Wednesday, February 27, 2013

random thoughts

With money you can buy a house, but not a home With money you can buy a clock, but not time With money you can buy a book, but not knowledge With money you can buy blood, but not life With money you can buy sex, but not love. So what can you buy with money???  prem rawat

wants is painful
pain is telling you how bad you want it.

we should live like learning how to drive not to learn to be race car driver
as in learning how to drive, we don't care to be the best
we just want to be able to drive
unlike to be a race car driver, we strive to be the best
and brag about our self more than we need to

Thoughts

I lost a thought I had this morning
puff...  a smoke dissapear into thin air
why some thoughts that I can live without
seems to linger like univited guess
tresspassing and loitering my property
my minds are still not getting along
like siblings rivalry who are still learning to play with each other
mind, can't live with them, can't live without them....

Monday, February 25, 2013

seeing

See, don't look
hear, don't listen
because when you look and listen, you react
don't react to whatever you see
because you don't see, you only see what you think you see

arts, like news, is not good if old

Sunday, February 24, 2013

Feedback mechanism

Our consciousness is an advance feedback mechanism
that can cognitively and emotionally empathize with what others are thinking and feeling
also can con-sequent a situation
what would others think about this? what would others feel about this?
we try to synchronize our actions with what others
however, we mistakenly confuse "would" with "will"
like we confuse the first conditional thinking with the zero conditional thinking

Saturday, February 23, 2013

Sunday meditation

The universe is not God's consciousness
the universe itself is God
and we are created in His image
our consciousness is His consciousness
we are like the cortex of God, the latest in creation
so it is false to look for God outside of itself
like a false self that doesn't exist
there is no free will and there is no predisposition either
but a interdependent reactions that transform uninterruptedly
Christian is the worst
trying to tell me that Santa Claus exist
just because they still believe that he exist
faith is our consciousness
to see what the eyes can't see
but it falsely create the self
and the world like in a bubble
ignorance keeps us in the bubble
and don't know that we are in the bubble
created semantically and visually by look, sound, taste, smell, and feel
that we believe to be real
for look, sound, taste, smell, and feel are appearance based
culturally or subjectively valued
so we daydream like a cortex is working
suffering for a part is not suffering for the whole
the brain doesn't suffer when we think we suffer
our eyes are blind when our mind is open
but when our mind is blind, our eyes are opened
maybe, God is developing his mind
like a baby is developing his muscle
a growth spur
things are mobile and are always moving
ah, it takes such a long time and much effort to realize
no wonder that people don't see


Friday, February 22, 2013

Feeling

I see and look at things but things looks/seems
I hear/listen to things but things sounds
I touch things but things feels

We sense our world by how they appear, sound or feels
what we think they give to us
we don't see the world, we catch how they appear
we don't hear the world, but how they sound
we don't touch, but how they feel
see, this is their presentation to us

The Illusion of Feeling

Feeling is not what it seems to be
it is not how we experience our emotion
it is not ours
it is not that our feeling is bad we feel bad
it is how the object feels
we introject the badness into our heart before we project it out again
it is a gift from the world
it is how an object appear to us
how an object fit the background
this is not seeing
this is the object of seeing

Feeling is appearance for the sense of touch
THe chemical reaction between the nervous system and stimuli
a psychophysical reaction

We confuse how an object feels with what we feel
how an object appear with what we see.

When we feel, we use our heart like our fingers touching an object
to touch "how an object feels"

It's like our heart is a test bunny that we use to test the effect of a reaction in an experiment
We let it get burned, pierced, poked and suffer the effects.

heart is our thermostat of our engine
like a meat thermometer
we directly scan the feeling
we introject the badness of the object and feel bad to measure the object
we become bad to understand what the badness in others
the heart empathize with the object

don't learn with your heart
processing information with your heart
like a blind person who must use his finger to touch objects
learn with your mind
because when you process your imagination with your heart, it's gonna hurt many times

don't use your heart to measure things
don't use your heart to understand something
don't use your finger to measure how hot a stove is


Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Anesthesia

My heart likes to sleep
when she doesn't feel anything
and go to her dream
for sleeping is not relaxing
but numbing
the natural painkiller
the natural anesthesia
she must be unhappy
living in fantasy and numbed existence
she is only happy on the drugs
craving without it
how to untrouble the heart
obviously, my heart is stronger than my mind
how to make the heart fall in love with the world
so she doesn't cheat and fall in love with the other world
for the heart has fall out of love with the world...

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

soul weather

tears come out when there is cloud in the heart
we can predict the weather in the soul from the eye forecast
after the tears, a bow of smile appears


maturity

My shadow is dragging me
I am so serious like a child pretending to be an adult
Why do I long for maturity
I just wish I grow up soon

maturity is not pretty
like adulthood that is not as glomorous as those children thought
a flower mature by just opening herself
life is not fun and games
nature is something to laugh with
maturity is peace
maturity is like a child who sees the world as friendly
the highest level of maturity
is being in love with heaven
with the universe as its garden
and all creatures as siblings


letting go

If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were.

And ever has it been known that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.

“Your hand opens and closes, opens and closes. If it were always a fist or always stretched open, you would be paralysed. Your deepest presence is in every small contracting and expanding, the two as beautifully balanced and coordinated as birds' wings.” 
 Rumi, Essential Rumi

Forest looks better from a distance

the art of relationship

Beautiful heart last longer than beautiful face
for what is beauty other than painting on the wall
whose prized on novelty than anything else

what matter is who get into and stay in your heart
who can unlock the door of your heart
and opened your secret of happiness that you never knew
who can touch your heart
sing songs and see gently to your heart
who you opened the heart to
who you want to let in and stay the night

she doesn't have to be beautiful, but beautiful for you
for you don't see with your eyes, but your heart
once your heart is opened, you will see her real beauty
find whoever can unlock your heart.

Love in life

Like in relationship, difficulties in life are locked doors
when things get difficult, you have to squeeze in more love
to unlock the doors
whether it's the door of your heart or theirs
for we learn not to open the door for strangers
you must love all the time with people
especially, in difficult times

hatred is food for love
the source of power for love
like darkness is food for light
the darker it is, the brighter the light...

friends who become enemies turn into strangers
for enemies are only for strangers
who opened the doors for strangers?
use love to turn strangers to friends
and unlock the door

People who are angry and defensive don't do it because they want to
it is because they don't know what they do
their emotion make them do it
in fact, they live without it if they can choose
it's their own worst enemy.
Why don't we help them to defend against the enemy
by turning fire into water...
that's the power of love


Fight

Fights in relationship is the only doors that lead to a deeper room in her heart
and love is the only key to unlock the door
and faith is the lamp to light the path
there is no other way in

sometimes, some doors are already opened
some doors, however, are still closed
conflicts are letting you know that you meet a locked door
you can remain where you are or you can unlock it
and go deeper into the house

the more doors are opened and the more rooms you have in her heart
the more trust and faith you have in her heart
love is only a key
when the door is unlocked love is not needed
but, who leaves a house unlocked?
every heart always comes locked at birth

make love all the time with her heart
so, when you hit a locked door,
your key works
see, not all keys work
only one special key for every heart

you don't have to be a locksmith that can open locked doors to every heart
you just have to have the right key to the right house, her heart
yup, love takes practice
like a little child who is learning how to unlock a door


Sunday, February 17, 2013

STRESS

A psychologist walked around a room while teaching stress management to an audience. As she raised a glass of water, everyone expected they'd be asked the "half empty or half full" question. Instead, with a smile on her face, she inquired: "How heavy is this glass of water?"

Answers called out ranged from 8 oz. to 20 oz.

She replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, it's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my arm. If I hold it for a day, my arm will feel numb and paralyzed. In each case, the weight of the glass doesn't change, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes." She continued, "The stresses and worries in life are like that glass of water. Think about them for a while and nothing happens. Think about them a bit longer and they begin to hurt. And if you think about them all day long, you will feel paralyzed – incapable of doing anything."

It’s important to remember to let go of your stresses. As early in the evening as you can, put all your burdens down. Don't carry them through the evening and into the night. Remember to put the glass down!


LIKE YOU CAN'T BUY HAPPINESS. YOU SIT ON $5 CHAIR, IT HURT AFTER 30 MINUTES
YOU SIT ON $500 CHAIR, IT STILL HURTS AFTER 20 HOURS OF SITTING...
YOU BUY COMFORT NOT HAPPINESS

JUST LIKE YOU CAN'T BUY/OWN BEAUTY OR HAPPINESS, THE BEAUTY CHANGES AFTER A WHILE.
YOU CAN'T BUY OTHERS' PLEASURE.
YOU CAN'T BUY OTHERS' AFFECTION OR LOVE WITH YOUR BEHAVIOR AND AFFECTION.
BECAUSE WHAT YOU BUY IS ONLY COMFORT...

Meditation 2/18/13 - 2

"See yourself like you see a stranger. Like it happens to a stranger. relate but not attach to."

Mana grab the store consciousness like a beloved, possessive and impulsive
the attachment to the subject of store consciousness gives birth to self
birth of self gives birth to mind consciousness that gives birth to sense consciousness

subject to object of store consciousness is the foreground to background information
present information to past information/knowledge

store consciousness is like LONG TERM MEMORY AND HABIT
mana is the animal instinct to meet basic needs, like children sucking and grabbing toes
the mind/FEELING consciousness is the SHORT TERM MEMORY
the sense/EMOTION consciousness is the perception
for SENSE consciousness is the perception of external senses
EMOTION consciousness is the perception of internal senses/emotion

 INPUT MECHANISM
PERCEPTION: SENSE/EMOTION

PROCESSING
MIND/FEELING

STORAGE
STORE CONSCIOUSNESS

USER
MANA

OUTPUT
BEHAVIOR

THE COMPUTER IS ALWAYS ON, THE STORE CONSCIOUSNESS/CPU IS ALWAYS ON. THE COLLECTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS IS ALWAYS ON GIVES US THE ENVIRONMENT. MIND/FEELING IS THE PROCESSOR. PERCEPTION IS BOTH SCREEN FOR THE INPUT AND OUTPUT THAT LEADS TO BEHAVIOR.
MANA IS THE MANUAL USER WHO TURN OFF AUTOMATIC PILOT.


COMPETENCE GOES AUTOMATICALLY FROM SENSE TO STORE CONSCIOUSNESS. INCOMPETENCE USE MANA TO MANUALLY GRAB MIND/FEELING TO PROCESS. IT OVERRIDE THE AUTOMATIC PILOT AND ASSUME CONTROL.

WHEN COMPETENCE, SENSE - STORE CONSCIOUSNESS - BEHAVIOR
INCOMPETENCE, SENSE - PERCEPTION - MANA - MIND/FEELING - BEHAVIOR


the store consciousness is being imprisoned by the animal instinct
and the mind and sense consciousness become the slave

Meditation 2/18/13

Waking up, I had an insight
my craving is flaring up and is consuming
"don't dream so you don't get caught in a nightmare"
Why am I following this craving like a slave to a master?
why am I following feeling instead of the other way around?
human is the only being that can get entertained by a video or a story
and also can get destroyed with a picture or a word
I am much bigger than this craving but I don't live
I let my illness live
the craving, afflicted feeling and false thoughts, rule my body
wake up the external senses and close the mind and feeling
don't live off interpretation of the mind and feeling
be a master to your feeling and mind
don't be ruled by them
let them follow you
you are not their tool, they are your tool
they are right as a tool interpreting senses, but wrong as a master that the interpretation is the reality
suck up the ache and close them
be stronger than them for you are not your illness
your senses is weak, it's seldom used before
let the ache be a reminder to sense
to wake up before the nightmare
because of desire for the intoxication of the addiction, you crave
live off your perception from your senses not your judgement from your self
take over the ownership of your life
be a master of yourself
claim the authorship of your life
wake up, stop dreaming
stop neglecting your life
no matter how great a dream is, it is not real
no matter how bad a nightmare is, it is not real
it is better to have a real piece of bread than a dream of expensive dish
feeling is the stronger factor to close
it's physical, relax and use the power of the mind to close the feeling from rising
for it is like tide crave for the shore
it serves a master who wants something
and it's his job to get it
the mind is more the feeling's assistant
they are afraid of dissapointing the master
of getting the wrath of the master
the collective mind serves as the palace and the world
the manas is the advisor who tries to please the master strategizing
the sense consciousness is the servants
the master is created by the manas
in false attempt to protect itself


The Four Layers of Consciousness




The Vietnamese Zen Master Thuong Chieu said, “When we understand how our mind works, our practice becomes easy.” To understand our minds, we need to understand our consciousness.
The Buddha taught that consciousness is always continuing, like a stream of water. Consciousness has four layers. The four layers of consciousness are mind consciousness, sense consciousness, store consciousness, and manas.
Mind consciousness is the first kind of consciousness. It uses up most of our energy. Mind consciousness is our “working” consciousness that makes judgments and plans; it is the part of our consciousness that worries and analyzes. When we speak of mind consciousness, we’re also speaking of body consciousness, because mind consciousness isn’t possible without the brain. Body and mind are simply two aspects of the same thing. Body without consciousness is not a real, live body. And consciousness can’t manifest itself without a body.
It’s possible for us to train ourselves to remove the false distinction between brain and consciousness. We shouldn’t say that consciousness is born from the brain, because the opposite is true: the brain is born from consciousness. The brain is only 2 percent of the body’s weight, but it consumes 20 percent of the body’s energy. So using mind consciousness is very expensive. Thinking, worrying, and planning take a lot of energy.
We can economize the energy by training our mind consciousness in the habit of mindfulness. Mindfulness keeps us in the present moment and allows our mind consciousness to relax and let go of the energy of worrying about the past or predicting the future.
The second level of consciousness is sense consciousness, the consciousness that comes from our five senses: sight, hearing, taste, touch, and smell. We sometimes call these senses “gates,” or “doors,” because all objects of perception enter consciousness through our sensory contact with them. Sense consciousness always involves three elements: first, the sense organ (eyes, ears, nose, tongue, or body); second, the sense object itself (the object we’re smelling or the sound we’re hearing); and finally, our experience of what we are seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting, or touching.
The third layer of consciousness, store consciousness, is the deepest. There are many names for this kind of consciousness. Mahayana tradition calls this store consciousness, or alaya, in Sanskrit. The Theravada tradition uses the Pali word bhavanga to describe this consciousness.Bhavanga means constantly flowing, like a river. Store consciousness is also sometimes called root consciousness (mulavijñana in Sanskrit) or sarvabijaka, which means “the totality of the seeds.” In Vietnamese, we call store consciousness tang. Tang means to keep and preserve.
These different names hint at the three aspects of store consciousness. The first meaning is of a place, a “store,” where all kinds of seeds and information are kept. The second meaning is suggested by the Vietnamese name, because store consciousness doesn’t just take in all the information, it holds it and preserves it. The third meaning is suggested by bhavanga, the sense of processing and transforming.
Store consciousness is like a museum. A museum can only be called a museum when there are things in it. When there is nothing in it, you can call it a building, but not a museum. The conservator is the one who is responsible for the museum. Her function is to keep the various objects preserved and not allow them to be stolen. But there must be things to be stored, things to be kept. Store consciousness refers to the storing and also to what is stored—that is, all the information from the past, from our ancestors, and all the information received from the other consciousnesses. In Buddhist tradition, this information is stored as bija, seeds.
Suppose this morning you hear a certain chant for the first time. Your ear and the music come together and provoke the manifestation of the mental formation called touch, which causes store consciousness to vibrate. That information, a new seed, falls into the store continuum. Store consciousness has the capacity to receive the seed and store it in its heart. Store consciousness preserves all the information it receives. But the function of store consciousness isn’t just to receive and store these seeds; its job is also to process this information.
The work of processing on this level is not expensive. Store consciousness doesn’t spend as much energy as, for example, mind consciousness. Store consciousness can process this information without a lot of work on your part. So if you want to save your energy, don’t think too much, don’t plan too much, and don’t worry too much. Allow your store consciousness to do most of the processing.
During the night if your room becomes cold but you continue to sleep, your body can sense the cold without the intervention of mind consciousness. Store consciousness may give the order to your arm to pull up the blanket without your even being aware of it. Store consciousness operates in the absence of mind consciousness. It can do a lot of things. It can do a lot of planning; it can make a lot of decisions without your knowing about it.
When we go into a department store and look for a hat or a shirt, we have the impression, while looking at the items displayed, that we have free will and that, finances permitting, we are free to choose whatever we want. If the vendor asks us what we like, we can point to or verbalize the object of our desire. And we likely have the impression that we are free people at this moment, using our mind consciousness to select things that we like. But that is an illusion. Everything has been decided already in store consciousness. At that moment we are caught; we are not free people. Our sense of beauty, our sense of liking or disliking, has been decided very certainly and very discreetly on the level of store consciousness.
It’s an illusion that we are free. The degree of freedom that our mind consciousness has is actually very small. Store consciousness dictates many of the things we do, because store consciousness continuously receives, embraces, maintains, processes, and makes many decisions without the participation of mind consciousness. But if we know the practice, we can influence our store consciousness; we can help influence how our store consciousness stores and processes information so as to make better decisions. We can influence it.
Just like mind consciousness and sense consciousness, store consciousness consumes. When you are around a group of people, although you want to be yourself, you are consuming their ways, and you are consuming their store consciousness. Our consciousness is fed with other consciousnesses. The way we make decisions, our likes and dislikes, depend on the collective way of seeing things. You may not see something as beautiful, but if many people think that it’s beautiful, then slowly you may come to accept it as beautiful also, because the individual consciousness is made up of collective consciousness.
The value of the dollar is made up of the collective thinking of people, not just of objective economic elements. People’s fears, desires, and expectations make the dollar go up and go down. We are influenced by the collective ways of seeing and thinking. That’s why selecting the people you are around is very important. It’s very important to surround yourself with people who have loving-kindness, understanding, and compassion, because day and night we are influenced by the collective consciousness.
Store consciousness offers us enlightenment and transformation. This possibility is contained in its third meaning, its always-flowing nature. Store consciousness is like a garden where we can plant the seeds of flowers, fruits, and vegetables, and then flowers, fruits, and vegetables will grow. Mind consciousness is only a gardener. A gardener can help the land and take care of the land, but the gardener has to believe in the land, believe that it can offer us fruits, flowers, and vegetables. As practitioners, we can’t rely on our mind consciousness alone; we have to rely on our store consciousness as well. Decisions are being made down there.
Suppose you type something on your computer and this information is stored on the hard drive. That hard drive is like store consciousness. Although the information doesn’t appear on the screen, it is still there. You only need to click and it will manifest. The bija, the seeds in store consciousness, are like the data you store on your computer. If you want to, you can click and help it appear on the screen of mind consciousness. Mind consciousness is like a screen and store consciousness is like the hard drive, because it can store a lot in it. Store consciousness has the capacity of storing, maintaining, and preserving information so that it can’t be erased.
Unlike information on a hard drive, however, all the seeds are of an organic nature and they can be modified. The seed of hatred, for example, can be weakened and its energy can be transformed into the energy of compassion. The seed of love can be watered and strengthened. The nature of the information that’s being kept and processed by the store consciousness is always flowing and always changing. Love can be transformed into hate, and hate can be transformed back into love.
Store consciousness is also a victim. It’s an object of attachment; it’s not free. In store consciousness there are elements of ignorance—delusion, anger, fear—and these elements form a force of energy that clings, that wants to possess. This is the fourth level of consciousness, called manas, which I like to translate as “cogitation.” Manas consciousness has at its root the belief in a separate self, the belief in a person. This consciousness, the feeling and instinct called “I am,” is very deeply seated in store consciousness. It’s not a view taken up by mind consciousness. Deeply seated in the depths of store consciousness is this idea that there is a self that is separate from non-self elements. The function of manas is to cling to store consciousness as a separate self.
Another way of thinking of manas is as adana consciousness. Adana means “appropriation.” Imagine that a vine puts forth a shoot, and then the shoot turns back and embraces and encircles the trunk of the tree. This deep-seated delusion—the belief that there is a self—is there in store consciousness as the result of ignorance and fear, and it gives rise to an energy that turns around and embraces store consciousness and makes it the only object of its love.
Manas is always operating. It never lets go of store consciousness. It’s always embracing, always holding or sticking to store consciousness. It believes store consciousness to be the object of its love. That’s why store consciousness isn’t free. There’s an illusion that store consciousness is “me,” is my beloved, so I can’t let it go. Day and night there’s a secret, deep cogitation that this is me, this is mine, and I have to do everything I can to grasp, to protect, to make it mine. Manas is born and rooted in store consciousness. It arises from store consciousness and it turns around and embraces store consciousness as its object: “You are my beloved, you are me.” The function of manas is to appropriate store consciousness as its own.
Now we have the names of the four layers of consciousness, and we can see how they interact. Store consciousness is a process—always flowing, always present, never interrupted. But mind consciousness may be interrupted. For example, when we sleep without dreaming, mind consciousness is not operating. When we’re in a coma, mind consciousness stops working completely. And there are deep concentrations when mind consciousness completely stops operating—there’s no thinking, no planning, nothing—yet store consciousness continues to operate.
Some neuroscientists use the term “background consciousness” to describe store consciousness. And the level of mind consciousness is what they call, simply, consciousness. Whether you’re awake or you’re asleep, whether you’re dreaming or not dreaming, the work of processing and storing information is continuously done by store consciousness, whether you want it to or not.
There are times when sense consciousness operates in collaboration with store consciousness without going through the mind. It’s funny, but it happens very, very often. When you drive your car, you are able to avoid many accidents, even if your mind consciousness is thinking of other things. You may not even be thinking of driving at all. And yet, most of the time at least, you don’t get into an accident. This is because the impressions and images provided by eye consciousness are received by store consciousness, and decisions are made without ever going through mind consciousness. When someone suddenly holds something close to your eyes—for instance, if someone is about to hit you, or when something is about to fall on you—you react quickly. That quick reaction, that decision, is not made by mind consciousness. If you have to make a quick maneuver, it’s not your mind consciousness that does it. We don’t think, “Oh, there is an accident, therefore I have to quickly swerve to the right.” That instinct of self-defense comes from store consciousness.
In the cold room at night, even though you’re not dreaming, and mind consciousness isn’t functioning, the feeling of cold still penetrates into the body at the level of sense consciousness, which makes a vibration on the level of store consciousness, and your body moves the blanket up to cover you. Whether we’re driving, manipulating a machine, or performing other tasks, many of us allow our sense consciousness to collaborate with store consciousness, which enables us to do many things without the intervention of mind consciousness. When we bring our mind consciousness into this work, then suddenly we may become aware of the mental formations that are arising.
The word “formation” (samskara in Sanskrit) means something that manifests when many conditions come together. When we look at a flower, we can recognize many of the elements that have come together to make the flower manifest in that form. We know that without the rain there can be no water and the flower cannot manifest. And we see that the sunshine is also there. The earth, the compost, the gardener, time, space, and many elements came together to help this flower manifest. The flower doesn’t have a separate existence; it’s a formation. The sun, the moon, the mountain, and the river are all formations. Using the word “formation” reminds us that there is no separate core of existence in them. There is only a coming together of many, many conditions for something to manifest.
As Buddhist practitioners, we can train ourselves to look at everything as a formation. We know that all formations are changing all the time. Impermanence is one of the marks of reality, because everything changes.
Formations that exist in consciousness are called mental formations. When there’s contact between a sense organ (eyes, ears, mouth, nose, body) and an object, sense consciousness arises. And at the moment your eyes first gaze on an object, or you first feel the wind on your skin, the first mental formation of contact manifests. Contact causes a vibration on the level of store consciousness.
If the impression is weak, then the vibration stops and the current of store consciousness recovers its tranquility; you continue to sleep or you continue with your activities, because that impression created by touch has not been strong enough to draw the attention of mind consciousnesses. It’s like when a flying insect lands on the surface of the water and causes the water to ripple a little bit. After the insect flies off, the surface of the water becomes completely calm again. So although the mental formation manifests, although the current of the life continuum vibrates, there’s no awareness born in mind consciousness because the impression is too weak.
Sometimes in Buddhist psychology, one speaks of forty-nine or fifty mental formations. In my tradition, we speak of fifty-one. Of the fifty-one mental formations, contact is the first, followed by attention, feeling, perception, and volition. These five mental formations can take place very quickly, and their intensity, their depth, varies in each level of consciousness. When we speak of attention, for instance, we can see attention in the context of store consciousness, and we can see attention on the level of mind consciousness, and the intensity or the depth of attention is quite different on the two levels.
The fifty-one mental formations are also called mental concomitants; that is, they are the very content of consciousness, the way the drops of water are the very content of the river. For example, anger is a mental formation. Mind consciousness can operate in such a way that anger can manifest in mind consciousness. In that moment, mind consciousness is filled with anger, and we may feel our mind consciousness is full of nothing but anger. But in fact, mind consciousness is not just anger, because later on compassion arises, and at that time, mind consciousness becomes compassion. Mind consciousness is, at various times, all fifty-one mental formations, be they positive, negative, or neutral.
Without mental formations, there can’t be consciousness. It’s as if we’re discussing a formation of birds. The formation holds the birds together, and they fly beautifully in the sky. You don’t need someone to hold the birds and keep them flying in one formation. You don’t need a self to create the formation. The birds just do it. In a beehive, you don’t need someone who gives the order for this bee to go left and that bee to go right; they just communicate among one another and are a beehive. Among all the bees, every bee may have a different responsibility, but no bee claims to be the boss of all the bees, not even the queen. The queen is not the boss. Her function is simply to give birth to the eggs. If you have a good community, a good sangha, it’s like this beehive in which all the parts make up the whole, with no leader, no boss.
When we say it’s raining, we mean that raining is taking place. You don’t need someone up above to perform the raining. It’s not that there is the rain, and there is the one who causes the rain to fall. In fact, when you say the rain is falling, it’s very funny, because if it weren’t falling, it wouldn’t be rain. In our way of speaking, we’re used to having a subject and a verb. That’s why we need the word “it” when we say, “it rains.” “It” is the subject, the one who makes the rain possible. But, looking deeply, we don’t need a “rainer,” we just need the rain. Raining and the rain are the same. The formation of birds and the birds are the same—there’s no “self,” no boss involved.
There’s a mental formation called vitarka, “thinking.” When we use the verb “to think” in English, we need a subject of the verb: I think, you think, he thinks. But, really, you don’t need a subject for a thought to be produced. Thinking without thinker—it’s absolutely possible. To think is to think about something. To perceive is to perceive something. The perceiver and the object that is perceived are one.
When Descartes said, “I think, therefore I am,” his point was that if I think, there must be an “I” for thinking to be possible. When he made the declaration “I think,” he believed that he could demonstrate that the “I” exists. We have the strong habit of believing in a self. But, observing very deeply, we can see that a thought does not need a thinker to be possible. There is no thinker behind the thinking—there is just the thinking; that’s enough.
Now, if Mr. Descartes were here, we might ask him, “Monsieur Descartes, you say, ÔYou think, therefore you are.’ But what are you? You are your thinking. Thinking—that’s enough. Thinking manifests without the need of a self behind it.”
Thinking without a thinker. Feeling without a feeler. What is our anger without our “self”? This is the object of our meditation. All the fifty-one mental formations take place and manifest without a self behind them that’s arranging for this to appear, and then for that to appear. Our mind consciousness is in the habit of basing itself on the idea of self, on manas. But we can meditate to be more aware of our store consciousness, where we keep the seeds of all those mental formations that are not currently manifesting in our mind.
When we meditate, we practice looking deeply in order to bring light and clarity into our way of seeing things. When the vision of no-self is obtained, our delusion is removed. This is what we call transformation. In the Buddhist tradition, transformation is possible with deep understanding. The moment the vision of no-self is there, manas, the elusive notion of “I am,” disintegrates, and we find ourselves enjoying, in this very moment, freedom and happiness.



"The most fundamental layer of consciousness is the ninth or amalaconsciousness. Unstained by the workings of karma, this consciousness represents our true, eternal self. The revolutionary aspect of Nichiren Buddhism is that it seeks to directly bring forth the energy of this consciousness--the enlightened nature of the Buddha--thus purifying the other, more superficial layers of consciousness."
Nine ConsciousnessThe Buddhist teaching of the nine consciousnesses offers the basis for a comprehensive understanding of who we are, our true identity. It also helps explain how Buddhism sees the eternal continuity of our lives over cycles of birth and death. This perspective on the human being is the fruit of thousands of years of intense introspective investigation into the nature of consciousness. Historically, it is grounded in efforts to experience and explain the essence of Shakyamuni's enlightenment beneath the bodhi tree some 2,500 years ago.
The nine consciousnesses can be thought of as different layers of consciousness which are constantly operating together to create our lives. The Sanskrit word vijnāna, which is translated as consciousness, includes a wide range of activities, including sensation, cognition and conscious thought. The first five of these consciousnesses are the familiar senses of sight, hearing, smell, taste and touch. The sixth consciousness is the function that integrates and processes the various sensory data to form an overall picture or thought, identifying what it is that our five senses are communicating to us. It is primarily with these six functions of life that we perform our daily activities.
Below this level of consciousness is the seventh consciousness. Unlike those layers of consciousness that are directed toward the outer world, the seventh consciousness is directed toward our inner life and is largely independent of sensory input. The seventh consciousness is the basis for our sense of individual identity; attachment to a self distinct to and separate from others has its basis in this consciousness, as does our sense of right and wrong.
Below the seventh consciousness, Buddhism elucidates a deeper layer, the eighth or ālayaconsciousness, also known as the never-perishing or storehouse consciousness. It is here that the energy of our karma resides. Whereas the first seven consciousnesses disappear on death, the eighth consciousness persists through the cycles of active life and the latency of death. It can be thought of as the life-flow that supports the activities of the other consciousnesses. The experiences described by those who have undergone clinical death and been revived could be said to be occurrences at the borderline of the seventh and eighth consciousnesses.
An understanding of these levels of consciousness and the interaction between them can offer valuable insights into the nature of life and the self, as well as pointing to the resolution of the fundamental problems that humanity confronts.
According to Buddhist teachings, there are specific deep-seated delusions in the seventh consciousness regarding the nature of self. These delusions arise from the relationship between the seventh and eighth levels of consciousness and manifest as fundamental egotism.
Buddhist teachings describe the seventh layer as emerging from the eighth consciousness: it is always focused on the eighth consciousness of the individual, which it perceives as something fixed, unique and isolated from other things. In reality, the eighth consciousness is in a state of continual flux. At this level our lives constantly interact, exerting a profound influence on each other. The perception of a fixed and isolated self that the seventh consciousness generates is thus false.
The seventh consciousness is also the seat of the fear of death. Being unable to perceive the true nature of the eighth consciousness as an enduring flow of life energy, it imagines that upon death, the eighth consciousness will become permanently extinct. Fear of death thus has roots in the deep layers of the subconscious.
The delusion that the eighth consciousness is one's true self is also termed fundamental ignorance, a turning away from the interconnectedness of all being. It is this sense of one's self as separate and isolated from others that gives rise to discrimination, to destructive arrogance and unbridled acquisitiveness. Humanity's ravaging of the natural environment is another obvious result.

A Karmic River

Buddhism posits that our thoughts, words and deeds invariably create an imprint in the deep layers of the eighth consciousness. This is what Buddhists refer to as karma. The eighth consciousness is therefore sometimes referred to as the karmic storehouse--the place where these karmic seeds are stored. These seeds or latent energy can be either positive or negative; the eighth consciousness remains neutral and equally receptive to either type of karmic imprinting. The energy becomes manifest when conditions are ripe. Positive latent causes can become manifest as both positive effects in one's life and as positive psychological functions such as trust, nonviolence, self-control, compassion and wisdom. Negative latent causes can manifest as various forms of delusion and destructive behavior and give rise to suffering for ourselves and others.
While the image of a storehouse is helpful, a truer image may be that of a raging torrent of karmic energy. This energy is constantly moving through and shaping our lives and experience. Our resultant thoughts and actions are then fed back into this karmic flow. The quality of the karmic flow is what makes each of us distinct beings--our unique selves. The flow of energy is constantly changing, but, like a river, it maintains an identity and consistency even through successive cycles of life and death. It is this aspect of fluidity, this lack of fixity, that opens the possibility of transforming the content of the eighth consciousness. This is why karma, properly understood, is different from an unchanging or unavoidable destiny.
The question, therefore, is how we increase the balance of positive karma. This is the basis for various forms of Buddhist practice that seek to imprint positive causes in our lives. When caught up in a cycle of negative cause and effect, however, it is difficult to avoid making further negative causes, and it is here that we turn to the most fundamental layer of consciousness, the ninth or amala consciousness.
This can be thought of as the life of the cosmos itself; it is also referred to as the fundamentally pure consciousness. Unstained by the workings of karma, this consciousness represents our true, eternal self. The revolutionary aspect of Nichiren Buddhism is that it seeks to directly bring forth the energy of this consciousness--the enlightened nature of the Buddha--thus purifying the other, more superficial layers of consciousness. The great power of the ninth consciousness welling forth changes even entrenched patterns of negative karma in the eighth consciousness.
Because the eighth consciousness transcends the boundaries of the individual, merging with the latent energy of one's family, one's ethnic group, and also with that of animals and plants, a positive change in this karmic energy becomes a "cogwheel" for change in the lives of others. As SGI President Daisaku Ikeda writes, "When we activate this fundamentally pure consciousness, the energy of all life's good and evil karma is directed toward value creation; and the mind or consciousness...of humankind is infused with the life current of compassion and wisdom." Nichiren identified the practice of chanting the phrase Nam-myoho-renge-kyo as the basic means for activating the ninth consciousness in our lives.
As the layers of consciousness are transformed, they each give rise to unique forms of wisdom. The wisdom inherent in the eighth consciousness allows us to perceive ourselves, our experience and other phenomena with perfect clarity and to profoundly appreciate the interconnectedness and interdependence of all things. As the deep-rooted delusions of the seventh consciousness are transformed, an individual is enabled to overcome the fear of death, as well as the aggression and violence that spring from this fear. A wisdom arises which enables us to perceive the fundamental equality of all living beings and to deal with them on an unchanging basis of respect. It is this type of transformation and wisdom that is sorely required in our world today.

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Window to the Heart

Eyes are windows to the heart
Eyes don't lie
The eyes smiles when the heart smiles
when the heart is stormy, the eyes will be full of thunder
when the heart is cloudy, the eyes will rain
only the smiles in the eyes make a bow on the mouth
a smile on the mouth is a smile of a clown
made up to cover the tears of the heart
makes your heart smile
and your eyes will show...

Love and hate

Love is hate and hate is love
it depends if you have inside or outside view
courtside view or distance view
sometimes friendsship is good from a distance
like a forest is better looking from a distance

excitement is not happiness
excitement is not love
happiness is peace
love is happy
thus love is peace
love is sober
love is cooperation
love is truth smiling on perfect mirror

Friday, February 15, 2013

Alone

I am alone but not lonely
for loneliness requires an absent partners
My partner is always with me next to forever
together, we give each other company
talk until late hours, sing songs, and just play games
we hardly argue for we are a perfect couple
familiarity breed love
we pick each other up
we accept each other's flaw
we know each other's secrets
we certainly are there in the darkest moment
we sometimes get bored when there is nothing to play
but we never get tired of each other
I often times ignored her for other partners
but she never leaves me
she is probably not the most excited, the prettiest, the most loving
but she is always there
she is not perfect but perfect for me


Primitive

Rain touch the earth and make the ground fly
the smell of grass and soil awaken in me
raw primitive energy from deep within
the cool breeze calm the mind and sooth the body
with a cup of good song and a hot coffee
I finally get up to walk inside...

Body and Soul

I am the soul inside the body
the soul that has its own heart
different than the other heart
the soul can get injured and its heart can bleed the same
I buy a car for the look, but I drive with the engine
you may like her appearance, but you must fall in love with the soul
for relationship is about capturing and holding her heart in your heart
where two hearts beat as one
like a fetal music for the ears

when my body runs out of blood, it dies
when my soul runs of blood, it transform
bleeding heart is deadly for the body
bleeding heart for the soul is healing
pleasure is good for the body
pain is good for the soul
like our relationship with plants
where they give us breathing air and takes all toxic air
so, the body takes in pleasure and release the pain
where the soul takes in the pain and release the pleasure
Body like to live alone, but soul needs a partner
suffering is getting caught between the two...

body age and gets old, soul mature and gets wise

things have body and soul too
we infer the soul from the appearance of the body
the body may look beautiful, but the soul may not be
this kind of attachment to our own soul and souls of other things create suffering
the body may not look beautiful but the soul may be is
the book is not is cover
this kind of attachment brings paradise
so, ugly soul bring suffering like sick body bring pain
beautiful soul bring paradise like healthy body feels good

body is evil to the soul and the soul food is painful for the body
what is good for the soul may not be good for the body: like delicious food
what is good for the body may not be good for the soul: like exercise

so, the trick is to create a healthy body with beautiful soul
not the other way around like in this upside down world, creating a beautiful body and unhealthy soul



arts and poem

“Poetry can be dangerous, especially beautiful poetry, because it gives the illusion of having had the experience without actually going through it.” rumi

Don't say "I found the truth", say "I found a truth" - KG

Art is dangerous when it is not interested in the truth
when it is used to seduce and for affection
where its purpose has been abused
it feels and sounds and looks good but may not be good

beautiful poems may be just that
a pretty make up covering a face
where the art is the face itself
an artful poem doesn't care about beauty
it is brutally honest, be as appear, appear as be
it's the voice from the deep tunnel
it is irrational and can get musical
it is alive and animated
it is the flame of the fire
it is raw and ugly
for it has no interest of who hear it
it just want to talk
like birds want to sing
or thunder roars...

rumi

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.” 

“If you are irritated by every rub, how will your mirror be polished?” 

“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.” 

“Don’t grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form.” 

“When you do things from your soul, you feel a river moving in you, a joy.” 

“Knock, And He'll open the door
Vanish, And He'll make you shine like the sun
Fall, And He'll raise you to the heavens
Become nothing, And He'll turn you into everything.” 


“Forget safety.
Live where you fear to live.
Destroy your reputation.
Be notorious.” 


“My soul is from elsewhere, I'm sure of that, and I intend to end up there.” 

“In your light I learn how to love. In your beauty, how to make poems. You dance inside my chest where no-one sees you, but sometimes I do, and that sight becomes this art.” 

“Let the beauty we love be what we do. There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.” 

“And still, after all this time, the Sun has never said to the Earth,
"You owe me."
Look what happens with love like that.
It lights up the sky.” 


“silence is the language of god,
all else is poor translation.” 


“There is a candle in your heart, ready to be kindled.
There is a void in your soul, ready to be filled.
You feel it, don't you?” 



“Where there is ruin, there is hope for a treasure.”
― Rumi
“I want to sing like the birds sing, not worrying about who hears or what they think.”
― Rumi
“Let yourself be drawn by the stronger pull of that which you truly love.”
― Rumi
“Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.”
― Rumi
“This is love: to fly toward a secret sky, to cause a hundred veils to fall each moment. First to let go of life. Finally, to take a step without feet.”
― Rumi
“A thousand half-loves must be forsaken to take one whole heart home.”
― RumiWords of Paradise: Selected Poems of Rumi
“Everything in the universe is within you. Ask all from yourself.”
― Rumi
“Words are a pretext. It is the inner bond that draws one person to another, not words.”
― Rumi
“We come spinning out of nothingness, scattering stars like dust.”
― Rumi
“Be empty of worrying.
Think of who created thought!

Why do you stay in prison
When the door is so wide open?”
― RumiThe Essential Rumi
“Sit, be still, and listen,
because you're drunk
and we're at
the edge of the roof.”
― Rumi
“Be like the sun for grace and mercy. Be like the night to cover others' faults. Be like running water for generosity. Be like death for rage and anger. Be like the Earth for modesty. Appear as you are. Be as you appear.”
― Rumi
“People want you to be happy.
Don't keep serving them your pain!

If you could untie your wings
and free your soul of jealousy,

you and everyone around you
would fly up like doves.”
― Rumi
“This being human is a guest house. Every morning is a new arrival. A joy, a depression, a meanness, some momentary awareness comes as an unexpected visitor...Welcome and entertain them all. Treat each guest honorably. The dark thought, the shame, the malice, meet them at the door laughing, and invite them in. Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.”
― Rumi
“Travel brings power and love back into your life.”
― Rumi
“That which God said to the rose, and caused it to laugh in full-blown beauty, He said to my heart, and made it a hundred times more beautiful.”
― Rumi
“Either give me more wine or leave me alone.”
― Rumi
“Two there are who are never satisfied -- the lover of the world and the lover of knowledge.”
― Rumiمثنوی معنوی
“I have lived on the lip
of insanity, wanting to know reasons,
knocking on a door. It opens.
I've been knocking from the inside.”
― Rumi
“Start a huge, foolish project, like Noah…it makes absolutely no difference what people think of you.”
― Rumi
“But listen to me. For one moment
quit being sad. Hear blessings
dropping their blossoms
around you.”
― Rumi
“Reason is powerless in the expression of Love.”
― Rumi
“Come, come, whoever you are. Wanderer, worshiper, lover of leaving. It doesn't matter. Ours is not a caravan of despair. come, even if you have broken your vows a thousand times. Come, yet again , come , come.”
― Rumi
“Raise your words, not voice. It is rain that grows flowers, not thunder.”
― Rumi
“A mountain keeps an echo deep inside. That's how I hold your voice.”
― Rumi
“Who could be so lucky? Who comes to a lake for water and sees the reflection of moon.”
― Rumi