCE WATCHING THE THEATER. PASSIVE VISION. VISION AND VERBAL OBJECTS ARE JUST SOMETHING TO WATCH AND NOT TO PARTICIPATE.

ANIMALS SEE BUT THEY DON'T PROCESS WHAT THEY SEE. THEY DON'T CREATE PICTURE FROM TOP BOTTOM PROCESS TO COMPLETE THE NEW DATA. THEY ONLY SEE DATA.

AUTISM ONLY SEE VISUAL DATA, MOVEMENT AND DEPTH IS WHAT GET THEIR ATTENTION. THEY ARE MINDBLIND AND FEELINGDEAF. VERBAL WORDS ARE DATA NOT THE CONTENT. THEY DON'T HEAR THE MESSAGE IN THE SPEECH, THEY ONLY HEAR SOUND THAT HAS BEEN CONDITIONED WITH BEHAVIORAL REACTION. THEIR VISION AND AUDITORY SENSES ARE LIKE TOUCH/SENSE/SMELL DATA BASED SENSES. THEY TRIGGER SIGNAL REACTION, FASTER REACTION THAN SYMBOLIC REACTION. THE OPPOSITE, OUR TOUCH/SENSE/SMELL SENSE REACTION ARE LIKE VISION/AUDITORY INFORMATION BASED REACTION, SYMBOLIC BASED, MIND PERCEPTION BASED WHERE WE PROCESS THE DATA INTO INFORMATION AND REACT TO THE INFORMATION.

IS AUTISM A REGRESSION BACK TO LOWER LEVEL OF EVOLUTION? 

OR IS OVEREXCITABLE SENSUAL, EMOTIONAL AND MOTOR THAT LEAD TO SENSUAL AND MOTOR STIMULI OVERLOAD? 

THAT DELAY COGNITION AND VERBAL DEVELOPMENT?

VERBAL IS INFORMATION, COGNITION TO UNDERSTAND THE INFORMATION THAT LEADS TO RE-COGNITION. WHAT USE IS INFORMATION WITHOUT THE UNDERSTANDING, LIKE WHAT USE IS THE UNDERSTANDING WITHOUT THE INFORMATION.

DUE TO STIMULI OVERLOAD, DATA DOESN'T TURN INTO INFORMATION. IT DOESN'T RECOGNIZED OR DECODE.

AUTISM DOESN'T ENCODE/DECODE DATA TO INFORMATION. IT USE SIGNAL TO CONTROL ENVIRONMENT.

PSYCHOLOGICAL FACTOR 2

WHAT IS PSYCHOLOGICAL FACTOR BUT MIND VISUAL IMAGE MEMORY OR VERBAL SPEECH LANGUAGE AND GO FROM LESS ABSTRACT TO MORE ABSTRACT.
OUT OF THIS TWO WE INTERPRET AND IDENTIFY AND MAKE THEM COME TO LIFE AND WE CALL THEM OUR WORLD AND LIFE.
AT THE SAME TIME, WE ALSO INTERPRET OUR BODY SIGNAL AND CALL IT SELF.
THESE THREE STIMULI IS WHAT WE CALL LIFE.

BY THE POWER OF WORDMAGIC, WE TURN VERBAL SPEECH OR WORDS INTO OBJECT. THE SAME REASON WITH IMAGEMAGIC, WE TURN IMAGE INTO OBJECT AND BELIEVE THAT IT'S REAL.

IN A NATURAL WORLD, LIFE IS FILLED WITH PHYSICAL MOVEMENT AND ACTION. BUT IN HUMAN WORLD, LIFE IS FILLED WITH CONVERSATION AND THINKING. IN FACT, MOST OF OUR LIFE IS SPENT NOT IN ACTION BUT IN SENSING, ESPECIALLY SEEING AND HEARING. WE DON'T ACTUALLY SEEING/WATCHING TV OR LISTENING TO SONGS OR PEOPLE'S SPEECH, WE DO IT BECAUSE IT IS AN ACTIVITY. WE SEE OR LISTEN TO OUR THOUGHTS THAN WE DO EXTERNALLY. WHEN WE LISTEN TO A CONVERSATION, WE ARE THINKING OF FEEDBACK OR WHAT TO SAY NEXT.
BUT, WITHOUT OUR AWARENESS, WE LIVE IN VERBAL SEMANTIC WORLD OR VISUAL WORLD AND THINK THAT IT'S REAL. WE DON'T QUESTION THE SUPERFICIALITY OF THOSE WORLD. THE ILLUSION OF BEING REAL BUT NOT REAL. THIS UNREAL WORLD IS VERY FRAGILE AND CAN GET EASILY MANIPULATED AND CAUSE SUFFERING. THIS IS HOW WE GET CULTURALLY CONDITIONED. WE ARE TRICKED TO BUY SOMETHING WE DON'T NEED, TO DO SOMETHING WE DON'T WANT TO DO, TO BE SOMEONE WE ARE NOT AND SUFFERING IS THE RESULT.

WE OVERIDENTIFY WITH THIS VERBAL/IMAGE CONTENT AND THINK THAT IT'S REAL NOT KNOWING THAT THERE IS NO ACCIDENT IN HUMAN AFFAIR. PEOPLE ARE SMART TO CHOREOGRAPH AND SCAM OTHERS FOR ONE ADVANTAGE, LIKE ANIMAL'S COURTING TO ATTRACT AND FIGHTING BEHAVIOR TO KILL OTHERS. HUMAN HOWEVER IS MORE SUBTLE AND CUNNING IN CONNING OTHERS. THEY USE LANGUAGE AND MANIPULATING SEMANTIC ENVIRONMENT TO INFLUENCE OTHERS' BEHAVIOR. MANIPULATION IS THE SUBTLE AND MORE DANGEROUS FIGHTING BEHAVIOR. PEOPLE'S BEHAVIOR AND SPEECH ARE LIKE TV SHOW THAT HAS BEEN DESIGNED COREOGRAPHED, AND EDITED FOR CONTENT. IT WAS CREATED BY TEAM CREATIVE TO SEDUCE AND ENTERTAIN. WE CAN SEE THIS CLEARLY IN DIGITAL WRITING COMMUNICATION ESPECIALLY ON INTERNET.

OUR PSYCHOLOGICAL LIFE IS ABSTRACT ABSENT-OBJECTS SYMBOLIC, CONSCIOUS CONTENT EDITED, INTELLIGENT AND DESIGN WORLD, INFORMATION PROCESSED. NATURAL LIFE IS PRESYMBOLIC, ACTION FOCUSED.

NATURE SPEND MORE TIME IN ACTION THAN COMMUNICATING, HUMAN SPEND MORE TIME COMMUNICATING THAN IN ACTION.

PSYCHOLOGICAL SUFFERING

IN ADDITION TO BIOLOGICAL SATISFACTION SHARED WITH OTHER SENTIENT BEINGS, HUMAN ARE CAPABLE OF PLEASURE UNKNOWN TO THE NON HUMAN CREATURES, THE MANIPULATION OF CHEMICAL AND PSYCHOLOGICAL REACTION THAT BRING OUT PLEASURE HORMONE.

IN ADDITION TO BIOLOGICAL FRUSTRATION, HUMAN IS ALSO CAPABLE OF CHEMICAL FRUSTRATION TO EXTERNAL CHEMICAL AND PSYCHOLOGICAL STIMULI. WE CALL THIS THE PSYCHOLOGICAL SUFFERING.

OTHER THAN THE CHEMICAL, OTHER PSYCHOLOGICAL FACTORS ARE SOCIAL AND PSYCHOLOGICAL PAIN/SUFFERING.

OTHER THAN BEING PHYSICAL, HUMAN BEING IS ALSO A PSYCHOLOGICAL BEING WHO DIFFER FROM ANIMALS LIKE HEAVEN AND EARTH.
IT S LIKE WE LIVE IN ANOTHER DIMENSION AND WE DO LIVE IN ANOTHER DIMENSION. WE LIVE IN OUR HEAD. WE LIVE IN THE WORLD THAT WE CREATE IN OUR HEAD AND THIS IS OUR PSYCHOLOGICAL WORLD. AT THE SAME TIME, OUR BODY LIVE IN PHYSICAL WORLD.

ABSTRACTLY, WE SHARE COLLECTIVE WORLD LIKE LANGUAGE, THE NAME OF OBJECTS. BUT CONCRETELY, WE EACH DIFFER. NO ONE HAS THE SAME EXPERIENCE LIKE NO ONE HAS THE SAME FINGER PRINT.

CONFUSING THIS COLLECTIVE AND INDIVIDUAL CREATE SO MANY PROBLEMS OF ABSOLUTE THAT OTHERS SHOULD BELIEVE WHAT I BELIEVE. CONFUSING PERSONAL EXPERIENCE AND COLLECTIVE EXPERIENCE. THE OPPOSITE IS ALSO TRUE, DENYING OF COLLECTIVE EXPERIENCE THAT WE ARE BUT OUR INDIVIDUAL OPINIONS.

OTHER THAN OUR BODY THAT FOLLOWS LAWS OF NATURE, GROWTH AND DECAY, BIRTH AND DEATH, WE HAVE A PSYCHOLOGICAL LIFE THAT DEFY LAWS OF NATURE. PSYCHOLOGICAL LIFE FOLLOWS SOCIAL AND VERBAL RULES. IT IS LOGICAL, SYMBOLIC, AND GROUP BASED. IT IS PERMANENT AND SOLID/UNCHANGED. IT USE "SELF" AS MASTER OF ITS UNIVERSE AND SUFFERING IS THE RESULT. SUFFERING IS THE INTERACTION BETWEEN THE PSYCHOLOGICAL WORLD AND THE BIOLOGICAL/PHYSICAL WORLD. THAT'S WHAT BUDDHA FIND OUT. ENLIGHTENMENT IS NOT THE END OF SICK, OLD, AND DEATH. THEY STILL DO HAPPEN, BUT SUFFERING IS HOW WE VIEW THE SICK, OLD, AND DEATH. WE CAN'T DESTROY THE BIOPHYSICAL BODY LIKE SOME FANATICS DO OR DESTROY THE PSYCHOLOGICAL WORLD LIKE SOME HEDONIST DO "DON'T THINK, JUST ENJOY" "GET REAL" KIND OF PEOPLE. BUT WE FIND MIDDLE GROUND, THE MIDDLE WAY. NOT TO OVERPSYCHOLOGICAL OR TO OVERPHYSICAL AND TO UNDERPSYCHOLOGICAL OR UNDERPHYSICAL. NOT TO FILL THE MIND AND IGNORE THE BODY AND VICE VERSA. NOT TO INCREASE OF IDEALISM OR SUCCUMB TO OUR BODILY DESIRE. BUT TO DECREASE OUR IDEALISM AND GET IN TOUCH WITH OUR BODY. TO COMBINE THE TWO, TO LEARN FROM THE BODY, TO ACT FROM OUR MIND.

WE ALWAYS MUST CONSIDER PSYCHOLOGICAL FACTOR WHEN DEALING WITH HUMAN. EVEN, WE MUST CONSIDER THIS FACTOR FIRST BEFORE CONSIDERING PHYSICAL FACTOR. IN TREATMENT, WE CONSIDER THE BIOLOGICAL FACTOR FIRST THAN PSYCHOLOGICAL FACTOR, BUT WE ALWAYS HAVE TO CONSIDER PSYCHOLOGICAL FACTOR. THE STIGMA, THE "SELF", THE PERSONALITY, THE PEER GROUP, THE RELATIONSHIP, THE GROUP, FAMILY, THE SOCIAL ENVIRONMENT.

ABSTRACT AND CONCRETE

IMAGINATION OR FANTASY WORLD IS ABSTRACTION OF OUR EXPERIENCE
FOR AN ABSTRACT PERSON, DEALING WITH CONCRETE INTERNAL AND EXTERNAL FACTOR IS NOT COMFORTABLE
FOR CONCRETE PERSON, DEALING WITH ABSTRACT INTERNAL AND EXTERNAL FACTOR IS NOT COMFORTABLE

THE SAME WAY WITH LOGICAL AND FEELING TYPE PERSON, EXTROVERT AND INTROVERT, AND PERCEPTION AND JUDGEMENT TYPE.

THE SHADOW IS OUTSIDE OF ONE'S COMFORT ZONE.
COMFORT ZONE IS OUR DOMINANT PERSONALITY.

LIVING OUTSIDE OF COMFORT ZONE ZAP OUR PSYCHOLOGICAL STAMINA, LIKE CLIMBING UP TAKES MORE GAS FOR A CAR.

FOR INTROVERT, STOP FIXING ONESELF
FOR EXTROVERT, STOP FIXING OTHERS
FOR LOGICAL, STOP ANALIZING
FOR EMPATHETIC, STOP BEING OVERSENSITIVE
FOR INTUITION, STOP DREAMING
FOR SENSE, OPEN YOURSELF
FOR PERCEPTION, START ACTING
FOR JUDGING, OBSERVE MORE

MEDITATION 2

WE GET CAUGHT IN OUR OWN FANTASY MOVIE THAT WE CREATE
THE INTROVERT WORLD THAT WE LIVE IN
WHERE I AM GREAT AND POWERFUL AND HAS UTMOST CONTROL OF MYSELF AND ENVIRONMENT WHERE I ACHIEVE FANTASY SELF ACTUALIZATION
I HAVE SOLVED ALL THE PROBLEM AND IS ABLE TO SOLVE ALL CHALLENGES, POPULAR, WANTED, POWERFUL, WEALTHY, THE IDEAL SELF I WANT TO BE

HOWEVER, THIS DREAM CAN TURN INTO NIGHTMARE BECAUSE OF EXTERNAL FACTORS, THE REAL WORLD
THE FANTASY HAS DISTORTED THE VALUE OF WHAT IS TO MY PREFERENCE, MY WORLD
WHAT I ENJOY IS LIVING THE FANTASY WORLD IN THE MIND AND IT IS DIFFERENT THAN WHAT I AM DOING IN THE PHYSICAL WORLD
PHYSICAL ACTIVITIES GET IN THE WAY OF THE FAVORITE ACTIVITY
THE MORE I SPEND TIME AND ATTACH TO THE FANTASY ACTIVITY, THE SMALLER MY COMFORT ZONE IS.

I GET MORE UNCOMFORTABLE WHEN I AM OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE AND GET MY ENERGY USED UP VERY QUICKLY FOR THE WEAR AND TEAR, LIKE ASKING A RIGHTHANDED TO WRITE LEFTHANDED.

THIS NIGHTMARE IS ANYTHING THAT IS NOT IN MY COMFORT ZONE
THE MAINTENANCE PHASE IN THE CHANGE PROCESS THAT I GO THROUGH
THE SMALLER MY COMFORT ZONE, THE BIGGER THE NIGHTMARE
THE CURSE OF AN INTROVERT

THE EXTROVERT TENDS TO CONTROL OTHERS AND ENVIRONMENT WITH LACK OF WISDOM, THE INTROVERT AVOID OTHERS AND ENVIRONMENT AND PLAY IN SIMULATION ROOM TO CONTROL THEIR HARDWARE AND ENVIRONMENT

EXTROVERT CONTROL SELF BY CONTROLLING OTHERS, INTROVERT CONTROL OTHERS BY CONTROLLING SELF

THE NIGHTMARE FOR INTROVERT IS WHEN THEY MUST GO OUT AND DO ACTIVITY AND RELATE TO OTHERS, ESPECIALLY WITH NOT SO CLOSE FRIENDS AND UNFAMILIAR PLACES AND INCOMPETENCE ACTIVITIES. 

THE NIGHTMARE FOR THE EXTROVERT IS WHEN THEY MUST GO IN AND GET CLOSE AND PERSONAL WITH FAMILIAR PEOPLE AND FAMILIAR PLACES OR UNCHALLENGE ACTIVITIES.

WE EXPERIENCE NIGHTMARE WHEN THE EXTROVERT WORLD DON'T FIT OUR PREFERENCE IN MAINTENANCE PHASE, WHEN THE EXTERNAL FACTORS DON'T FIT OUR EXPECTATION, WHEN THE EXTERNAL WORLD DON'T FIT OUR INTERNAL FANTASY. WE EXPERIENCE LESS CONTROL OF EXTERNAL FACTORS THAN WE DO IN OUR FANTASY. INTROVERT WILL TRY TO CONTROL SELF MORE TO CONTROL ENVIRONMENT WHERE EXTROVERT WILL CONTROL THE ENVIRONMENT. INTROVERT FEELS THAT THEY STILL LACK POWER TO CONTROL.

THIS IS ALSO CAUSED BY BEING PART OF SOCIAL SYSTEM THAT HAS DIFFERENT AGENDA THAN INDIVIDUAL. SOCIAL SYSTEM USE STANDARDIZED RULES AND COMMITMENT THAT HAS DIFFERENT RHYTHM THAN OUR FLUCTUATED BODY, LIKE RELATIONSHIP, EMPLOYMENT, SOCIAL ACTIVITIES. WE ALSO DEAL WITH OTHERS THAT HAS FLUCTUATED BODY THAT HAS DIFFERENT RHYTHM WITH OUR INDIVIDUAL BODY. A MOTHER TELL HER SON TO DO SOMETHING WHEN HE DOESN'T WANT TO, A TEACHER TEACH A STUDENT WHEN HE DOESN'T WANT TO. IT IS NOT A QUESTION OF THAT HE DOESN'T WANT TO, BUT WHEN. MY BOSS WANT ME TO DO SOMETHING WHEN I DON'T WANT TO.

WE ALSO HAVE DIFFERENT PREFERENCE. MY BOSS MAY ASK ME TO DO SOMETHING THAT I DON'T WANT TO. MY SPOUSE LIKE TO DO SOMETHING THAT I DON'T LIKE AND VICE VERSA.

THIS EXTERNAL FACTORS CREATE NIGHTMARE MORE FOR THE INTROVERT. FOR THE EXTROVERT, THE NIGHTMARE MAY BE FELT BY THE OTHERS WHO IS CHANGED BY THE EXTROVERT. EXTROVERT SOLVE PROBLEMS BY CHANGING OTHERS OR FIXING OTHERS AND ADDING SOMETHING NEW. INTROVERT SOLVE PROBLEMS BY CHANGING SELF OR FIXING SELF OR ADDING SELF. SO, EXTROVERT FEELS THAT OTHERS ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR MY PROBLEMS WHERE INTROVERT FEELS THAT I FEEL RESPONSIBLE FOR OTHERS PROBLEMS.

A BOY WHO FANTASIZE TO BE SUPERHERO AND IDENTIFY WITH THE SUPERHERO IS TRYING TO DEAL WITH HIS ENVIRONMENT. THIS IS THE INTROVERT WAY OF SUPERSIZE ONE SELF TO OVERCONTROL THE ENVIRONMENT. THE EXTROVERT CHILD WILL JUST SCREAM TO UNDERSIZE OTHERS.

THE INTROVERT WILL SPEND FUTILE WAYS TO SUPERSIZE ONESELF AND EXTROVERT WILL TRY TO UNDERSIZE OTHERS UNTIL THEY LEARN TO SEPARATE BOUNDARY BETWEEN SELF AND OTHERS. THIS SYMBIOTIC EXISTENCE IS PART OF DEVELOPMENT WHERE THE WAR OF LIFE HAPPENS. THIS IS WHERE WE USE OUR MASK AND SHELL TO PROTECT OURSELVES.

WE MUST LEARN THAT WE CAN CONTROL OURSELVES BUT NOT OTHERS. WE ARE NOT CREATED THAT WAY. INTROVERT MUST LEARN THAT THEY DON'T HAVE TO SUPERSIZE THEMSELVES TO CONTROL OTHERS. AND EXTROVERT MUST LEARN THAT THEY DON'T CONTROL SELF BY CONTROLLING OTHERS.

HAVE A BOUNDARY BETWEEN SELF AND ENVIRONMENT, BETWEEN SELF AND OTHERS. WE CAN ONLY MEET OUR OWN NEEDS, IT'S NOT THE SAME AS CONTROLLING OURSELF. DON'T OVERCONTROL OURSELVES.

WE USE SYMBOLIC GESTURE WHEN WE ACT TALK. WE EXPRESS SYMBOL THAT HAS MEANING/CONNOTATION. POLITENESS AND MANNER IS AN EXAMPLE OF THIS GESTURE. PEOPLE USE THIS GESTURE FOR TWO PURPOSE AS OIL TO SMOOTH RELATIONSHIP OR TO HIDE SOMETHING. SMOOTHING RELATIONSHIP CAN BE A SCAM TO SPEED UP GOING UP LADDER OF RELATIONSHIP. IN A WAY, I'D LIKE TO TELL PEOPLE THAT YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE POLITE OR ACT NICE TO ME, JUST DON'T VIOLATE ME. SEE THE PRESYMBOLIC GESTURE BEYOND THE SYMBOLIC MEANING/CONNOTATION. SOME PEOPLE CONFUSE WHEN THEY ACT NICE AND POLITE BUT RECEIVE A REGULAR FEEDBACK. THEY THINK THAT BY ACTING EXTRA NICE THEY SHOULD GET EXTRA PLATE OF FOOD.

FOR AN ABSTRACT PERSON, FOCUS ON BREATH TO GO BACK TO CONCRETE SENSE FOR FEELING IS ABSTRACT INTERNAL SENSE AND MIND IS ABSTRACT EXTERNAL SENSE. NUMB THE FEELING AND MIND BY FOCUSING ON THE BREATH.

FOR A CONCRETE PERSON, FOCUS ON THE BREATH TO GET IN TOUCH WITH NATURAL RHYTHM OF LIFE TO BE LESS RIGID AND OVERCONCRETE.

FOR INTROVERT, FOCUSING ON BREATH TO GET IN TOUCH WITH BODY AND LESS WITH MIND AND FEELING

FOR EXTROVERT, FOCUSING ON BREATH TO GET IN TOUCH WITH ITSELF RATHER THAN OTHERS AND ENVIRONMENT

FOR LOGICAL, FOCUSING ON BREATH TO GET IN TOUCH WITH NATURAL RHYTHM AND LESS WITH LOGIC

FOR FEELING, FOCUSING ON BREATH TO NEUTRALIZE TO NATURAL RHYTHM RATHER THAN HIJACKED BY FEELING

FOR PERCEPTION TYPE, FOCUSING ON BREATH TO SEE ACTION IN MOTION

FOR JUDGEMENT TYPE, FOCUSING ON BREATH TO LEARN TO OBSERVE

BY OBSERVING BREATH, OUR NATURAL SELF WILL MAKE APPEARANCE.
FOR INTROVERT, THE EXTROVERT WILL APPEAR
FOR EXTROVERT, THE INTROVERT WILL APPEAR
FOR THINKER, THE FEELING WILL APPEAR
FOR FEELER, THE THINKING WILL APPEAR
FOR CONCRETE, ABSTRACT WILL APPEAR
FOR ABSTRACT, CONCRETE WILL APPEAR
FOR PERCEPTION, THE JUDGE WILL APPEAR
FOR JUDGING, THE PERCEPTION WILL APPEAR

THE UNDERDEVELOPED IS ASKING TO APPEAR. OUR WORST NIGHTMARE. OUR SHADOW. OUTSIDE OF OUR COMFORT ZONE. BY DEVELOPING THIS UNDERDEVELOPED, WE BECOME MORE FLEXIBLE AND OPENMINDED.


ABSTRACT EXTROVERT ARE SOCIAL, HUMANITY, SPIRITUAL LEADERS
ABSTRACT INTROVERT ARE ARTIST, PHILOSOPHERS, AND HEALER

MEDITATION

TO CLOSE OUR MIND AND FEELING
TO BECOME MINDBLIND AND FEELING DEAF.
AND TO OPEN OUR SENSES.
TO STOP RECOGNIZING THE REACTIONS AND BE STILL
TO JUMP FROM ONE ACTIVITY TO THE NEXT
INTROVERT INTERNAL ACTIVITY IN THE MIND
EXTROVERT BUSY ON THE OUTSIDE
INTROVERT BUSY ON THE INSIDE
COMPULSIVELY PLAYING WITH ITS OWN IMAGINATION

A PARABLE OF AN EMPLOYER WHO GIVES SALARY TO HIS EMPLOYEES. THE EMPLOYEE WHO WORK 10 HOURS RECEIVE THE SAME AMOUNT AS THE EMPLOYEE WHO WORK 1 HOURS.
THE EMPLOYEE COMPLAIN BECAUSE IT IS NOT FAIR TO WORTH 10 HOURS LIKE 1 HOUR.
HOWEVER, IT IS FAIR BECAUSE IT IS FREE GIFT LIKE IF I LOAN MONEY TO PEOPLE, I DON'T CARE WHO I GIVE IT TO AND HOW MUCH. NO ONE WHO RECEIVE GIFT FROM ME CAN COMPLAIN THAT HIS NEIGHBOR RECEIVE LESS THAN HE IS BECAUSE I GIVE IT FOR FREE.

ENLIGHTENMENT IS TO BREAK OUT OF CONSCIOUSNESS PERSONALITY SHELL
WE GET CAUGHT IN A DREAM OR NIGHTMAR

IF MIND IS LIKE EYES, OUT THOUGHTS IS VISION
THE DIFFERENCE IS THAT VISION IS RECEIVED, THOUGHTS MUST BE CREATED
THINKING IS ANOTHER SENSE EXPERIENCE THAT COMPLETE OUR PERCEPTION
INTROVERT BELIEVE THIS MIND THAT THE REAL THING

THOUGHT AND EMOTION HAVE ADDITIONAL FUNCTION OTHER THAN BEING A SENSOR, THEY REACT.
THEY ARE CREATED AND REACT
FEELING AND THOUGHTS ARE OUR CONSCIOUS EMOTION AND MIND
ACTUALLY, EVEN OUR SENSES REACT
SO OUR SENSES AND PERCEPTION ARE OUR REACTION TO ENVIRONMENT

CONSCIOUSNESS IS ALL DIFFERENT MATTER. IT IS A SENSE OF WAKEFULNESS, RECOGNIZING ENVIRONMENT, AND HAVING MANUAL CONTROL OVER OUR MOTORIC. IT IS A SENSE OF NOT AUTOMATIC. OUR CONSCIOUSNESS GIVES US STATIC PERCEPTION AND SENSE DUE TO MULTICONNECTION IN OUR BRAIN, LIKE WE PERCEIVE MOVEMENT BUT WE DON'T PERCEIVE CHANGE WELL. WE USE STATIC SYMBOLS THAT GIVES APPEARANCE OF PERMANENCE AND UNCHANGED.

PERSONALITY DISYNCHRONIZATION

PERSONALITY IS OUR CONSCIOUS EXPERIENCE OF OUR PERSONALITY. THERE IS DIFFERENCE BETWEEN FREUD STRUCTURE OF PERSONALITY OF ID, EGO, AND SUPEREGO AND THE PERSONALITY TYPE, HOW WE EXPERIENCE OUR PERSONALITY.
TO LIVE A CIVILIZED HUMAN WORLD, WE HAVE TO USE OUR CONSCIOUS PERSONALITY
 

WE HAVE FOUR PREFERENCE OF PERSONALITY: DOMINANT, AUX, TERTIARY AND SHADOW.
THE FOUR PERSONALITY IS OUR COMPLETE PSYCHOLOGICAL PROFILE AS A PERSON. WHEN DIVIDED, THEY ARE CALLED PERSONALITY.

WHEN INCOMPLETE, THEY ARE OVER OR UNDERDEVELOPED. ENVIRONMENT DISTORT THE DEVELOPMENT OF THESE PERSONALITY
BY OVERDEVELOPING ONE PERSONALITY AND UNDERDEVELOP OTHERS. MOSTLY, WE OVERDEVELOP OUR DOMINANT PERSONALITY SINCE IT IS OUR MOST COMFORTABLE AND CONSCIOUS.

FOR EXAMPLE, THE OVERDEVELOPMENT OF INTERNAL FEELING MAKES A PERSON HAS POOR IMAGINATION, PRACTICAL KNOWLEDGE, AND SENSE OF REALITY.

FI - NE - SI - TE - TI - SE - NI - FE

INTERNAL FEELING - 1ST
EXTERNAL INTUITION - 2ND
INTERNAL SENSE- 3RD
EXTERNAL THINKING - 4TH
INTERNAL THINKING - 5TH
EXTERNAL SENSE - 6TH
INTERNAL INTUITION -7TH
EXTERNAL FEELING. - 8TH

EFNJ - TEACHER