Compulsiveness

I used to think that compulsiveness is only about feelings
to be busy, always doing something, thinking about something
looking up internet, facebook, linked in,
as long as there is always SOMETHING
compulsiveness to activities and objects
like children must have tv and get bored if they don't
need constant visual stimulation
need constant cognitive stimulation
social stimulation
relates to the needs?
the opposite of compulsiveness is boredom, craving
always needs objects to play with
like spoiled children who gets bored easily
compulsiveness to pleasure
innate pleasure rather than learned pleasure
innate is something that a person naturally likes
learned is someting a person must learn to like
why not? to go seek one's pleasure
to seek one's own self importance instead of other's self importance
the world was wrong
there is no problem with compulsiveness
only when we worry about it, that's the problem
our reaction to it...

It is proggressive
the stimulation gets stronger and stronger to trigger pleasure
as the mind gets used to it and the novelty wear off
we seek stronger more extreme stimulation
louder brighter sharper stronger stimulation just to feel it
that requires more energy to produce
more depression and strong anxiety
however, more capability for stronger trance