AUTISTIC WORLD
NO SENSORY INFORMATION PROCESSING, SENSORY OVERLOAD AND OVERSTIMULATION --- AUTISTIC BEHAVIORS TO SHUT DOWN THE INFORMATION
pierce the bubble, autistic world
AUTISM IS LIKE EXPERIENCE OF FOREIGN STUDENTS, THEY CAN SEE PEOPLE TALKING, THEY UNDERSTAND ENGLISH, THEY CAN RELATE TO THEM, BUT WITH MINIMAL EMOTIONAL CONNECTION, LIKE THERE IS A WALL BETWEEN THEM.
AUTISM HAS STRONG FEAR, OVERDEVELOPED FEAR MIND, STRONG SENSICAL INFORMATION, WEAK VERBAL INFORMATION, THEY REACT COMPULSIVELY TO DEAL WITH OBSESSIVE INFORMATION
STRONG AUTISTIC WORLD DISABLE CONNECTING WITH OTHERS.
HOLLISTICALLY, THERE IS AN OVERDEVELOPMENT OF CERTAIN FUNCTION OF BRAIN, EMOTION, AND UNDERDEVELOPMENT OF THE MENTAL PART OF BRAIN THAT CAUSE VERY SENSITIVE SENSES AND RAW SENSE DATA (NOT INFORMATION) THAT CAUSE OBSESSED FEAR THAT CAUSE COMPULSIVE BEHAVIORS TO SOOTH AND FEAR TO COMMUNICATE AND TO BE SURROUNDED BY BUBBLE. A PERSON WHO HAS AUTISM IS LIKE A PERSON WHO LIVE IN FOREIGN LAND, KNOWS BUT NOT FAMILIAR. HE CAN SEE BUT HE DOESN'T CONNECT.
TO BREAK THE BUBBLE MUST START FROM BUILDING A BRIDGE FROM INSIDE. HIS SOCIAL SKILLS AND SOCIAL COMMUNICATION SKILLS IS DEAD BUT HIS ABILITY TO THINK STILL WORKS AND HE IS ABLE TO COMMUNICATE INFORMATION FROM THIS DEPTH, COMMUNICATION FROM THE MIND.
AUTISM – SENSITIVE INTERNAL EXTERNAL SENSES INPUT OVERLOAD
-- EMOTION OVERLOAD – OUTPUT BEHAVIOR –
SHUT THE INPUT.
BLOCK OUT INPUTY --
TOO MUCH INPUT.
DEAD FAMILIARITY
FAMILIARITY COMES FROM ATTACHMENT. AVERAGE ATTACHMENT IS HEALTHY ATTACHMENT.
INSECURE ATTACHMENT IS OVERATTACHMENT, UNHEALTHY ATTACHMENT
AUTISM - HUMAN WITH ANIMAL'S EMOTION WITH HUMAN MIND.
OVERDEVELOPED EMOTION OR UNDERDEVELOPED MIND
INFANTILE
PICTURE ASSOCIATION MEMORY CAN LEAD TO RIGID BEHAVIOR. MINIMAL VERBAL THOUGHTS. CAN LEAD TO EMOTIONAL HIJACKS. NO SELF CONCEPT, NO OBJECT AND SUBJECT PERMANENCE. EXTRA SENSORY PERCEPTION, LASER FOCUSED PERCEPTION. SIGNAL REACTION NOT SYMBOL REACTION.
IMBALANCE DEVELOPMENT OF EMOTIONAL BRAIN CAN LEAD TO PICTURE ASSOCIATION LIKE WE ARE WHEN WE EXPERIENCE VERY STRONG EMOTION AND IS IN SELF PRESERVATION MODE.
PROBLEMS WITH INPUT PROCESSING DUE TO VERY STRONG INPUT. COMPULSIVE BEHAVIORS IS OUTPUT BEHAVIOR. RIGID BEHAVIOR IS PICTURE ASSOCIATION MEMORY. SIGNAL REACTION.
STRONG FEAR OR NO FAMILIARITY/NOVEL/FOREIGN ENVIRONMEN. NO FAMILIRIATY DOESN'T RECOGNIZE.
PERCEPTION IS MORE THAN SEEING THE WHAT, TAPI JUGA RECOGNIZE THE WHO. RECOGNIZING IDENTITY. AUTISM OR SCZICHO LOSE THE ABILITY TO RECOGNIZE. THEY MAY RECOGNIZE BUT HIJACKED BY EMOTION. THEY RECOGNIZE SIGNS MORE THAN SYMBOLS. THERE IS NO SYMBOLS RECOGNITION.
FOR AUTISM, IT IS A WORLD WITH NO NAME. IT'S JUST OBJECT WITH NO NAME. HIJACKED BY OWN EMOTION AND OUTPUT BEHAVIORS.
OUTPUT BEHAVIORS ARE BOUNDARY MARKER. TO BREAK AUTISM IS TO BREAK OUTPUT BEHAVIORS TO MAKE CONNECTION.
People with autism have emotions, but they are simpler and more like the emotions of a vigilant prey species animal.
For a horse who has previously been fearful of trailers to overcome his fear, the higher brain centers in the cortex have to send a fear suppression signal to the amygdala. This is called a cortical over-ride, which is a signal that will block the fear me mory but does not delete it. If the animal becomes anxious, the old fear memory may pop back up because the cortex stops sending the fear suppression signal.
Fear-based behaviors are complex. Dog trainers have learned that punishing a fear-based behavior makes it worse. When a horse rears, kicks, or misbehaves during training, it may make the trainer feel angry. The trainer may mistakenly think that the horse is angry. But the horse is muc h more likely to be scared. Therefore it is important for trainers to be calm. An angry trainer would be scary to the horse.
Fearfulness is a stable characteristic of personality and temperament in animals. Animals with high-strung, nervous temperaments are generally more fearful and form stronger fear memories than animals with calm, placid temperaments.
It is likely that horses would respond to different training methods in a similar manner. Horses with calm placid dispositions are more likely to habituate to rough methods of handling and training compared to flighty, excitable animals. The high-strung, spirited horse may be ruined by rough training methods because he becomes so fearful that he fails to learn, or habituate.
On the other hand, an animal with a calm, nonreactive nervous system will probably habituate to a series of nonpainful forced training procedures, whereas a flighty, high- strung nervous animal may never habituate. Horses who are constantly swishing thei r tails when there are no flies present and have their heads up are usually fearful horses. In the wild, horses put their heads up to look for danger.
As a creature of flight, how a horse reacts to novel or unusual situations or new places can be used to access his true temperament. French scientist Robert Dantzer found that sudden novelty shoved into an animal's face can be very stressful. A horse with a high-strung, fearful nature may be calm and well-mannered when ridden at home. However, his true temperament has been masked because he feels relaxed and safe in a familiar environment. When he is suddenly confronted with the' new sights and sounds at a horse show he may blow up.
It is the more high-strung and fearful horses who-have the most difficulty in novel situations. At the show there are many unusual sights and sounds, such as balloons and loud public address systems, that are never seen or heard at home. An animal with a nervous temperament is calm when in a familiar environment -- he has learned it is safe -- but is more likely to panic when suddenly confronted with new things.
The paradoxical thing about novelty is that it can be extremely attractive to an animal when he can voluntarily approach it. A piece of paper lying in the pasture may be approached by a curious horse, but that same piece of paper lying on the riding trail may make the horse shy. People working with horses and other animals need to think more about how the animals' perceive the situations we put them in.
we all have our autistic moment when we don;t connect with some novel situation or fearful moment. we regress to our more basic system of self preservation. high strung people experience it more than calm people. calm people is less sensitive. calm temperature autistic is mild autistic??? more sensitive fearful is more sever???
style no substance
Tin, semakin gede anak semakin kecil risknya. You are right, they live in their own world. Seperti living inside their own shell kayak anak ayam yang belum menetas atau live inside a bubble. Sebenarnya kita semua pernah mengalami phase ini saat kita baru lahir. Bayi baru lahir kan belum liat orang belum attachment ke orang. they may see and hear others but they don't care. Phase ini dibilangnya Autistic shell. Kata "Autist" itu sendiri berarti "self", like they only feel themselves.
Kata living in the shell ini juga bisa diapply ke dunia spiritualitas. Anak remaja itu juga hidup di dalam shell yg disebut Narcissistic Shell dimana mereka cuma perduli diri mereka doang. Kita sebenernya masih hidup di dalam narcissistic shell ini seakan2 kita hidup dalam ilusi tentang "self" kita. Buddhism bilang "we are asleep" "kita seperti bermimpi". Enlightenment itu sebenernya narcissistic shell kita pecah. Menarik yah?
Jadi anak autistic itu seperti anak bayi yang baru lahir tetapi bedanya, anak baru lahir inderanya belum jalan sedang anak autis inderanya sudah jalan dan mereka gak ngerti input yg tertangkap oleh indera mereka. Mereka jadi takut sekali dan keluarlah compulsive behaviors to cope with it or to sooth himself.
Kita juga sebenernya mengalami autism saat kita tinggal di foreign country. Waktu gw di US, gw always merasa foreign. Gw bisa ngerti bahasa mereka, gw bisa ngomong ke mereka, tapi somehow gw gak nyambung dengan culture mereka, gak masuk. They don't understand me, i don't understand them. Pernah ngalamin gak lu? Anak autist itu seperti hidup di foreign land walaupun di keluarganya sendiri. They know but not familiar with their family.
Lu tau dejavu kan? Dejavu itu perasaan kayak kita pernah berada di sini, like we are "familiar with the situation, but we don't know"
Lawan katanya itu Ja ma Vu itu "know but not familiar". Org2 autism atau schizophrenia itu mengalami hal ini. Mereka tau istrinya, anaknya, tapi mereka kayak gak kenal.
Mengenai penembak connecticut itu, gw yakin dia itu bekas anak berkebutuhan khusus, spt autism. Mereka bilang dia akademiknya cemerlang, sudah bisa mandiri. Yg bikin dia nembak orang itu emotional factornya dia. Gw gak tau specifically kenapa dia melakukan itu. Tapi, kalau pake logic. Anak yang kebutuhan khusus itu kan punya rasa takut dan frustrasi dalam hidup yang besar. Ditambah rasa malu karna gak punya teman lama2 depresi. Mereka bingung dan gak ngerti kenapa mereka begitu. They will do things to make them feel better, mulai dari narkoba, sex, mencuri, lama2 bunuh diri. Yg dia lakukan itu a solution to a problem.
gw sekalian curhat yah... hehe
Disini yah Tin masih ketinggalan banget cara berpikirnya. Masih banyak percaya tahayul/supernatural. Gw diceritain sama temen ada temennya yg mau cerai karna dia ke psikologis dan pastur trus dibilang dia disantet dan ada yg ikutin, dll. Temen gw ceritain masalah2 tuh orang. Gw bilang ke temen gw, gak usah bawa2 setan aja gw bisa jelasin secara natural kira2 masalah relationship dia. Menurut gw yah Tin, ada 3 cara ngelejasin pengalaman hidup; common sense, natural explaination, dan agama/supernatural explaination. Common sense itu opini kita dari pengalaman hidup. natural explaination itu biasanya science. Ketiga explaination itu ada plus minusnya. Plusnya common sense itu paling accessable, minus nya itu subjective. Plusnya science itu lebih objective dan predictive, tapi minusnya terbatas. Plusnya agama itu ruang lingkupnya luas sekali, minusnya sangat abstract. Gw bukannya anti penjelasan agama, tapi menurut gw kita harus mencoba menjelaskan secara natural dulu sebelum penjelasan supernatural. Dalam dunia medis, kalau kita kena penyakit jasmani, kita cari penjelasan natural/science dulu, ke dokter, makan obat, dll, tapi mengapa kalau kita membicarakan pengalaman rohani, kayak relationship, negative emotion, kita langsung lari ke Tuhan? Gw sering disini cerita sama temen atau orang tuanya temen tentang masalah hidup, misalnya kerjaan, relationship dan mereka langsung jawabnya "minta saja sama Tuhan" trus mereka biasanya cerita pengalaman religious mereka. Buat gw, jawaban itu ngebingungin. falam hati gw gw mikir apa maksudnya minta saja sama Tuhan, trus dikasihnya apa? bukannya gw atheis, tapi gw bener2 gak ngerti. Mungkin mereka bener2 ngalamin pengalaman iman yg luar biasa yg ngerti Tuhan, tapi gw gak ngerti. Gimana mereka ngebedain suara yg mereka denger di pikiran mereka itu suara Tuhan atau imaginasi mereka? Menurut gw yah Tin, kita terlalu meng anthromorphism Tuhan. (anthromorphism itu me manusiakan sesuatu, kayak film disney binatang bisa ngomong kayak manusia). Kita sering denger atau ngomong kayak Tuhan tuh seorang manusia. Kadang2, orang mau gw melakukan sesuatu bawa2 Tuhan bilang "Tuhan mau kamu melakukan itu". Gw dalam hati ngomong yg mau Tuhan apa elu? Org sering ngomong Tuhan tuh kayak mereka kenal bgt, apalagi yg fanatik yah. Kita memang dibuat seperti citra Allah, bukannya kita membuat Allah seperti citra manusia.
Penjelasan spiritual itu penting, to see a big picture. Tapi itu sangat abstrak dan bahaya kalau disalahgunakan. Dan disini agama adalah kedok yang paling populer digunakan dan orang banyak yg tertipu. Disini konseling juga masih belum klinikal, jadi masih religious. Dan mereka kebanyakan pake ayat2 kitab suci dan common sense. Bahkan motivator2 terkenal, gw kadang2 ngedengerin, gw mau tau mereka ngomongin apa. Kebanyakan pake common sense dan sambil lempar kata "Tuhan" sekali sekali. Gw aja gak ngerti apa yg sebenernya mereka omongin. Mereka itu hanya "dr. feelgood" dimana mereka lompat2 teriak2 bikin orang senang di seminar mereka, tapi gak begitu berisi.
I think there are two problems that cause most problems in this world, ignorance and denial. Ignorance adalah ketidak tahuan. Kita pada dasarnya tidak mengerti tentang hidup kita, tentang manusia, tentang penyakit makanya kita takut dan pada saat kita takut kita marah. ignorance juga ketidaksadaran. Seperti anak yang autis tidak sadar tentang reality dan hidup di pikiran mereka, kita pun seakan2 hidup di dalam pikiran kita dan tidak mengerti bahwa pikiran kita yg menciptakan persepsi kita tentang dunia dan persepsi kita itulah yg kita sebut dunia. It's like living in a bubble. Denial adalah ignorance dalam dunia sosial, yg ada hubungannya dengan orang lain. Animals are ignorant but they don't do denial. Denial adalah hiding part of our self that is not accepted in public behind a more accepted mask or image. After a while, we forget that we are hiding something and we adopt the mask as who we are. We create a world around this mask. This is our narcissistic shell.
DEAD FAMILIARITY
FAMILIARITY COMES FROM ATTACHMENT. AVERAGE ATTACHMENT IS HEALTHY ATTACHMENT.
INSECURE ATTACHMENT IS OVERATTACHMENT, UNHEALTHY ATTACHMENT
AUTISM - HUMAN WITH ANIMAL'S EMOTION WITH HUMAN MIND.
OVERDEVELOPED EMOTION OR UNDERDEVELOPED MIND
INFANTILE
PICTURE ASSOCIATION MEMORY CAN LEAD TO RIGID BEHAVIOR. MINIMAL VERBAL THOUGHTS. CAN LEAD TO EMOTIONAL HIJACKS. NO SELF CONCEPT, NO OBJECT AND SUBJECT PERMANENCE. EXTRA SENSORY PERCEPTION, LASER FOCUSED PERCEPTION. SIGNAL REACTION NOT SYMBOL REACTION.
IMBALANCE DEVELOPMENT OF EMOTIONAL BRAIN CAN LEAD TO PICTURE ASSOCIATION LIKE WE ARE WHEN WE EXPERIENCE VERY STRONG EMOTION AND IS IN SELF PRESERVATION MODE.
PROBLEMS WITH INPUT PROCESSING DUE TO VERY STRONG INPUT. COMPULSIVE BEHAVIORS IS OUTPUT BEHAVIOR. RIGID BEHAVIOR IS PICTURE ASSOCIATION MEMORY. SIGNAL REACTION.
STRONG FEAR OR NO FAMILIARITY/NOVEL/FOREIGN ENVIRONMEN. NO FAMILIRIATY DOESN'T RECOGNIZE.
PERCEPTION IS MORE THAN SEEING THE WHAT, TAPI JUGA RECOGNIZE THE WHO. RECOGNIZING IDENTITY. AUTISM OR SCZICHO LOSE THE ABILITY TO RECOGNIZE. THEY MAY RECOGNIZE BUT HIJACKED BY EMOTION. THEY RECOGNIZE SIGNS MORE THAN SYMBOLS. THERE IS NO SYMBOLS RECOGNITION.
FOR AUTISM, IT IS A WORLD WITH NO NAME. IT'S JUST OBJECT WITH NO NAME. HIJACKED BY OWN EMOTION AND OUTPUT BEHAVIORS.
OUTPUT BEHAVIORS ARE BOUNDARY MARKER. TO BREAK AUTISM IS TO BREAK OUTPUT BEHAVIORS TO MAKE CONNECTION.
People with autism have emotions, but they are simpler and more like the emotions of a vigilant prey species animal.
For a horse who has previously been fearful of trailers to overcome his fear, the higher brain centers in the cortex have to send a fear suppression signal to the amygdala. This is called a cortical over-ride, which is a signal that will block the fear me mory but does not delete it. If the animal becomes anxious, the old fear memory may pop back up because the cortex stops sending the fear suppression signal.
Fear-based behaviors are complex. Dog trainers have learned that punishing a fear-based behavior makes it worse. When a horse rears, kicks, or misbehaves during training, it may make the trainer feel angry. The trainer may mistakenly think that the horse is angry. But the horse is muc h more likely to be scared. Therefore it is important for trainers to be calm. An angry trainer would be scary to the horse.
Fearfulness is a stable characteristic of personality and temperament in animals. Animals with high-strung, nervous temperaments are generally more fearful and form stronger fear memories than animals with calm, placid temperaments.
It is likely that horses would respond to different training methods in a similar manner. Horses with calm placid dispositions are more likely to habituate to rough methods of handling and training compared to flighty, excitable animals. The high-strung, spirited horse may be ruined by rough training methods because he becomes so fearful that he fails to learn, or habituate.
On the other hand, an animal with a calm, nonreactive nervous system will probably habituate to a series of nonpainful forced training procedures, whereas a flighty, high- strung nervous animal may never habituate. Horses who are constantly swishing thei r tails when there are no flies present and have their heads up are usually fearful horses. In the wild, horses put their heads up to look for danger.
As a creature of flight, how a horse reacts to novel or unusual situations or new places can be used to access his true temperament. French scientist Robert Dantzer found that sudden novelty shoved into an animal's face can be very stressful. A horse with a high-strung, fearful nature may be calm and well-mannered when ridden at home. However, his true temperament has been masked because he feels relaxed and safe in a familiar environment. When he is suddenly confronted with the' new sights and sounds at a horse show he may blow up.
It is the more high-strung and fearful horses who-have the most difficulty in novel situations. At the show there are many unusual sights and sounds, such as balloons and loud public address systems, that are never seen or heard at home. An animal with a nervous temperament is calm when in a familiar environment -- he has learned it is safe -- but is more likely to panic when suddenly confronted with new things.
The paradoxical thing about novelty is that it can be extremely attractive to an animal when he can voluntarily approach it. A piece of paper lying in the pasture may be approached by a curious horse, but that same piece of paper lying on the riding trail may make the horse shy. People working with horses and other animals need to think more about how the animals' perceive the situations we put them in.
we all have our autistic moment when we don;t connect with some novel situation or fearful moment. we regress to our more basic system of self preservation. high strung people experience it more than calm people. calm people is less sensitive. calm temperature autistic is mild autistic??? more sensitive fearful is more sever???
style no substance
Tin, semakin gede anak semakin kecil risknya. You are right, they live in their own world. Seperti living inside their own shell kayak anak ayam yang belum menetas atau live inside a bubble. Sebenarnya kita semua pernah mengalami phase ini saat kita baru lahir. Bayi baru lahir kan belum liat orang belum attachment ke orang. they may see and hear others but they don't care. Phase ini dibilangnya Autistic shell. Kata "Autist" itu sendiri berarti "self", like they only feel themselves.
Kata living in the shell ini juga bisa diapply ke dunia spiritualitas. Anak remaja itu juga hidup di dalam shell yg disebut Narcissistic Shell dimana mereka cuma perduli diri mereka doang. Kita sebenernya masih hidup di dalam narcissistic shell ini seakan2 kita hidup dalam ilusi tentang "self" kita. Buddhism bilang "we are asleep" "kita seperti bermimpi". Enlightenment itu sebenernya narcissistic shell kita pecah. Menarik yah?
Jadi anak autistic itu seperti anak bayi yang baru lahir tetapi bedanya, anak baru lahir inderanya belum jalan sedang anak autis inderanya sudah jalan dan mereka gak ngerti input yg tertangkap oleh indera mereka. Mereka jadi takut sekali dan keluarlah compulsive behaviors to cope with it or to sooth himself.
Kita juga sebenernya mengalami autism saat kita tinggal di foreign country. Waktu gw di US, gw always merasa foreign. Gw bisa ngerti bahasa mereka, gw bisa ngomong ke mereka, tapi somehow gw gak nyambung dengan culture mereka, gak masuk. They don't understand me, i don't understand them. Pernah ngalamin gak lu? Anak autist itu seperti hidup di foreign land walaupun di keluarganya sendiri. They know but not familiar with their family.
Lu tau dejavu kan? Dejavu itu perasaan kayak kita pernah berada di sini, like we are "familiar with the situation, but we don't know"
Lawan katanya itu Ja ma Vu itu "know but not familiar". Org2 autism atau schizophrenia itu mengalami hal ini. Mereka tau istrinya, anaknya, tapi mereka kayak gak kenal.
Mengenai penembak connecticut itu, gw yakin dia itu bekas anak berkebutuhan khusus, spt autism. Mereka bilang dia akademiknya cemerlang, sudah bisa mandiri. Yg bikin dia nembak orang itu emotional factornya dia. Gw gak tau specifically kenapa dia melakukan itu. Tapi, kalau pake logic. Anak yang kebutuhan khusus itu kan punya rasa takut dan frustrasi dalam hidup yang besar. Ditambah rasa malu karna gak punya teman lama2 depresi. Mereka bingung dan gak ngerti kenapa mereka begitu. They will do things to make them feel better, mulai dari narkoba, sex, mencuri, lama2 bunuh diri. Yg dia lakukan itu a solution to a problem.
gw sekalian curhat yah... hehe
Disini yah Tin masih ketinggalan banget cara berpikirnya. Masih banyak percaya tahayul/supernatural. Gw diceritain sama temen ada temennya yg mau cerai karna dia ke psikologis dan pastur trus dibilang dia disantet dan ada yg ikutin, dll. Temen gw ceritain masalah2 tuh orang. Gw bilang ke temen gw, gak usah bawa2 setan aja gw bisa jelasin secara natural kira2 masalah relationship dia. Menurut gw yah Tin, ada 3 cara ngelejasin pengalaman hidup; common sense, natural explaination, dan agama/supernatural explaination. Common sense itu opini kita dari pengalaman hidup. natural explaination itu biasanya science. Ketiga explaination itu ada plus minusnya. Plusnya common sense itu paling accessable, minus nya itu subjective. Plusnya science itu lebih objective dan predictive, tapi minusnya terbatas. Plusnya agama itu ruang lingkupnya luas sekali, minusnya sangat abstract. Gw bukannya anti penjelasan agama, tapi menurut gw kita harus mencoba menjelaskan secara natural dulu sebelum penjelasan supernatural. Dalam dunia medis, kalau kita kena penyakit jasmani, kita cari penjelasan natural/science dulu, ke dokter, makan obat, dll, tapi mengapa kalau kita membicarakan pengalaman rohani, kayak relationship, negative emotion, kita langsung lari ke Tuhan? Gw sering disini cerita sama temen atau orang tuanya temen tentang masalah hidup, misalnya kerjaan, relationship dan mereka langsung jawabnya "minta saja sama Tuhan" trus mereka biasanya cerita pengalaman religious mereka. Buat gw, jawaban itu ngebingungin. falam hati gw gw mikir apa maksudnya minta saja sama Tuhan, trus dikasihnya apa? bukannya gw atheis, tapi gw bener2 gak ngerti. Mungkin mereka bener2 ngalamin pengalaman iman yg luar biasa yg ngerti Tuhan, tapi gw gak ngerti. Gimana mereka ngebedain suara yg mereka denger di pikiran mereka itu suara Tuhan atau imaginasi mereka? Menurut gw yah Tin, kita terlalu meng anthromorphism Tuhan. (anthromorphism itu me manusiakan sesuatu, kayak film disney binatang bisa ngomong kayak manusia). Kita sering denger atau ngomong kayak Tuhan tuh seorang manusia. Kadang2, orang mau gw melakukan sesuatu bawa2 Tuhan bilang "Tuhan mau kamu melakukan itu". Gw dalam hati ngomong yg mau Tuhan apa elu? Org sering ngomong Tuhan tuh kayak mereka kenal bgt, apalagi yg fanatik yah. Kita memang dibuat seperti citra Allah, bukannya kita membuat Allah seperti citra manusia.
Penjelasan spiritual itu penting, to see a big picture. Tapi itu sangat abstrak dan bahaya kalau disalahgunakan. Dan disini agama adalah kedok yang paling populer digunakan dan orang banyak yg tertipu. Disini konseling juga masih belum klinikal, jadi masih religious. Dan mereka kebanyakan pake ayat2 kitab suci dan common sense. Bahkan motivator2 terkenal, gw kadang2 ngedengerin, gw mau tau mereka ngomongin apa. Kebanyakan pake common sense dan sambil lempar kata "Tuhan" sekali sekali. Gw aja gak ngerti apa yg sebenernya mereka omongin. Mereka itu hanya "dr. feelgood" dimana mereka lompat2 teriak2 bikin orang senang di seminar mereka, tapi gak begitu berisi.
I think there are two problems that cause most problems in this world, ignorance and denial. Ignorance adalah ketidak tahuan. Kita pada dasarnya tidak mengerti tentang hidup kita, tentang manusia, tentang penyakit makanya kita takut dan pada saat kita takut kita marah. ignorance juga ketidaksadaran. Seperti anak yang autis tidak sadar tentang reality dan hidup di pikiran mereka, kita pun seakan2 hidup di dalam pikiran kita dan tidak mengerti bahwa pikiran kita yg menciptakan persepsi kita tentang dunia dan persepsi kita itulah yg kita sebut dunia. It's like living in a bubble. Denial adalah ignorance dalam dunia sosial, yg ada hubungannya dengan orang lain. Animals are ignorant but they don't do denial. Denial adalah hiding part of our self that is not accepted in public behind a more accepted mask or image. After a while, we forget that we are hiding something and we adopt the mask as who we are. We create a world around this mask. This is our narcissistic shell.
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