random thoughts

I asked God why he let us suffer
He said the same reason parents give what the child needs not what he wants

watching something is different than participating in it
our mind can only watch, then who participate with who?
who participate with what?
obviously, I am not my body or my body is not me
my body belongs to earth not belongs to me
who is the owner?
what is owned?
neither the owner or the owned exist
the owner exist as the owned exist
without the owner or the owned, my mind just watch
the drama is only between the owner and the owned
about the life of the owner clash with the life of the owned
like drama movie where the drama in one life clash with drama in another's life
the poor guy fall in love with a girl but there is a rich guy gets in a way
my present self life attach with my future self life who clash with the life of the events
when dreading future events
it's not the events per se that we dread, it's the person
more specifically, it's the life of the emotion
we animate them like they have a life of its own
people in our mind, emotion becomes alive in my mind
because i play them like puppet.

the owner attached to the owned
like a guy attach to his car