Journey Home to Emptiness

Small emptiness can start a journey that lead to big emptiness
I left home a broken man, full of suffering, angry, sad, misunderstood, afraid, and hate myself
In the journey at the new and faraway place, I tried to create a new self
at the same time still feeling inadequate and incompetent.
I live a superficial life trying to be special and attractive
I became a counselor and learned knowledge to separate me from others
But, at the same time the truth and love made their appearance and made me suffer
I have to learn the hard way about love, family, and friendship.
Learned about developing trust and opening myself up
We have to step away from the forest to see the forest
We take advantage of what we have and we appreciate what we don't have
"we don't know what we have until it's gone"
To be away from the family and parents, I learn the meaning of love, family, and friendship
that I am nothing without my family.
Boundaries get tested and trust was deepened.
My parents are ordinary people doing extraordinary things
The best things in life is simple and ordinary
We already have the love and happiness
if we are not blinded by our illusion of fear and greed.
I have been chasing a ghost that doesn't exist
I can't see my goals and destiny because it's in front of my eyes this whole time and I refuse to see it
The one I have been running away from (the small emptiness)
To be ordinary and regular, empty of being special or unique.
To be original, it's always good
The biggest illusion is seeing this original self as flawed and develop an overcompensating self that lead to all kind of troubles.
To be original and ordinary and let the games come to me...