direct experience

There is no suffering in direct experience
Not in mental experience.
The anticipation is worse than the real thing
We create mental experience to avoid dealing directly with the real things, to delay reaction, to polish it
But, later, we also get caught in the nightmare, thinking that it's the real world
Our negative emotions help create the mental world to avoid the feeling again
by lying, conning, and making up the artificial world to neutralize our self
The mental world is nothing but artificial opposite of the real world
The language and mind is full of idea-l
Their function is diplomacy, public relation, and damage control
to procrastinate and rationalize
Like the content of speech "do what I say", the content of mind is the opposite of the real behavior
defense mechanism at its best, denial with its rationalization.
Our world is made up of this rationalization when we deny reality

We can even push our mind to grandiose narcissistic level with our behavior becomes more antisocial
The gap is created between dr. jekyll and mr. hyde.
public relations is polishing this world or rationalization
But, the more we rely on our rationalization, the more we get caught in it.

The function of the content of either speech or thought is to complement or cover up something, usually it's positive to complement negative.
We usually advertise to others positively in speech but we see ourselves negatively secretly in mind
Those who see themselves positively in mind can advertise negatively to others.
But, most of the time, the content is not important, because with ideas we can manipulate whatever we want
creating whatever impression we want and creating effect that we want.

We are creating symbols and reacting to symbols for the impression and effects
Like wearing brand name shirts or shirts with "USA or Paris" on it to create impression and effects
we give symbols impression and effects.

We can not cheat ourselves, but we can cheat others
If we want to cheat ourselves, we have to do it under a flag of professionalism
So, our mental world is full of impression and effect that we wants and doesn't want
we suffer if we get the effect that we doesn't want, we have impression that we doesn't like
and we don't have impression and effects that we want.

WE ARE SURROUNDED BY SEMANTIC ENVIRONMENT, EITHER IN SPEECH OR IN MIND
COMBINATION OF IMAGE AND WORDS THAT WE OURSELVES CREATE THE MEANING OR EFFECT. WE MAKE THEM WORK BY IDENTIFYING WITH THEM.

THIS SEMANTIC ENVIRONMENT HAS LITTLE TO DO WITH THE REAL ENVIRONMENT IT TRIES TO DESCRIBE. THE NEWS, MOVIE, ETC IS AN OPINION OF ONE PERSON.

SO, WE REACT TO OTHERS OPINION AND WE REACT TO OUR OWN OPINION TO THOSE OPINIONS.

WE REMEMBER OUR REACTION TO OUR OPINION THAN OUR OPINION ITSELF. WE REMEMBER OUR OPINION THAN OTHERS' OPINION. LIKE WHEN WE GET PUNISHED, WE REMEMBER OUR NEGATIVE FEELING OR WHAT WE THINK THAN THE PUNISHMENT ITSELF.