Matrix world

Our world is made up of time and space dimension
then there are objects that have quality, and relationship between objects
with its classification and level of abstraction
objects that have physical and psychological self (thought, feeling, behavior)
that live with culture and part of group.
infrastructure and system
rules and boundary

Time and Change

There are 5 steps of change:
PRECONTEMPLATION, CONTEMPLATION, PLAN, CHANGE, AND MAINTAINANCE

THERE IS NATURAL AND NURTURAL CHANGE. NATURAL CHANGE IS CHANGE THAT HAPPENS WITHOUT OUR CONSCIOUS WILL. NURTURAL CHANGE IS CHANGE THAT HAPPENS FROM OUR WILL OR OTHERS' WILL. IT IS SAID THAT WE FEAR CHANGE. MANY DIFFICULTY AND THE FEAR IN LIFE IS CAUSED BY OUR RESISTANCE TO THE NATURAL CHANGE, ESPECIALLY THE MAINTAINANCE OF THE CHANGE. OR , CONFUSING MAINTAINANCE AND THE CHANGE STAGE IN THE NURTURAL CHANGE, LIKE GETTING INTO RELATIONSHIP, MARRIAGE, OR RELIGIONS. WE CONFUSE GETTING BAPTIZED, WEDDING, GETTING INTO INTIMATE RELATIONSHIP WITH THE RELATIONSHIP ITSELF. NURTURAL CHANGE BY OTHERS' WILL AND NATURAL CHANGE ARE MORE DIFFICULT THAN OWN WILL'S NURTURAL CHANGE.

THERE ARE 5 CULTURAL IDENTITY INTEGRATION. ANOTHER DIFFICULT PART OF CHANGE IS CULTURAL CHANGE. GETTING INTO RELATIONSHIP OR CHANGE OF STATUS IN RELATIONSHIP OR ENTERING INTO ORGANIZATION LIKE MARRIAGE CAN BE EXPLAINED BY THE CULTURAL IDENTITY DEVELOPMENT MODEL. HOW WE MERGE OUR INDIVIDUAL CULTURE WITH THE NEW CULTURE AND TRYING TO MAINTAIN OUR INDIVIDUAL CULTURE BEFORE WE CAN ACCEPT OUR INDIVIDUAL AND OUR NEW CULTURE. THIS CULTURAL IDENTITY INTEGRATION PROCESS IS ALSO AN INDIVIDUATION PROCESS THAT WE GO THROUGH IN OUR LIFE.

Sue & Sue’s Racial/Cultural Identity Development Model

Conformity Stage	In the conformity stage individuals exhibit a preference for the dominant cultural values over their own cultural values.  During this stage, individuals identify with the dominant group and use them as their primary reference group.  They tend to downplay and feel negatively about their own cultural group with low salience as part of their identity.
Dissonance Stage	The dissonance stage is marked by an encounter or experience that is inconsistent with culturally held beliefs, attitudes and values from the conformity stage.  For instance, a minority individual who is ashamed of their own cultural heritage will encounter someone from their cultural group who is proud of his or her heritage.  In this stage, denial begins to occur and there is a questioning of one’s beliefs and attitudes held in the conformity stage.  For example, the assassination of Martin Luther King, Jr. caused many African Americans to move rapidly from a passive conformity stage to a dissonance stage.
Resistance and Immersion Stage	In the resistance and immersion stage, a minority person is likely to feel anger, guilt and shame at the oppression and racism that they previously put up with.  This stage is marked by an endorsement of minority-held views and a rejection of the dominant values of society and culture.
Introspection Stage	During the introspection stage, the individual devotes more energy toward understanding themselves as part of a minority group and what that means at a deeper level.  In contrast to the intense reactivity against dominant culture in the resistance and immersion stage, the introspection stage is more ‘pro-active’ in defining and discovering the sense of self.
Integrative Awareness Stage	The integrative awareness stage includes a sense of security and the ability to appreciate positive aspects of both their own culture and the dominant culture. Individuals in this stage have resolved conflicts experienced in earlier stages and have more of a sense of control and flexibility with the ability to recognize the pros and cons of both cultural groups while still trying to eliminate all forms of oppression.

12-31-2012

It is raining softly outside on this morning of the last day of the year
Home alone with this cool breeze on this silent morning
actually the world did end and I started a new life
it is indeed the year of the Dragon.

A soft traditional music played in the backgroup from surrounding kampoong
a prayer is heard from the loudspeaker from the nearby mosque
the world is not good or bad, they are not evil or good.
it's how I feel about them.

What is the world but what I think and feel about
the cognitive and affective connotative symbols that I react to
It is not to question life without living, but to live without the questions
life goes on, but I am trapped in this puzzle
and neglect the life itself
it is quite ironic like a person who is busy redesigning his garden but never enjoying it.
I am like a person who live in his dreamworld
or a dreamer who live in real world
What is a dream and what is real?
If I wake up from a dream, do I wake up to reality?
How do I know that it's not the opposite that the dream is the reality and when I wake up i go into my dream?
What do we do when we sleep?
So many questions...

Name and Identity

Extentional world is a physical world that we live in
however, the reality of this world is different than what we perceive
for perception is what our mind interpret what we sense externally and internally
perception is language and visually based
the language based perception is the world of absent and abstract objects and environment
we feel something is real but what do I feel is interpretation
visual based perception is different than the reality of the object or environment
visual based perception requires present and concrete objects and environment in front of us
Visual perception is created more by visual memory.
a fast moving pictures create a video
visual perception is a video
we have memory for all senses, including the feeling senses that can create trauma
however, all senses other than the visual must have visual interpretation
this visual interpretation is what we call mind.
then, we add the language based perception.
language based perception is different than pure imagination
perception is always about present object and environment
however, language based perception is the information about absent and abstract objects and environment that we add to the visual perception
for example, relationship, system, structure, psychological structure, and self of visual objects. But, for objects that we hear, taste, sense, and touch, we have to create the object itself in interpreting the sensation.
This is how we create meaning. It may be real that I am in a building and it is bright outside. Visual interpretation create a structure of the building and interpret the brightness and adding the language "I am in my house this morning" I give it a NAME.

pure imagination is not perception. it doesn't have present objects and environment. What is environment but our interpretation of objects and space.
it is 100% language based story made into a movie. Where a perception is like a video with an interpretation.

Perception and imagination are uniquely human. They are processed information. With this they create human community and living that separate itself from nature. We call it human made environment. Human is the only creature that don't shelter, eat, drink from nature. We don't digest those raw material. We eat and drink processed dish, ex. has been cooked. We live in a designed house and city with its road and transportation system. We create technology to fly, swim, and extend our muscle and senses. Our educational period takes much longer than animals.

With knowledge, we separate itself from nature. This is our verbal world that create a world of its own. "Give name to all creatures you see" said the Lord to Adam.

Sadly, we confuse between pure imagination and perception and reality. Not knowing the difference, we believe absolutely that our imagination and perception is reality. We think we already know and stop searching for the truth.  We make many decisions based on this "world" that is neither natural nor true.

The greatest confusion is our perception and imagination about our selves. I am different than who I think I am. Who I think I am is a name and identity I give myself, family identity, social identity, career identity, religious identity, basically any group membership that I belong to. I also give my self a psychological and physical identity, such as a nice person, an aggressive person or any other psychological profile. All of these identities are group membership with the meaning defined by the group. The clearest example is the interpretation of thinness and beauty in the society. The society gives value to this physical appearance and we just believe it. Commercial marketing fully understand this concept. They call it value added service. This is what branding is. They don't see the product anymore, they sell the brand. We do this on personal level too. We polish our self physically and thru our action and we try to improve our name/brand.

My identity is pure imagination. I am a person is a language based perception, but all additional information is pure imagination, our membership to abstract social groups. We even derive our sense of esteem from membership to these groups, either positive (prestigious careers or schools or family name) or negative (race, gender, health, etc). This gives birth to prejudice and stigma.

A literal person such as myself fall easily to this trap of imagination and language based perception. As an unsponsored philosopher who think just for fun, I sometimes confuse the difference between the I that I think about and the real I. Thinking is an activity like writing, reading, drawing, painting, singing, listening to music, playing sports, shopping, driving, etc. With thinking, however, we think that "I am this person who is in this place, etc" forgetting that they all are thoughts. We forget that we are thinking. We try to maintain this fake environment because we think that it is real and thus, we can't keep still. I always have this "splinter in my mind" that always make me thinking. The I that I think about is not the real I. A recovering drug addicts experience this struggle explicitly by thinking that they can quit smoking or drinking means that they can. They confuse between "I want to" with "I can". There are two I, the good one and the bad one. Sadly, they are nothing but positive and negative critic we tell our selves.

What is life other than activities? We think about the next activity at the same time as we are performing an activity. And, we perform the next activity, we think about the next next activity. Like Lennon advice to his boy "life is what happens to you while you busy making other plans" how deep...

We identify with our activities with the group associated with the activities, with the reward for belonging to those groups. An extreme examples are extreme religious cults and socialites. This is nothing but branding.

Self consciousness is our highest intelligence but it is also our downfall. Self consciousness is the enemy of spontaneity. It is the mark of incompetence or traumatic experience. it is the first step of learning. Self consciousness is the rehearsal of self in the unknown environment or challenged environment. We can't live without it but we wish we can live without it. This is what people lose when they drink. Self consciousness is our awareness of others/empathy. We ask ourselves a question before self consciousness "what does other think about me?". That's why it is more appropriate to call it public self consciousness. This is what hinders public speaking or confidence. A person who is beautiful is different than a person who knows that she is beautiful. "don't let your right hand know what your left hand is doing" Positive self consciousness is narcissistic thinking. A person who think that he is beautiful. To tamper it, it is wise to balance it out. We are not as good as what we think we are, we are not as bad what we think we are. There are always those who are better than me, and there are always those that are worse than me.

In spite of all the problems, our mind is nature's greatest creation. Not the mental logic and symbol/language mind, but our self consciousness. We are like God but on a small scale with our ability to create and progress. Our mind gives us a better chance to survive, decrease factors that can harm us and increase factors that can give better quality of life. However, our mind is nurturally conditioned. We are what we have been programmed to do. A robot can BE USED in factory setting or it can BE USED to kill depends on the program.

Body is nature but mind is nurture. PHYSICAL IS NATURE BUT PSYCHOLOGICAL IS NURTURE.

software for the mind

WE CONTROL ROBOTS BEHAVIOR WITH PROGRAMS
CONSCIOUSNESS IS A BEHAVIORAL PROGRAM CREATED BY OUR SOCIETY/CULTURE
WE ARE LIKE FISHES IN AN AQUARIUM, IMPRISONED BY THE GLASS, BUT ARE GUARANTEED TO BE SAFE AND WELL FED.

WE CAN SEE THIS SOCIAL PROGRAMS IN THE CULT OR SOCIALIST COMMUNITY, WHERE THE PROGRAMS RIGIDLY REGULATE THE PEOPLE'S BEHAVIOR WITH SLOGAN AND BELIEF.
WE ARE UNCONSCIOUSLY ARE PROGRAMED TO FOLLOW OTHERS AND WILL BE GIVEN SOCIAL REWARDS OR BAITS.
TRYING TO BREAK FREE IS LIKE TRYING TO BREAK FREE OUR ATMOSPHERE. OUR ATMOSPHERE SUPPORTS LIFE HERE ON EARTH AND IT IS A PHYSICAL CONSEQUENCE THAT HAVE A STRONG BOUNDARY WITH THE OUTER SPACE. A SPACE SHUTTLE MUST ACCELERATE VERY FAST AND AT CERTAIN ANGLE TO ESCAPE THE ATMOSPHERE OR IT WILL BOUNCE BACK IN. THE SAME THING WITH A SHUTTLE COMING IN FROM OUTER SPACE, IT MUST BE AT CERTAIN SPEED AND ANGLE OR IT WILL BOUNCE BACK OUT.

CONSCIOUSNESS ALLOWS PEOPLE TO CREATE COMMUNITY AND USE THE COMMUNITY TO CREATE OR DESTROY. IF WE ARE NOT AWARE, WE ARE CREATED TO BE ROBOTS. IGNORANT PEOPLE ARE AFRAID OF SMART AND FREE PEOPLE. WE ARE SOCIALLY AND CULTURALLY CONDITIONED TO BE SLAVED, UNHAPPY WHO NEEDS AND BUY THE DRUGS TO BE HAPPY. HAPPINESS AND UNHAPPINESS IS A PROGRAM.

GREED

ANIMALS AS FAR AS WE KNOW DOESN'T HAVE CONSCIOUSNESS
WE TEACH INFANTS TO GROW CONSCIOUSNESS TO BE UNDER CONTROL BUT AT THE SAME TIME IS DANGEROUS WITH THE ABILITY TO THINK FOR ITSELF.
THERE IS NATURAL PROCESS OF BALANCING EMOTION AND CONSCIOUSNESS, LIKE TRANSFORMATION OF A BUTTERFLY.
AN ANIMAL WHO IS ENGINEERED TO HAVE CONSCIOUSNESS IS DANGEROUS WITH ITS GREAT EMOTION PLUS THE ABILITY TO THINK.

A ROBOT THAT HAS NO CONSCIOUSNESS JUST LIKE ANYTHING IN UNIVERSE, JUST REACT AND FOLLOW COMMAND.
HOWEVER, AN AI THAT HAS EMOTION CAN BE CONTROLLED WITH LANGUAGE, BUT AT THE SAME TIME, BECOMES GOD.

HUMAN HAS DESIRE TO BE GOD BY DEVELOPING CONSCIOUSNESS, BY EATING THE FRUIT OF KNOWLEDGE.
HUMAN IS LIKE GOD WITH THE ABILITY TO CREATE WITH ITS CONSCIOUSNESS
HOWEVER, CONSCIOUSNESS ALSO CHAIN A PERSON UNDER THE CONTROL OF ITS SOCIAL SYSTEM

GOD IS ONE PHYSICAL ENTITY THAT SPAWN ON ALL MATTERS.

CONSCIOUSNESS IS THE SOFTWARE OF LIFE, CONSCIOUSNESS IS SOCIAL TOOL TO RUN A SOCIAL PROGRAM. IT'S DIFFERENT THAN THE MENTAL MIND THAT CALCULATE AND USE LOGIC. CONSCIOUSNESS AND EMOTION IS MUCH OLDER THAN THE MENTAL MIND. SOCIALLY INTELLIGENT CONSCIOUSNESS IS DIFFERENT THAN ACADEMIC INTELLIGENCE.

CONSCIOUSNESS CORELATE WITH SOCIAL EMOTION, SUCH AS GUILT, SHAME, SHYNESS, AND GREED. CONSCIOUSNESS IS A NEURAL SIMULATION OF ELECTRONIC ACTIVITY INTERPRETED BY OUR BRAIN. CONSCIOUSNESS CREATE ITS OWN VERSION OF REALITY THAT IS OUT OF TOUCH WITH NATURE VERSION OF REALITY.

CONSCIOUSNESS CREATE PERMANENT AND SELF OBJECTS IN ITS SIMULATION AND SUFFERING IS THE RESULT.

OUR DEVIATION OR DISTORTION OF NATURE IS OUR SIN. AND THIS IS THE CAUSE OF SUFFERING.

CONSCIOUSNESS IS THE MATRIX. THE TOP DOWN WORLD WE CREATE FROM OUR SOCIAL AND CULTURAL CONDITIONING. THIS IS WHAT WE CALL REAL. THIS IS THE WORLD OF PERCEPTION AND CONSCIOUSNESS (EXTERNAL AND INTERNAL WORLD)

ENVIRONMENT - PERCEPTION - CONSCIOUSNESS (DIGITAL REACTION TO PERCEPTION/INTERNAL WORLD) - EMOTION - BODY

ENVIRONMENT - EMOTION - BODY

IN PERCEPTION, WE CREATE EXTERNAL ENVIRONMENT. WITH CONSCIOUSNESS, WE PLACE OURSELVES IN THE PERCEIVED ENVIRONMENT WHERE WE INTERPRET OUR FEELING AND REHEARSE OUR ACTION, REHEARSE THE FEEDBACK/CONSEQUENCE/GOAL. OUR BEHAVIOR ARE CONSEQUENCE/GOAL ORIENTED, ESPECIALLY SOCIAL CONSEQUENCE/GOAL/FEEDBACK. IT IS ONE OF THE STRONGEST MOTIVATOR. THIS SOCIAL CONSEQUENCE IS THE ONE PUT US UNDER SOCIAL CONTROL.

THE WAY TO DECEIVE THIS SOCIAL CONSEQUENCE IS TO CHEAT. SUCCESSFUL CHEATING REINFORCE GREED TO BE ABLE TO DO WHATEVER WE WANT WITHOUT GETTING CAUGHT.

CONSCIOUSNESS ENABLE US TO COREOGRAPH OUR ACTION TO STANDARD ACCEPTABLE SOCIAL ACTIONS TO FIT IN WITH OTHERS THUS CREATING COMMUNITY. IN OTHER WORDS, CONSCIOUSNESS CIVILIZE OR TAME US.

BUT AT THE SAME TIME, CONSCIOUSNESS MAKE US GOD-LIKE WITH THE ABILITY TO CREATE AND DESTROY. UNIVERSE CAN DESTROY US BUT WE CAN'T DESTROY THE UNIVERSE.

MATURE AND FREE CONSCIOUSNESS CAN MAKE US GOD LIKE AND CO CREATE WITH NATURE AND TENDING GOD'S GARDEN BUT IMMATURE CONSCIOUSNESS CAN MAKE US SUFFER AND DESTROY THE UNIVERSE.

BUT, SUFFERING ENLIGHTENMENT CREATING DESTROYING ARE PARTS OF THE DANCE BECAUSE A THING CANNOT DESTROY ITSELF LIKE A KNIFE CAN NOT CUT ITSELF OR A TOOTH TO BITE ITSELF.

MATRIX

LIKE A SPLINTER IN YOUR MIND

IT IS THE WORLD THAT HAS BEEN PULLED OVER YOUR EYES TO BLIND YOU FROM THE TRUTH THAT YOU ARE A SLAVE WERE BORN INTO BONDAGE, INTO A PRISON FOR YOUR MIND.

NO ONE CAN BE TOLD ABOUT IT, YOU HAVE TO SEE IT FOR YOURSELF.

DREAM SO REAL? THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN DREAM AND REAL IF YOU NEVER AWAKE.

RESIDUAL SELF IMAGE - A PROJECTION OF MENTAL DIGITAL SELF

WHAT IS REAL? WHAT YOU SENSE IS ELECTRICAL SIGNAL INTERPRETED BY YOUR BRAIN.

REAL IS NEURAL INTERACTIVE SIMULATION.

A SINGULAR CONSCIOUSNESS THAT SPAWN AN ENTIRE RACE OF MACHINES.

MATRIX IS A COMPUTER GENERATED DREAM WORLD TO KEEP US UNDER CONTROL AND TURN A HUMAN BEING INTO A BATTERY.

SYSTEM IS OUR ENEMY. THESE PEOPLE STILL PART OF THE SYSTEM. THE VERY MIND WE AR TRYING TO SAVE. IT'S THE SYSTEM. SYSTEM DEPENDENT. THEY WILL FIGHT TO PROTECT IT. MOVE IN OUT OF ANY SOFTWARE STILL HARDWIRED TO THE HARDWARE.

STRENGTH AND SPEED ARE STILL BASED ON THE WORLD THAT IS BASED ON RULES.

MACHINE DOESN'T KNOW WHAT FOOD TASTE LIKE

COMPUTER PROGRAM, NO OUTPUT.

DONT TRY TO THINK ABOUT THE SPOON. JUST THINK ABOUT THE TRUTH THAT THERE IS NO SPOON.

A WORLD WITHOUT TULES AND CONTROLS, BORDERS AND BOUNDARIES, WHERE ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE.

PSYCHOLOGICAL FACTORS

A PLAYER IS INJURED WHILE PLAYING A GAME OF BASKETBALL. AFTER THE INJURY, EVEN THOUGH HE CAN STILL PLAY THE GAME, HE CAN;T MOVE HIS BODY WELL. HE SAID "IT'S A PSYCHOLOGICAL FACTOR".
IT IS OUR CONSCIOUSNESS OF FEAR. PROFESSIONAL TENNIS PLAYERS SPEND MONTHS IN WORKING WITH THEIR PSYCHOLOGICAL FACTORS AFTER INJURY TO BE ABLE TO PLAY NORMAL AGAIN. INJURY IS OUR PHYSICAL TRAUMA.

WE ALSO EXPERIENCE PSYCHOLOGICAL FACTOR AFTER PSYCHOLOGICAL INJURY. WE CALL IT PSYCHOLOGICAL TRAUMA.

WE EXPERIENCE FEAR AND SELF CONSCIOUSNESS DURING THIS TRAUMA.

CONSCIOUSNESS IS OUR VERBAL WORLD, OUR VISIO AUDIO PERCEPTION NARCISSISTIC WORLD. AUTISM IS TRAPPED IN EMOTIONAL WORLD.

CONSCIOUSNESS IS OUR CREATION OF AN ABSTRACT SYSTEM/STRUCTURE/RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN CONCRETE THINGS WHERE THE IDEA IS THE THINGS. WE EVEN USE IT TO VISUALIZE PSYCHOLOGICAL STRUCTURE OF A SELF. IT'S A CREATION OF SYMBOLIC COMMUNITY TO ENABLE TO COOPERATE AND BE SOCIAL. HOWEVER, WE GET TRAPPED IN A SOCIAL SHELL.

DUE TO OUR TUNING IN TO OUR OWN ARTIFICIAL SOCIAL WORLD, WE LOSE TOUCH WITH THE EARTH. DUE TO INTRANET CONNECTION, WE LOSE THE INTERNET CONNECTION.

MENTAL CONSCIOUSNESS IS SURVIVAL TOOL

Reflection 2

THE MAIN QUESTION IS MORE THAN IS UNIVERSE INTELLIGENT? I HIT A WALL TO GO BEYOND THIS QUESTION. THIS IS A WALL OF CONSCIOUSNESS. I AM TRAPPED IN ILLUSION OF CONSCIOUSNESS. WHAT I WANT TO KNOW IS THAT IS UNIVERSE CONSCIOUS? IS UNIVERSE A SELF? INTELLIGENCE, RANDOM, PURPOSE, ORDER, DESIGN, LOGIC, OBJECT, SPACE, TIME ARE LANGUAGE OF CONSCIOUSNESS. I AM TRAPPED IN THE CONSCIOUSNESS OF SELF-OBJECTS. I EVEN TURN GOD INTO SELF-OBJECTS. I TURN MATTER INTO SELF-MATTER. A SELF THAT HAS CONSCIOUSNESS. AS FAR AS I KNOW, HUMAN IS THE ONLY THING THAT HAS CONSCIOUSNESS. EMOTIONAL MENTAL SOCIAL AND SPIRITUAL DIMENSION IS NON PHYSICAL, IT IS CONSCIOUSNESS. LOGIC LANGUAGE MEMORY IMAGINATION SOCIAL AND SPIRITUAL SIMULATION. THIS SPIRITUAL SIMULATION IS WHAT WE SOMETIMES CALL RELIGION.

THIS IS ONE OF THE CHARACTERISTIC OF UNIVERSE: NO CONSCIOUSNESS, NO SELF, IMPERMANENCE, SUFFERING. It is an occasion for suffering and not a cause of suffering because impermanence is only an occasion for suffering so long as ignorance, craving and clinging are present.AS LONG AS BELIEF IN SELF AND PERMANENCE ARE PRESENT.

THIS WALL IS THE WALL OF CONSCIOUSNESS. CONSCIOUSNESS IS OUR TOWER OF BABEL, IT'S WHAT ADAM GOT AFTER EATING FRUIT OF KNOWLEDGE. THE LOST OF CONNECTION WITH GOD. THIS IS OUR NARCISSISTIC SHELL. ENLIGHTENMENT IS SEEING BEYOND THE CONSCIOUSNESS, SEEING OUTSIDE THE BOX. PIERCING THE BUBBLE OF CONSCIOUSNESS. WITHOUT ILLUSION, PEOPLE BECOME TO POWERFUL. CONSCIOUSNESS SLOW DOWN THE PROGRESS.

WE CAN'T UNDERSTAND AND SEE GOD BECAUSE WE ARE BLOCKED BY OUR NARCISSISTIC SHELL. WE ARE ASKING THE WRONG QUESTIONS BASED ON OUR NARCISSISTIC WORLD.

DUE TO THIS LOST OF CONNECTION, PEOPLE ARE OUT OF TOUCH WITH NATURE AND ARE DESTROYING THEMSELVES. THEY ARE DESTROYING THE PLACE THEY LIVE AND POLLUTING THE ENVIRONMENT. BUT THEY ARE HURTING THEMSELVES BECAUSE NATURE IS TOO POWERFUL.

UNIVERSE IS CONSCIOUSSLESS...  IT DOESN'T THINK. IT JUST REACT. WE PROJECT OUR OWN SELF ON  EVERYTHING AND MAKE A SELF OUR OF EVERYTHING. LIKE ANIMALS, IT DOESN'T PERCEIVE. IT SENSE AND REACT IN BEHAVIORS INFLUENCED BY MULTIVARIED FACTORS. JUST LIKE EACH PERSON IS DIFFERENT, THERE IS NO SIMILAR THINGS IN UNIVERSE. NO ONE STEPS ON THE SAME RIVER TWICE.

new year reflection

 WHAT IS LIFE AND WHY? WHAT IS THIS EXISTENCE?

THERE ARE TWO PARTS OF EXPLANATION, THE CREATION AND THE EXISTENCE ITSELF.

THERE ARE TWO POSSIBLE EXPLANATIONS OF THE CREATION: THE RELIGION AND THE SCIENCE. OR ONE EXPLANATION - THE COMBINATION OF THE TWO.

OUR EXISTENCE AND THE EXISTENCE OF OUR ENVIRONMENT ARE CREATED IN THIS ORDER: THE NON LIFE SUPPORTING ENVIRONMENT (SEPARATING THE SKY AND THE LAND, CREATING THE SUN, MOON, AND STARS) - THE LIFE SUPPORTING ENVIRONMENT (CREATING THE SKY AND THE SEA, THE WEATHER) - PLANT - ANIMALS - HUMAN. THE CENTERPIECE OF THE CREATION IS THE HUMAN. EVERYTHING IS CREATED FOR HUMAN AS THE MAIN CREATION LIKE CREATING A GARDEN FOR HUMAN. RELIGION IS HUMAN CENTRIS AND GEOCENTRIS.

HUMAN ARE THE ONLY CREATURE THAT CAN REFLECT BACK ON ITSELF AND THE ENVIRONMENT. THE ORDER OF DEVELOPMENT STOP AT HUMAN AND REVERSE ITS ORDER. HUMAN ARE THE ONLY CREATURE WHO CAN MANIPULATE ITS ENVIRONMENT AND CREATE AN ART-IFICIAL AND AFT-IFACTS TO EXPLORE ITS ENVIRONMENT. HUMAN ARE THE ONLY CREATURE THAT CAN LABEL AND GIVE NAME TO ITS OBJECT AND ENVIRONMENT. IS EVERYTHING IS CREATED FOR HUMAN? THE NON LIFE SUPPORT ENVIRONMENT MUST BE 99% WHERE IT IS TO SUPPORT LIFE HERE ON EARTH.

THE BIBLE MAY DESCRIBE THE CREATION OF HUMAN POETICALLY. THE CREATION OF HUMAN AND THE CREATION OF THE UNIVERSE IS DIFFERENT. THE SCIENCE DESCRIBE THE CREATION OF THE UNIVERSE. IN A WAY, SCIENCE GIVE THE PRE CREATION OF HUMAN. SCIENCE GIVES DETAIL WHERE RELIGION GIVES FULL PICTURE.

LET'S SAY WE ARE USING THE CREATION OF HUMAN FROM THE EVOLUTION AND THE HISTORY OF THE UNIVERSE. LET'S SAY WE BELIEVE THE SCIENCE VERSION OF THE CREATION OF THE UNIVERSE.



IF SCIENCE IS ACCURATE, HUMAN HISTORY IS STILL YOUNG COMPARED TO THE NON HUMAN HISTORY
THE LONGEST HISTORY IS THE DEVELOPMENT OF THE UNIVERSE, PHYSICAL CHEMICAL NON BIOLOGICAL MATTER.
THE DEVELOPMENT GOES SOMETHING LIKE THIS, NON LIFE SUPPORT ENVIRONMENT, LIFE SUPPORT ENVIRONMENT, PLANT, ANIMAL, HUMAN. THIS IS THE NATURAL DEVELOPMENT. AFTER HUMAN, THE DEVELOPMENT IS REVERSE (THE NURTURAL DEVELOPMENT) BECAUSE HUMAN IS THE LAST CREATURE WHO CAN REFLECT BACK AND CREATE. NOW HUMAN IS REVERSING IN ORDER, TRYING TO UNDERSTAND ITSELF, ANIMAL, PLANT, LIVING ENVIRONMENT, AND FINALLY, NON LIVING SUPPORT ENVIRONMENT AND CREATING ART-IFICIAL ART-IFACT (MAN MADE).

WE WILL FOCUS NOT ON HUMAN SINCE HUMAN IS THE YOUNGEST ONES CREATED. INSTEAD, WE LL FOCUS ON THE UNIVERSE ITSELF, THE PHYSICAL MATTER, THE FACTORY OF LIFE ITSELF.

LET'S ASSUME WE CAN WATCH THE PROCESS AS AN OUTSIDER FROM THE DISTANCE. LET'S PICK A GALAXY AND ASSUME THAT IT IS THE WHOLE UNIVERSE WITH ALL THE STARS AND PLANETS.

EITHER THE UNIVERSE IS CREATED OR IT IS NOT. IF IT IS NOT, WHY? WHAT PURPOSE? WHY IS NATURE EVOLVE? WHY NATURE IS TRYING TO SURVIVE? THE SOURCE OF ENERGY/MATTER AND THE USERS. HUMAN IS THE END USER. THE USERS ON EARTH ARE IMPROVING THEMSELVES TO IMPROVE CHANCES OF SURVIVAL. THE SOURCE IN ENVIRONMENT CONVERSE ENERGY TO SUPPORT USER'S LIFE.

WE CANNOT CREATE A USER WITHOUT THE ENVIRONMENT. BUT WE CAN CREATE AN ENVIRONMENT WITHOUT THE USER. THE USER CAN BE CREATED FROM THE ENVIRONMENT. BUT AN ENVIRONMENT CANNOT BE CREATED FROM THE USER. WHAT IS AN ENVIRONMENT BUT A LOWER FORM OF USER? PHYSICAL - CHEMICAL - ORGANIC - BIOLOGICAL.

MY MIND REACH A WALL AT THIS POINT. IT HIT THE WALL OF KNOWLEDGE. WHAT CREATED ATOM? HOW DID ATOM START? WHAT WAS BEFORE ATOM? DID IT COME FROM NOTHING? WHAT WAS BEFORE BIG BANG? BECAUSE THERE IS SOMETHING THAT BANG.

WHAT IS MATTER? NOT A DESCRIPTION, BUT IS IT INTELLIGENCE? DOES IT HAVE ORDERLY DESIGN? WE ARE STILL EXPLORING IS THE UNIVERSE FRIENDLY, NOT YET ASKING WHAT IT IS.

IS IT INTELLIGENT? NATURE HAS STRUCTURE THAT HUMAN CAN'T EVEN COPY. NATURE IS DIFFERENT THAN HUMAN, IT DOESN'T USE TECHNOLOGICAL TOOL TO MAKE SOMETHING, THE STRUCTURE ITSELF IS THE TECHNOLOGY. IF IT IS INTELLIGENCE THEN WHO IS IT OR WHAT IS IT? IT HAS ORDER, DESIGN, AND MATHEMATICAL STRUCTURE. IT HAS PHYSICAL, CHEMICAL, BIOLOGICAL STRUCTURE.

IT IS EASIER TO EXPLAIN IF IT IS CREATED. BUT IT'S MORE DIFFICULT TO EXPLAIN IF IT IS NOT CREATED. WHAT IS IT? IT IS A GREAT COLLABORATION OF PARTICLE CREATING PHYSICAL CHEMICAL BIOLOGICAL MATTER. IS IT GOD THE PARTICLE THAT IS CREATING EVERYTHING? THE INTELLIGENT CREATIVE PARTICLE AS IT HAS BEEN FROM THE BEGINNING, IS AND WILL BE. IT CANNOT BE DESTROYED BY ITS CREATURE. IT IS THE SUPREME INTELLIGENT. IT IS MUCH SMALLER THAN A PERSON BUT MUCH MORE BIGGER THAN A PERSON. BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS EVEN A PERSON IS. A GREAT COLLABORATION OF REACTIONS. IT IS THE SMALLEST THING BUT IT'S EVERYWHERE THAT NOTHING CAN ESCAPE IT THAT IT'S ALSO THE BIGGEST THING. IT IS EVERYTHING.

IT CANNOT BE RANDOM JUST LIKE HUMAN EXISTENCE CANNOT BE RANDOM. IT IS ALIVE WITH PURPOSEFUL DESIGN AND INTELLIGENCE JUST LIKE HUMAN LIFE IS. HUMAN LIFE IS A MICROCOSM OF THIS UNIVERSE AND AT THE SAME TIME IT IS A MACROCOSM OF THE PARTICLE.

HUMAN EXPERIENCE OF EMOTION, PERCEPTION, LANGUAGE BASED MENTAL, SOCIAL DIMENSION ARE ILLUSIONS CREATED BY OUR MIND BY COMBINING MEMORY, LANGUAGE, AND IMAGINATION. LIFE IS PHYSICAL PHENOMENA NOT MENTAL OR EMOTIONAL. IT IS PHYSICAL CHEMICAL AND BIOLOGICAL. THIS IS WHERE WE MEET GOD BECAUSE WE ALL ARE PART OF GOD. WE CAN IGNORE IT , WE CAN DENY IT, BUT WE CAN'T ESCAPE IT. WE ARE IT. IT IS THE SMALLEST THING BUT IT IS THE WIDE OPEN SPACE THAT KNOWS NO LIMIT AND BOUNDARY THAT WE ARE PART OF.

NOTHING TO OBSERVE, NOTHING TO LEARN, NOTHING TO BE AFRAID OF, NOTHING TO DO. IT IS AN UNINTERRUPTED TRANSFORMATION OF A DANCE OF THE UNIVERSE ITSELF, THE DANCE OF NATURE, THE DANCE OF GOD ITSELF. BY UNITING AND DIVERSIFYING, COOPERATING AND COMPETING, BIRTH AND DEATH, FLUCTUATION OF UPS AND DOWN, CALM AND VIOLENCE, STRONG AND WEAK.
WHATEVER AND WHEREVER YOU ARE WHERE YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO DO AND BE. ALL THE DIMENSIONS FACTORS ARE THE RHYTHM THAT CHANGE THE MOVEMENT OF THE DANCE. YOU ARE DANCING EVEN IF YOU DON'T WANT TO. IT DANCE THROUGH YOU...

compulsiveness

ARE COMPULSIVE BEHAVIORS HEALTHY?
SEXUAL, RELATIONSHIP RELATED, WORK RELATED, PLEASURABLE ACTIVITIES TYPE OF COMPULSIVENESS?
THEY MAY BE PHYSICALLY OR HAS MINIMAL PHYSICAL EFFECT, BUT THEY ARE NOT HEALTHY PSYCHOLOGICALLY.
IT'S A SOOTHING BEHAVIOR, IT'S A SELF MEDICATION, IT'S ADDICTIVE
FOR THE LONGEST TIME, QUESTIONS LINGER WEATHER MASTURBATION IS HEALTHY OR WATCHING PORNOGRAPHY AND THE COMMON ANSWER IS YES. THEY MAY BE HEALTHY PHYSICALLY BUT THEY ARE NOT HEALTHY PSYCHOLOGICALLY.
IT'S A QUICK FIX FOR PSYCHOLOGICAL WOUND.

OPENMINDEDNESS

WHAT MAKES US UNIQUELY HUMAN IS OUR MENTAL SOCIAL SPIRITUAL DIMENSION.
OPENMINDEDNESS IS THE CHARACTERISTIC OF SPIRITUAL DIMENSION, TO SOAR ABOVE PREJUDICE OF THE WORLD IN AN OPEN FIELD OF THE SKY
OPENMINDEDNESS IS THE HIGHEST ACCOMPLISHMENT OF OUR MIND.
IT TAKES FAITH TO BE OPENMINDED, TO LET GO OF ATTACHMENT TO ANY BELIEF OR PERSON
TO LEARN TO STAND AND THINK OF ONE OWN.
OPENMINDEDNESS IS THE ABILITY TO SEE SOMETHING WITHOUT JUDGEMENT, TO ACCEPT SOMETHING WITHOUT RESERVATION
OPENMINDEDNESS IS TO OPEN OUR MIND AND HEART, OPENMINDEDNESS IS TO LOVE.
OPENMINDEDNESS IS A CHILD'S CURIOSITY
OPENMINDEDNESS IS LIKE OPENING OUR EYES TO SEE AS FAR AS THE EYE CAN SEE

OPENMINDEDNESS IS TO REJECT A PERSON BUT ACCEPT THE MESSAGE OR ACCEPT A PERSON BUT REJECT A MESSAGE.

THE OPPOSITE OF OPENMINDEDNESS IS BLINDMINDEDNESS.

WHEN OUR HEART IS OPENED, OUR MIND IS BLIND. WHEN OUR MIND IS OPENED, OUR HEART IS DEAF.

SPIRITUALITY SOARS ABOVE MENTAL AND SOCIAL DIMENSION WITH ITS MANY ILLUSIONS.
SPIRITUALITY REQUIRES BRUTAL HONESTY AND OPENMINDEDNESS
NOT TO GET STUCK AND STOP AT ANY BELIEF IN QUEST FOR TRUTH
NOT TO ATTACH TO ANY BELIEF, THEORY, OR PEOPLE
TO TRAVEL ANYWHERE AND ANYWHEN TO THE CORNER OF THE KNOWLEDGE UNIVERSE
WITH FAITH FOR THE UNKNOWN TRUTH

LOWER AND HIGHER SENSES

DATA AND FEELING IS RAW IN BOTTOM LOW SENSES. WHEN LOW SENSES RECEIVE SIGNAL, IT WILL OVERRIDE HIGHER SENSES. LOW SENSES HAS MORE PRIORITY. FEELING IS INTERNAL LOW SENSES. MIND/COGNITION IS INTERNAL HIGH SENSES.

AUTISM IS HIJACKED BY LOW SENSES. WHERE IS ITS HIGH SENSES? DOES IT GO UNDER THE LOW SENSES? IS IT GONE FOREVER? INFLAMATION/INFECTION OF LOW SENSE?

STRONG INTERNAL LOW SENSES VS WEAK EXTERNAL LOW SENSES.

VISION AND HEARING BECOMES LOW SENSES, MORE SPECIFIC, CLOSE RANGE, SLOWER MOTION, LOWER TONE NOISE, LESS PERCEPTION, MORE SENSORY.

PEOPLE WHO EXPERIENCE TRAUMA OR INCOMPETENCE ALSO SHIFT THEIR PROCESSING FROM HIGH TO LOW FOR HIGHER DESPERATION/EMERGENCY. ANXIETY BASED TRAUMA IS A LOW SENSE PROCESSING.

LOW SENSE PROCESSING HIGH SENSE TOP INFORMATION
HIGH SENSE PROCESSING LOW SENSE BOTTOM INFORMATION

LOW INTERNAL SENSE VS LOW EXTERNAL SENSE
LOW INTERNAL SENSE VS HIGH EXTERNAL SENSE
HIGH INTERNAL SENSE VS LOW EXTERNAL SENSE
HIGH INTERNAL SENSE VS HIGH EXTERNAL SENSE

LOW SENSE OCCURS BOTH INTERNALLY AND EXTERNALLY THE SAME TIME.
HIGH SENSE OCCURS BOTH INTERNALLY AND EXTERNALLY THE SAME TIME. HIGH SENSE DISORDER OCCUR IN HALLUCINATION TYPE OF DISORDER OR DENIAL. HIGH SENSE INFLAMMATION, HIGH SENSE FUNCTIONING ONLY AND DEAD LOW SENSE.

AUTISM - DEAD HIGH SENSE. IS IT PHYSICAL OR PSYCHOLOGICAL?

NARCISSISM IS A LOW SENSE TRAPPED IN THE HIGH SENSE. DENIAL OF LOW SENSE AND LIVE IN THE HIGH SENSE ONLY.

UNDER NORMAL CIRCUMSTANCES, TRAUMA OR INCOMPETENCE USE LOW SENSES AS SENSOR AND HIGH SENSES FOR RESCUE. HOWEVER, WHEN SEVERE TRAUMA/INCOMPETENCE/SURVIVAL MODE, WE RELY ON LOW SENSES ONLY AND LOOP OF LOW SENSES.

COMPETENCE USE HIGH SENSES AS SENSOR AND LOW SENSES FOR RESCUE.

HUMAN USE BOTH LOW AND HIGH SENSES, LOW SENSE FOR MORE IMPORTANT NEEDS TO SURVIVE AND HIGH SENSES FOR ADVANCEMENT/INTELLIGENCE. DISORDER GETS TRAPPED IN THE LOW SENSES AND ENLIGHTENMENT ADVANCE TO THE HIGHER SENSES.

SOME DISORDERS GET TRAPPED IN THE LOW SENSES BUT WAS RESCUED BY HIGHER SENSES AND DENIED THE LOWER SENSES, IT'S A TEMPORARY RELIEF, A NARCISSISTIC PHASE. A PRETEND INTELLIGENCE. PRETEND HIGH INTELLIGENCE OF A LOW INTELLIGENCE.

WE EXPERIENCE MOMENT OF AUTISM DURING STRONG NEGATIVE EMOTIONAL EXPERIENCE WHERE WE CAN'T USE OUR MIND OR OUR SENSES DON'T WORK WELL.

AUTIST 4

LOWER SENSES: TOUCH, TASTE, SMELL

HIGHER SENSES: VISION AND HEARING
SPACED/MOVEMENT/DEPTH DETECTION
 HIGH FUNCTION-LOW FUNCTION
3D-2D
MOVEMENT - STILL PICTURE
SOUND - NOISE PRESSURE
NO PICTURE AND NOISE COMPREHENSION.

COGNITION IS DIGITAL SENSOR - OBJECT IN SPACE AND MOVEMENT

NO COGNITION:
CLOSE RANGE AND STILL PICTURE
NO NOISE DIFFERENTIATION
NO OBJECT RECOGNITION

EMOTIONAL LEARNING
FEAR - AUTISTIC BEHAVIOR

AUTISTIC BEHAVIOR
CIRCLING
MEMORIZED SPEECH
SCRATCHING
BOUNDING
WIPE HAND TO TABLE

OUTPUT BEHAVIOR
TO CHASE AWAY STRESSORS
COMPULSIVENESS - LIKE COMPULSIVE TV WATCHING OR PLAYING GAME.
TO FEEL SENSATION
TO BURN ENERGY
TO CALM ANXIETY

TO NONACTIVATE CELL PHONE - TO NON ACTIVATE MIND

WE ARE VERBAL ADDICTION - WHEN WE LIKE THE WORDS, WE ARE ATTACHED TO IT, WHEN WE DON'T LIKE WE DETACH FROM IT AND QUESTION IT.

AUTISM IS LOW SENSES, SO DATA AND EMOTIONS ARE LOW. BOTTOM UP.

AUTISM BEHAVIOR IS A COMPULSIVE REACTIVE BEHAVIOR TO UNPLEASANT INTERNAL SENSATION.

AUTISM NEVER LEARN SOCIAL PROTOCOL, NO SOCIAL FEELING.

PHYSICAL FEELING ----------------- HIGH VERBAL REASONING.

VERBAL WORLD

many people live in their verbal world in their mind
this world is linguistic based to perceive, recognize and imagine
It is like we tell ourselves a story in our mind
like speaking and listening to a story
like typing and reading a story

Perception is a top bottom representation of a bottom up present object and language is used as top bottom knowledge to add additional description about the object (comment)

Memory is a top bottom image of an absent object where a top bottom word is used as the object and additional description.

Imagination is a top bottom creation of a story of absent objects where words are used as absent objects and the objects can be abstract or fantasical.

Thinking is a top down activity that we do to:
1. To regulate emotion (to avoid anxiety and boredom)
2. Interpret sense data into information
3. A digital tool to evaluate and control self and environment (software for hardware)
4. Gives us structure of activities
5. Like reading map like reading map before the trip and using GPS during the trip
6. Activities (a wise think because it has something to think, a fool think because it has to think something)
5. Like a road sign to follow direction, rules, destination, movement, relationship, name (proper and common), and social expectation

We think for its own sake, like making noise for its sake like playing games or doing puzzle.

What is our world like without this verbal world? It s a bottom top processing only.Unregulated emotion reacting directly to sense data. Internal senses reacting to external senses.

RAW EMOTIONS REACTING TO RAW SENSE DATA. RAW NATURAL INTERNAL WORLD REACTING TO RAW EXTERNAL WORLD. WITHOUT MENTAL DIMENSION, ALL ENERGY IS STORED IN THIS SENSES, IN INTERNAL AND EXTERNAL EMOTION, MAKING THEM HYPERSENSITIVE. LIFE IS LIVED EMOTIONALLY, BLACK AND WHITE, COLD, IMPERSONAL, ABSOLUTE.
LIKE ELECTRICITY THAT WAS SENT TO ONE SOURCE, STRONG AND POWERFUL.

INFORMATION COLLECTED BY TOP BOTTOM PROCESSING WILL BE MEMORIZED COGNITION. INFORMATION COLLECTED BY BOTTOM UP WILL BE MEMORIZED BY EMOTION.

COGNITION IS DIGITAL SENSOR. EMOTION IS SENSOR, LIKE FUEL GAUGE TO RECORD AN EXPERIENCE. IF EMOTION RECORD AN EXPERIENCE IT WILL BE EMOTIONAL, IF COGNITION RECORD AN EXPERIENCE, IT WILL BE COGNITIONAL.

AUTISM RECORD EXPERIENCE RAW DATA EMOTIONALLY WITH RAW EMOTION. THEY GET TRAPPED BETWEEN RAW EMOTION AND RAW DATA. THEY UNDERSTAND NEITHER. THEIR SENSE IS SENSITIVE TAKING IN RAW DATA AND THEIR INTERNAL SENSE IS SENSITIVE TO DEAL WITH IT.

SELF IN GROUP

THERE ARE TWO BASIC EMOTION, SEEKING AND FEAR
WHEN IN GROUP SETTING, AN INDIVIDUAL WILL FEAR ANONYMITY AND WILL INDIVIDUALIZE HIMSELF.
EACH INDIVIDUAL SEE HIMSELF MORE THAN THE GROUP
HOWEVER, IN PRIVATE, AN INDIVIDUAL WILL SEEK GROUP VOLUNTARILY AND WILL SEE HIMSELF PART OF THE GROUP
IN OTHER WORDS, IN PRIVATE, AN INDIVIDUAL FEAR ITS INDIVIDUALITY AND WILL SEEK TO BE PART OF A GROUP
WHEN IN GROUP, AN INDIVIDUAL WILL FEAR ITS GROUP-ITY AND SEEK ITS OWN INDIVIDUALITY

INFORMATION PROCESSING

TOP DOWN IS INTENTIONAL ORIENTATION, GUIDED BY WORDS
BOTTOM UP IS EXTENTIONAL ORIENTATION, GUIDED BY AN OBJECT

TOP DOWN IS VERBAL WORLD
BOTTOM UP IS EXTENTIONAL WORLD
A top-down approach (also known as stepwise design or deductive reasoning,^[1] and in many cases used as a synonym of analysis or decomposition) is essentially the breaking down of a system to gain insight into its compositional sub-systems. In a top-down approach an overview of the system is formulated, specifying but not detailing any first-level subsystems. Each subsystem is then refined in yet greater detail, sometimes in many additional subsystem levels, until the entire specification is reduced to base elements. A top-down model is often specified with the assistance of "black boxes", these make it easier to manipulate. However, black boxes may fail to elucidate elementary mechanisms or be detailed enough to realistically validate the model. Top down approach starts with the big picture. It breaks down from there into smaller segments.^[2]
A bottom-up approach (also known as inductive reasoning,^[1] and in many cases used as a synonym of synthesis) is the piecing together of systems to give rise to grander systems, thus making the original systems sub-systems of the emergent system. Bottom-up processing is a type of information processing based on incoming data from the environment to form a perception. Information enters the eyes in one direction (input), and is then turned into an image by the brain that can be interpreted and recognized as a perception (output). In a bottom-up approach the individual base elements of the system are first specified in great detail. These elements are then linked together to form larger subsystems, which then in turn are linked, sometimes in many levels, until a complete top-level system is formed. This strategy often resembles a "seed" model, whereby the beginnings are small but eventually grow in complexity and completeness. However, "organic strategies" may result in a tangle of elements and subsystems, developed in isolation and subject to local optimization as opposed to meeting a global purpose.



VISUAL:
TOP
ENVIRONMENT
OBJECT
FEATURES
LIGHTS
BOTTOM

Top-Down and Bottom-Up Processing

When an interpretation emerges from the data, this is called data-driven or bottom-up processing. Perception must be largely data-driven because it must accurately reflect events in the outside world. You want the interpretation of a scene to be determined mostly by information from the senses, not by your expectations.

What is data-driven or bottom-up processing? What is schema-driven or top-down processing?

In many situations, however, your knowledge or expectations will influence perception. This is called schema-driven or top-down processing. A schema is a pattern formed earlier in your experience.

Larger scale or more abstract concepts are referred to as higher level, while concrete details (such as the input from the senses) are referred to as lower level. Top-down processing occurs any time a higher-level concept influences your interpretation of lower level sensory data.

What is set or expectancy?

Top-down processing is shown by the phenomena of set or expectancy. A classic example is the Rat Man of Bugelski and Alampay (1961).

The "Rat-Man" picture

Subjects saw this picture after viewing earlier slides that showed line drawings of (1) animals, or (2) faces. Depending on whether they saw animals or faces in previous slides, subjects reported seeing either (1) a rat or (2) a man wearing glasses. They had been "set" for one or the other interpretation by the preceding slides. This is a form of top-down processing, in which a schema influences interpretation of the data.

In what respect do cartoons rely upon top-down processing?

Comics and cartoons provide many examples of top-down processing. Simple cues are used to suggest complex feelings and emotions. Cartoonists have a set of conventions for conveying information about mental and physical states. Tiny popping bubbles, for example, show drunkenness. Movement is shown by lines and little puffs of dust trailing after shoes. Spoken language is shown inside a bubble made out of a continuous line. A silent thought is shown inside a broken line. A sudden idea may be shown as a lightbulb lighting up over a character's head. Beads of sweat flying off a character show anxiety or physical exertion. After one gains some experience reading comics, these cues are processed automatically; one is hardly aware of them.

In what sense do we go "beyond the information given"?

In general, top-down processing—information processing based on previous knowledge or schemata—allows us to make inferences: to "perceive" or "know" more than is contained in the data. Little cartoon droplets do not contain the information that a character is working hard. We add that information based upon our previous experience and knowledge of the conventions of cartooning.

Jerome Bruner titled a book about cognitive development Beyond the Information Given (1972) He was acknowledging the pivotal role of inference in cognition. We go "beyond the information given" constantly in our mental processes. We learn to add assumptions and supplemental information derived from past experience to the evidence of our senses, and that is how we make sense of our world.

IN PSYCHOLOGY

hese terms are also employed in neuroscience, cognitive neuroscience and cognitive psychology to discuss the flow of information in processing.^[5] Typically sensory input is considered "down", and higher cognitive processes, which have more information from other sources, are considered "up". A bottom-up process is characterized by an absence of higher level direction in sensory processing, whereas a top-down process is characterized by a high level of direction of sensory processing by more cognition, such as goals or targets (Beiderman, 19).^[4]
According to Psychology notes written by Dr. Charles Ramskov, a Psychology professor at De Anza College, Rock, Neiser, and Gregory claim that top-down approach involves perception that is an active and constructive process.^[6] Additionally, it is an approach not directly given by stimulus input, but is the result of stimulus, internal hypotheses, and expectation interactions. According to Theoretical Synthesis, "when a stimulus is presented short and clarity is uncertain that gives a vague stimulus, perception becomes a top-down approach."^[7]
Conversely, Psychology defines bottom-up processing as an approach wherein there is a progression from the individual elements to the whole. According to Ramskov, one proponent of bottom-up approach, Gibson, claims that it is a process that includes visual perception that needs information available from proximal stimulus produced by the distal stimulus.^[8] Theoretical Synthesis also claims that bottom-up processing occurs "when a stimulus is presented long and clearly enough."^[7]
Cognitively speaking, certain cognitive processes, such as fast reactions or quick visual identification, are considered bottom-up processes because they rely primarily on sensory information, whereas processes such as motor control and directed attention are considered top-down because they are goal directed. Neurologically speaking, some areas of the brain, such as area V1 mostly have bottom-up connections.^[7] Other areas, such as the fusiform gyrus have inputs from higher brain areas and are considered to have top-down influence.^[9]
The study of visual attention provides an example. If your attention is drawn to a flower in a field, it may be because the color or shape of the flower are visually salient. The information that caused you to attend to the flower came to you in a bottom-up fashion—your attention was not contingent upon knowledge of the flower; the outside stimulus was sufficient on its own. Contrast this situation with one in which you are looking for a flower. You have a representation of what you are looking for. When you see the object you are looking for, it is salient. This is an example of the use of top-down information.
In cognitive terms, two thinking approaches are distinguished. "Top-down" (or "big chunk") is stereotypically the visionary, or the person who sees the larger picture and overview. Such people focus on the big picture and from that derive the details to support it. "Bottom-up" (or "small chunk") cognition is akin to focusing on the detail primarily, rather than the landscape. The expression "seeing the wood for the trees" references the two styles of cognition.

AUTISM PERCEIVE FROM BOTTOM UP. PERCEPTION OCCUR WHEN TOP HIGHER CONCEPT INTERPRET BOTTOM/LOW SENSORY DATA. AUTISM RECEIVE LOW SENSORY DATA WITHOUT INTERPRETATION OF HIGHER CONCEPTS.

SCHIZOPHRENIA IS ON THE OTHER HAND IS A TOP HIGHER CONCEPT WITHOUT LOW SENSORY DATA. THEY HALLUCINATE. 

When doors of perception close: bottom-up models of disrupted cognition in schizophrenia.

Javitt DC.

Source

Schizophrenia Research Center, Nathan Kline Institute for Psychiatric Research/New York University School of Medicine, Orangeburg, NY 10962, USA. javitt@nki.rfmh.org

Abstract

Schizophrenia is a major mental disorder that affects approximately 1% of the population worldwide. Cognitive deficits are a key feature of schizophrenia and a primary cause of long-term disability. Current neurophysiological models of schizophrenia focus on distributed brain dysfunction with bottom-up as well as top-down components. Bottom-up deficits in cognitive processing are driven by impairments in basic perceptual processes that localize to primary sensory brain regions. Within the auditory system, deficits are apparent in elemental sensory processing, such as tone matching following brief delay. Such deficits lead to impairments in higher-order processes such as phonological processing and auditory emotion recognition. Within the visual system, deficits are apparent in functioning of the magnocellular visual pathway, leading to higher-order deficits in processes such as perceptual closure, object recognition, and reading. In both auditory and visual systems, patterns of deficit are consistent with underlying impairment of brain N-methyl-d-aspartate receptor systems.

HUMILITY

WE ARE STILL ALIVE BECAUSE OF LUCK
WE ARE WHERE WE ARE BECAUSE OF LUCK
OUR LIFE IS NEITHER EARNED OR DESERVED
OUR CHILDHOOD, EDUCATION, LIFE NEEDS THAT WERE MET, KNOWLEDGE THAT WE LEARN, PEOPLE THAT WE VE MET, PLACE WHERE WE GREW UP, SCHOOL THAT WE WENT TO, ALL WERE NOT CHOSEN.
OUR CULTURE, RELIGION, LANGUAGE ARE FREE GIFTS FROM THE PAST THAT WE DON'T HAVE TO PAY
THE UNIVERSE, THE LIVING ENVIRONMENT, THE AIR WE BREATH ARE FREE GIFTS FROM NATURE
OUR BODY AND MIND ARE FREE GIFTS FROM OUR PARENTS AND NATURE
OUR INTELLIGENCE AND EMOTION AND HEALTH ARE FREE GIFTS
THE WEATHER, THE EARTH, THE ANIMALS, TREES ARE FREE
WE DON'T CHOOSE OUR FAMILY, COUNTRY, RACE, SEX
SOME PEOPLE SAY "MY GOD, MY COUNTRY, MY RELIGION, MY FAMILY, MY WIFE" YOU DON'T OWN ANY OF THAT. YOU ARE GOD'S, NOT THE OTHER WAY AROUND. YOU DON'T OWN YOUR RELIGION.

SO, WHO WE ARE TO BE PROUD OF OURSELVES OR WHAT WE HAVE? ALL THE MATERIALS AND EVEN LIFE ITSELF IS LENT TO YOU TEMPORARILY. SOMETIMES WE WILL GET SICK, SOMETIMES WE WILL DIE. WE DON'T CHOOSE ANY OF IT. SOMETIMES WE WILL SUFFER. OUR PAST IS LUCK, OUR PRESENT IS LUCK, AND OUR FUTURE IS LUCK.

IF IT IS NOT LUCK IT IS CHANCE. ACTUALLY WE HAVE CONSCIOUSNESS, BUT THERE IS JUST TOO MANY BEHIND THE SCENES FACTORS.

IF YOU ARE A PASSENGER ON A BUS OR AIRPLANE, YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON THE DRIVER.

EVERYDAY, WE USE INSTRUMENT OR VEHICLE WITHOUT KNOWING ITS CONDITION. WE USE COMPUTER WITHOUT UNDERSTANDING ITS WORKING. WE USE INTERNET WITHOUT UNDERSTANDING IT. WE DON'T SEE VIRUS OR BACTERIES THAT CAN ATTACK US ANY MOMENTS. YOU CAN BE THE MOST CAREFUL DRIVER ON THE ROAD, IT STILL DOESN'T GUARANTEE SAFETY. THERE ARE MANY CARELESS DRIVERS, IMPERFECT ROAD CONDITIONS, NEW DRIVERS, DISTRACTED DRIVERS. WE DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON OUTSIDE ATMOPHERE OR UNDER THE EARTH THAT CAN KILL US ANY MOMENT.

WE DON'T INVENT THE SYSTEM, IT WAS HANDED DOWN TO US. WE DON'T OWN THE SYSTEM, THE SYSTEM OWN US.

UNSPONSORED PHILOSOPHERS

I AM AN UNSPONSORED PSYCHOLOGIST/PHILOSOPHER
I DO IT FOR MY OWN SATISFACTION AND SANITY
UNRECOGNIZED AND MISUNDERSTOOD BY OTHERS
I PLAY WITH PUZZLE OF WORDS AND PATTERNS TRYING TO  CREATE A BIG MAP
SOMETIMES I START WITH THE MAP AND LOOK FOR DETAILS
THE VERBAL WORLD THAT I LIVE BY, AN ART, A PUZZLE, A GAME.
IT BRINGS PLEASURE.

AUTISM 3

 AUTISM GET CAUGHT BETWEEN THE WILD NATURAL WORLD FROM THE INSIDE (ID) AND THE MISUNDERSTOOD LINGUISTIC BASED HUMAN SOCIAL STRUCTURE FROM THE OUTSIDE. THEY GET FRUSTRATED AND FOCUSED MORE ON THE INTERNAL WILD NATURAL WORLD. THEY ACT OUT THEIR WILD NATURAL WORLD AND THEY DEFEND AGAINST THE MISUNDERSTOOD EXTERNAL SOCIAL ENVIRONMENT. THEY BLOCK SENSES AND MINDBLINDEDNESS AND FEELING DEAFNESS. THEY ARE STRANGERS IN A STRANGE LAND AND A FOREIGNER IN THEIR OWN HOME. THEY LIVE IN EMOTIONAL DIMENSION WITH UNDERDEVELOPED MENTAL AND SOCIAL DIMENSION.

THEY ARE EITHER HUMAN TRAPPED IN NATURAL WORLD AND NATURAL SPECIES TRAPPED IN HUMAN WORLD. THERE IS IMBALANCED DEVELOPMENT BETWEEN EMOTIONAL DIMENSION AND MENTAL DIMENSION.

MINDBLINDEDNESS- CONFUSION TRYING TO LIVE IN TWO WORLDS AT THE SAME TIME.

MEMORIZED VOICE - LATAH

EASY OF DIFFICULT TASK, HARD ON EASY TASK

Synaesthesia, where one sense tries to do the work of another, like
“seeing” sound.

In autism, all senses tried to do their work, all at the same time, creating havoc. In
Synaesthesia, my sexual functions got in the way of sight, smell, touch, speech,
thoughts, and hearing. Attempts to see, touch, talk, hear, or even think ended in
explosions of skin, ears, even thoughts.

I was born into the world of autism inside and unrelated parents outside.

Rote speech, lack of coordination, ritual
behaviors, lack of color vision and depth perception, so-called mindblindness

I found my behavior, no matter how strange, was meaningful,
purposeful, attempting from an unseen part of myself to express something that didn’t
have words.

the invisible experience of every autistic person

Symbolic meanings of my behaviors
 timeless
experience of dread

AUTISM LIVE THEIR SENSE EXPERIENCE DIRECTLY, THEY DON'T EXPERIENCE THEIR SENSE

CONFABULATION TO FIND MEANING OF EXPERIENCE

AUTISM DOESN'T LIVE IN HUMAN SOCIAL WORLD WITH ITS CULTURE AND SYSTEM. IT LIVES IN NATURAL WORLD, WILD AND FREE. FRUSTRATION HAPPEN WHEN FREEDOM IS RESTRICTED IN HUMAN SOCIAL WORLD.

IT'S HUMAN TRYING TO LIVE IN NATURAL WORLD AND NATURE SPECIES TRY TO LIVE IN HUMAN WORLD.

GOD IS IN DETAIL, REGULAR HUMAN MAKE THE EXTERNAL DETAILS UNCONSCIOUS AND INTERNAL CONSCIOUS. THEY MISS THE BEAUTY.

THERE ARE TWO KINDS OF THINKING/COGNITION:
1. NONVERBAL/NONSYMBOLIC
 HUMAN BEING NORMALLY HAVE WEAK NONVERBAL/NONSYMBOLIC THINKING. YET, ANIMALS, INFANTS, AND SOME PEOPLE HAVE A STRONG NONVERBAL/NONSYMBOLIC THINKING AND NONSYMBOLIC REACTION.

THEY SEE:
LIGHT BY OWN SOURCE AND REFLECTED AND MOVING LIGHT
LIGHT INTENSITY:
SIZE AND SHAPE OF OBJECTS
SPECIFIC DETAIL
MOVING OBJECTS,
CHANGE IN ENVIRONMENT
DIFFERENT COLORS

THEY HEAR:
SOUND PRESSURE
NOISE AND INTENSITY OF NOISE:
OF MOVING OBJECTS AND CREATED BY SENTIENTS OR MACHINE

THEY FEEL:
CHANGE IN AIR PRESSURE AND GEOLOGICALLY
BALANCE

THEY SMELL: OFFENSIVE and ATTRACTIVE ODOR

THEY TASTE: OFFENSIVE AND ATTRACTIVE TASTE

WE REACT SIGNALLY TO THIS NONVERBAL INFORMATION, BUT FOR MOST OF US, IT HAPPENS UNCONSCIOUSLY. FOR SOME PEOPLE, THIS IS A CONSCIOUS EXPERIENCE AND IT'S ALL THEY HAVE.

2. VERBAL/SYMBOLIC
MOST OF US HAVE SYMBOLIC THINKING AS RESULT OF LINGUISTIC CONDITIONING. HOWEVER, THE PROBLEMS WE EXPERIENCE IN A NONSYMBOLIC REACTION TO A SYMBOLIC SYSTEM. THERE IS A CULTURAL LAG BETWEEN OUR MIND AND OUR BODY/SENSE IN NARCISSISTIC COMPLEX. UNCONSCIOUSLY, WE REACT SIGNALLY TO SENSE SIGNAL MENTIONED ABOVE. BUT CONSCIOUSLY, WE ALSO REACT SIGNALLY TO SYMBOLIC THINKING, LIKE REACTING TO FANTASY OR DREAM. IN VERBAL THINKING, WE:
1. VERBALIZE
2. ABSTRACT
3. CLASSIFY
4. DEFINE WORDS

IN VERBAL THINKING, WE START FROM BIG PICTURE FIRST THEN GOES TO DETAIL, START FROM STORY FIRST BEFORE UNDERSTANDING SPECIFIC SENTENCE OR WORDS. WE UNDERSTAND THE CONTEXT FIRST. WHERE IN NONVERBAL, WE START FROM SPECIFIC TO DEVELOP A STORY.

THERE ARE 3 KINDS OF THINKING:
1. PICTORIAL
2. PATTERN
3. WORDS

PEOPLE NORMALLY SCAN THE ENVIRONMENT AND THEN SEE THE INDIVIDUAL OBJECT. AUTISM SEE INDIVIDUAL OBJECTS AND NOT THE ENVIRONMENT.

VISION: LIGHT ---------- OBJECT ---------------------- ENVIRONMENT
2 DIMENSION ----------- 3 DIMENSION
LOW INTENSITY ---------- HIGH INTENSITY
LINGUISTIC VISION: MARK ON PAPER --- VISUAL/AUDIO --- LETTER -- WORD --- SENTENCE/CONTEXT ----- STORY.

AUDIO: SOUND PRESSURE ---- NOISE ----- SOUND ----- PHONIC WORD

TACTILE:
CHANGING PRESSURES (LIQUID, GAS, SOLID MASSES) -- OBJECTS

SMELLS: OFFENSIVE/ATTRACTIVE ODORS --- OBJECTS

TASTE: OFFENSIVE/ATTRACTIVE TASTE --- OBJECTS

MISCOMMUNICATION BETWEEN PEOPLE WITH DIFFERENT LEVEL OF PERCEPTION.

MANAGEMENT
MANAGEMENT IS A NATURAL ABILITY TO ADJUST TO ENVIRONMENT. NATURAL MANAGEMENT IS NATURAL INSTINCT FOR SELF DEFENSE, REPRODUCTION, CHILD REARING, SUCH AS THE ABILITY TO CHANGE COLORS.
MAN MADE MANAGEMENT IS ABILITY TO ADJUST TO NATURAL AND MAN MADE ENVIRONMENT. NATURAL AND MAN MADE DISASTERS HAPPENS AND CAN BE MANAGED. CRIMINAL BEHAVIORS, PRE AND POST ADULT PERSON CAN BE MANAGED DIFFERENTLY. CHILDREN ARE MANAGED DIFFERENTLY THAN ADULTS.
WE LIVE IN A MAN MADE PHYSICAL ENVIRONMENT AND LIVE WITH MAN MADE PROCESSED PRODUCTS, OTHER THAN AIR. THIS IS WHY WE LEARN MAN MADE MANAGEMENT TO HELP THOSE WHO DON'T FIT THE REQUIREMENT TO LIVE IN THE SPECIAL ENVIRONMENT. MAN MADE PHYSICAL ENVIRONMENT IS CREATED FOR "IDEAL" MEMBERS OF ITS GROUP. INDEPENDENT, HAVE LIFE SKILLS, HAVE RESPONSIBILITY, HAVING HEALTHY PHYSICAL AND MENTAL HEALTH.

AUTISM 2

ORAL AND WRITTEN INFORMATION FOR AUTISM ARE NOISE AND BLACK MARK DATA. THE CULTURE IS THE ONE THAT GIVE MEANING.
PRESYMBOLICALLY, WE CRY, HISS, GURGLE, CLUCK, COO.

WE USE LANGUAGE TO REPORT - WHAT GOES ON IN NERVOUS SYSTEM. HOW DO WE REPORT WITHOUT LANGUAGE NERVOUS SYSTEM THAT IS NON VERBAL.

THEY RELY ON SENSE EXPERIENCE ALONE AND MUST REDISCOVER EVERY TIME AND CANNOT CONTROL ENVIRONMENT.
THEIR WORLD IS SILENT AND BLACK PIECE OF PAPER
THEY DON'T CONNECT LANGUAGE TO REALITY OR MAKE UNCONSCIOUS ASSUMPTION ABOUT LANGUAGE
THEY DON'T HAVE SEMANTIC ENVIRONMENT AND LINGUITIC HABIT

FOR THEM SYMBOL IS NOT A THING, MAP IS NOT TERRITORY, WORD IS NOT A THING. A SYMBOL IS A SYMBOL, A WORD IS A WORD, MEANINGLESS.

SYMBOL IS NOT A THING IS AUTISM ------------------------- SYMBOL IS A THING IS NARCISSISM

EXTENSIONAL WORLD HAS SENSE EXPERIENCE AND PERCEPTION EXPERIENCE

VERBAL WORLD HAS WORD EXPERIENCE

PERCEPTION EXPERIENCE --- ENLIGHTENMENT
VISUAL SYMBOL - VISUAL, VERBAL, NAME (PROPER, THING)
STORY ABOUT THE THING, CLASSIFICATION, DEFINITION, HISTORY, AUTOBIOGRAPHY, MEANING

SENSE EXPERIENCE - AUTISM
SYMBOL IS NOT A THING
A WORD IS A WORD

WORD EXPERIENCE - NARCISSISM
REPORT, INFERENCE, JUDGEMENT

AUTISM HAS NO MAP, NO SYMBOLS, NON LINGUISTIC EVENTS, INVOLUNTARY MUSCLE, GROWL AND SNARL REACTING TO SENSORY MIND
NO OBJECT PERMANENCE - ONLY PRESENT OBJECTS

1. SIGNAL REACTION - AUTOMATIC REACTION TOWARD SYMBOL - SYMBOLIC REACTION
2. CONFUSING LEVEL OF ABSTRACTION OUTSIDE - INSIDE
3. NO ABSTRACTION/SIMILARITY

TEACH:
1. SYMBOLS AND SYMBOLIC REACTION
2. LEARN ABSTRACTION/SIMILARITY
3. LEARN INTENTIONAL ORIENTATION
4. LEARN TO REPORT, INFERENCE, JUDGEMENT
5. LEARN EXTENTIONAL AND INTENTIONAL MEANING
6. LEARN INFORMATIVE AND AFFECTIVE CONNOTATION
7. LEARN SOCIAL COHESION LANGUAGE
8. LEARN SOCIAL CONTROL
9. LEARN DEFINITION
10. LEARN LOW AND HIGH LEVEL OF ABSTRACTION
11. REVERSE ABSTRACTION FROM OUTSIDE TO INSIDE TO INSIDE - OUTSIDE
12. LEARN PREJUDICE AND FANTASY
13. LEARN CLASSIFICATION
14. LEARN 2 VALUE AND MULTIVALUE ORIENTATION
15. LEARN INTENTIONAL ORIENTATION AND VERBALIZATION
16. LEARN VERBAL AND PHYSICAL CONTEXT.

OBJECT HAS NO NAME AND CLASS UNTIL WE PUT IT IN ONE

GOD DOES NOT CREATE GOOD OR BAD, PEOPLE CREATE GOOD AND BAD

CULTURAL LAG - CULTURE YANG SUDAH KETINGGALAN JAMAN. CULTURE THAT IS DIFFERENT THAN WHEN IT WAS IN THE PAST.
RELIGION, VERBAL LEARNING

WE IMPRISON REALITY IN DESCRIPTION OF IT. WE BECOME PRISONER OF THE DESCRIPTION. THEN WE PASS IT TO NEXT GENERATION. THE NEXT GENERATION USING FORMER MEANING/BEHAVIOR. NOT NOUN THAT MATTER BUT VERB. WE BECOME SYMBOL WORSHIPPER

ENLIGHTENMENT IS SYMBOLIC REACTION TO NONSYMBOLIC INFORMATION.

Animal mind

Animal lives an autistic life with simple visual perception and signal reaction
leading to simple emotional reaction, like relax and fear
it knows no subject and object permanence, it doesn't have perception experience like human do
no attachment and no self awareness, no reflexive myself.
just like human infants. "infants who live in adults' life"
Infants are skill-less to meet its own needs, are dependent on others, it sees others but does not recognize,  its vision is specific, sensitive senses.
Autism in adults life lead to over input and traumatic based reaction not from traumatic memory but conditioned traumatic experience.
from lack of perception, input always change and mixed into one lead to rigid behavior and routine. and additional output behavior to block out input. when relaxed, able to connect to others.
it may know no worry and suffering, it may know fear. suffering is buffering for pain. we suffer to avoid pain.
is autism permanent or temporary? is it a blanket thrown over the mind or does it change?


autism - public self (narcissism) - private self - unknown self - the unknown

life is about how we manage it, how we manage the environment and the subject
our man made physical environment and culture are created for people who are "normal" adults.
"Minority" groups based on age, gender, health, sexual preference, economic classes, etc must be managed differently. Manage the environment and manage the symptoms.


AUTISM - BOTTOM  UP (SENSORY DETAIL TO WHOLE)
NON VERBAL, SENSORY BASED, SENSORY MEMORY
BRAIN MORE SOCIAL AND MORE THINKING
THINK IN PICTURES, SLIDES OF PICTURES
SEARCH ENGINES, ASSOCIATIVE NOT LINEAR
SENSORY DETAIL AND NOT VERBAL LANGUAGE
SENSORY DISTRACTION, SLOW ATTENTION SHIFTING
SENSORY ISSUE

SENSE BASED FEAR MEMORY, WORLD WITHOUT LANGUAGE, GET AWAY FROM LANGUAGE. NO CAPTION, THE WORLD WITH NO CAPTION.

FEAR MEMORY CAN BE CLOSED BUT NOT ERASED
FIGHT/FLIGHT, SEARCH FOR DANGER, IS ALWAYS ON
TAKEN CARE BY ANTIDEPRESSENT
CONTROL AND SLOW DOWN THE PICTURES
STRESS HORMONE GOES UP WHEN FORCED
WHEN VOLUNTEERED, STRESS HORMONE GOES DOWN
DISTRACTED, SETTING OFF FEAR
SPECIFIC THINKING

SENSORY BASED CATEGORIES FROM SPECIFIC SENSE INFORMATION
SORT THE PICTURES INTO CATEGORIES, SIZE, ABSTRACTION, CLASSIFICATION

VISUALISTIC THINKER
PATTERN THINKER
WORD THINKER

HUMAN, LANGUAGE COVERS UP SENSORY BASED THINKING
TOP BOTTOM (HYPOTHESIS TO DETAIL)

EMOTION
FEAR - MOST PRIMITIVE
ANGER - ANGER
PANIC - SEPARATION ANXIETY
SEEKING - APPROACH NOVELTY
ADDITIONAL EMOTIONS - LUST, CARING, PLAY

THE NUCLEUS ACUMBENS IN THE BRAIN CONTROLS SEEKING OR FEAR BASED BEHAVIOR. SEEKING OR FEAR SYSTEM. TRAFFIC ACCIDENT, WE FOCUS ON AVOIDING THE ACCIDENT, AFTER IT HAPPENED FEAR TOOK OVER. WHEN AN ANIMAL ORIENTS, IT MAKES A DECISION TO SEEK OR TO FEAR

WHEN TROUBLESHOOTING A BEHAVIOR PROBLEM, FIGURE OUT WHICH EMOTION IS MOTIVATING THE ANIMAL. PUNISH FEAR MAKE IT WORST.

RULE OUT PAINFUL MEDICAL PROBLEMS, ACID REFLUX. SENSORY OVERLOAD, FEAR OF SENSORY OVERLOAD, GETTING ATTENTION, GETTING OUT OF DOING SOMETHING OR FRUSTRATION BECAUSE THEY CAN'T COMMUNICATE.

ABNORMAL BEHAVIOR: ANIMAL DOES IT BECAUSE LACK OF STIMULATION, AUTISTIC KID BECAUSE OVERSTIMULATION.

VISUAL WORLD, SENSICAL WORLD, NO WORDS. WATCHING LIFE WITHOUT COMMENTARY,

FOR AUTISM, LIFE IS A MOVIE WITHOUT STORY. FOR PEOPLE, IT S A STORY THAT HAS PICTURE.

LIKE A SILENT MOVIE. SOUND ARE NOT LANGUAGE BASED. SOUND ARE JUST SOUND. SOUND IS DIFFERENT THAN SIGHT. THE SOUND APPLE IS APPLE NOT THE SAME AS THE APPLE. THE PICTURE APPLE IS A PICTURE APPLE, IT S DIFFERENT THAN THE APPLE. A WORD IS NOT PART OF THE STORY, A WORD IS JUST A WORD. A LETTER IS JUST A LETTER. A PICTURE OF A LETTER IS JUST A PICTURE OF A LETTER, A SOUND OF A LETTER IS JUST THAT SOUND. NO CLASSIFICATION OF SOMETHING PART OF A SYSTEM.

THEY ARE LIKE ENLIGHTENMENT, ALWAYS IN A MOMENT, LIKE A CHILD, LIKE AN ANIMAL.

"Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions."
~Dalai Lama XIV

MENTAL HEALTH PROBLEMS

MENTAL HEALTH PROBLEMS CAN BE DIVIDED INTO TWO: RELATIONSHIP AND INDIVIDUAL
THERE ARE THIN LINES BETWEEN THE TWO BUT RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS ARE CAUSED BY MORE THAN ONE INDIVIDUAL THAN BY INDIVIDUAL. INDIVIDUAL PROBLEMS ARE CAUSED BY MORE THAN THE INDIVIDUAL THAN BY THE RELATIONSHIP. RELATIONSHIP PROBLEMS ARE PROBLEMS WITH FAMILY, ROMANTIC, PARENTING, FRIENDSHIP.
INDIVIDUAL PROBLEMS ARE PROBLEMATIC BEHAVIORS AND DEVELOPMENTAL BEHAVIORS. AGAIN, THERE ARE THIN LINES BETWEEN THESE PROBLEMS.
PROBLEMATIC BEHAVIOR DEALS MORE WITH PROBLEMS WITH FRUSTRATION WHERE DISABLE BEHAVIORS DEAL MORE WITH INDEPENDENCE.

prajna (understanding as against
superstition and supernaturalism),

SIMULATION

MIND IS SIMULATION, IS REALITY A SIMULATION?
NICK BOSTROOM THEORY OF SIMULATION HYPOTHESIS THROW THIS QUESTION
IF WE ARE SIMULATION FROM FUTURE BEING
IT IS DIFFICULT TO SIMULATE A CONSCIOUSNESS
IT IS POSSIBLE TO BELIEVE IN SIMULATION WITH THE ORDERLINESS OF THE UNIVERSE

love 2012

LOVE IS SENSITIVITY TO ALL THINGS, ALL PEOPLE
TO BE SENSITIVE TO OUR SELF AS WELL
TO OPEN OURSELVES UP AND TO OPEN OUR SENSES
TO LET GO OF HARD SHELL
TO BLAST THROUGH ALL STORMS OF NEGATIVE EMOTIONS AND FEAR
WE ARE THE ONE THAT CAUSE PAIN AND HURT OURSELVES
FOR NO ONE CAN HURT US WITHOUT OUR PERMISSION
WE ARE THE ONE THAT HAS A PANDORA BOX THAT WE KEEP
TO CLEAN OURSELVES FROM TRASHES OF MEMORY OF SUFFERING
BE AWARE THE MOMENT WHEN YOU PUT A BRAKE TO YOURSELF
LOVE IS DRIVING ALONG HIGHWAY OF LIFE
SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO PUT A LITTLE BRAKE
BUT DON'T BRAKE UNTIL YOU STOP
OPEN YOUR SENSES AND FEELS LIFE
OPEN YOUR EYES AND SEE
OPEN YOUR MIND
DON'T FEAR FOR WE DON'T HAVE TO KNOW THE MYSTERY OF LIFE
DON'T LET THE CULTURE AND PEOPLE TELL US WHAT TO DO
OPEN OURSELVES UP AND BELIEVE

autism

AUTISM IS LIKE HAVING A FOURTH WALL IN A THEATER BETWEEN AN ACTOR AND THE AUDIENCE. THE ACTOR CAN SEE THE AUDIENCE BUT CAN'T RELATE TO THE AUDIENCE.

AUTISTIC WORLD

NO SENSORY INFORMATION PROCESSING, SENSORY OVERLOAD AND OVERSTIMULATION --- AUTISTIC BEHAVIORS TO SHUT DOWN THE INFORMATION

pierce the bubble, autistic world

AUTISM IS LIKE EXPERIENCE OF FOREIGN STUDENTS, THEY CAN SEE PEOPLE TALKING, THEY UNDERSTAND ENGLISH, THEY CAN RELATE TO THEM, BUT WITH MINIMAL EMOTIONAL CONNECTION, LIKE THERE IS A WALL BETWEEN THEM.

AUTISM HAS STRONG FEAR, OVERDEVELOPED FEAR MIND, STRONG SENSICAL INFORMATION, WEAK VERBAL INFORMATION, THEY REACT COMPULSIVELY TO DEAL WITH OBSESSIVE INFORMATION

STRONG AUTISTIC WORLD DISABLE CONNECTING WITH OTHERS.

HOLLISTICALLY, THERE IS AN OVERDEVELOPMENT OF CERTAIN FUNCTION OF BRAIN, EMOTION, AND UNDERDEVELOPMENT OF THE MENTAL PART OF BRAIN THAT CAUSE VERY SENSITIVE SENSES AND RAW SENSE DATA (NOT INFORMATION) THAT CAUSE OBSESSED FEAR THAT CAUSE COMPULSIVE BEHAVIORS TO SOOTH AND FEAR TO COMMUNICATE AND TO BE SURROUNDED BY BUBBLE. A PERSON WHO HAS AUTISM IS LIKE A PERSON WHO LIVE IN FOREIGN LAND, KNOWS BUT NOT FAMILIAR. HE CAN SEE BUT HE DOESN'T CONNECT.

TO BREAK THE BUBBLE MUST START FROM BUILDING A BRIDGE FROM INSIDE. HIS SOCIAL SKILLS AND SOCIAL COMMUNICATION SKILLS IS DEAD BUT HIS ABILITY TO THINK STILL WORKS AND HE IS ABLE TO COMMUNICATE INFORMATION FROM THIS DEPTH, COMMUNICATION FROM THE MIND.

AUTISM – SENSITIVE INTERNAL EXTERNAL SENSES INPUT OVERLOAD --  EMOTION OVERLOAD – OUTPUT BEHAVIOR – SHUT THE INPUT.

BLOCK OUT INPUTY --  TOO MUCH INPUT.

DEAD FAMILIARITY
FAMILIARITY COMES FROM ATTACHMENT. AVERAGE ATTACHMENT IS HEALTHY ATTACHMENT.
INSECURE ATTACHMENT IS OVERATTACHMENT, UNHEALTHY ATTACHMENT

AUTISM - HUMAN WITH ANIMAL'S EMOTION WITH HUMAN MIND.
OVERDEVELOPED EMOTION OR UNDERDEVELOPED MIND

INFANTILE

PICTURE ASSOCIATION MEMORY CAN LEAD TO RIGID BEHAVIOR. MINIMAL VERBAL THOUGHTS. CAN LEAD TO EMOTIONAL HIJACKS. NO SELF CONCEPT, NO OBJECT AND SUBJECT PERMANENCE. EXTRA SENSORY PERCEPTION, LASER FOCUSED PERCEPTION. SIGNAL REACTION NOT SYMBOL REACTION.

IMBALANCE DEVELOPMENT OF EMOTIONAL BRAIN CAN LEAD TO PICTURE ASSOCIATION LIKE WE ARE WHEN WE EXPERIENCE VERY STRONG EMOTION AND IS IN SELF PRESERVATION MODE.

PROBLEMS WITH INPUT PROCESSING DUE TO VERY STRONG INPUT. COMPULSIVE BEHAVIORS IS OUTPUT BEHAVIOR. RIGID BEHAVIOR IS PICTURE ASSOCIATION MEMORY. SIGNAL REACTION.

STRONG FEAR OR NO FAMILIARITY/NOVEL/FOREIGN ENVIRONMEN. NO FAMILIRIATY DOESN'T RECOGNIZE.

PERCEPTION IS MORE THAN SEEING THE WHAT, TAPI JUGA RECOGNIZE THE WHO. RECOGNIZING IDENTITY. AUTISM OR SCZICHO LOSE THE ABILITY TO RECOGNIZE. THEY MAY RECOGNIZE BUT HIJACKED BY EMOTION. THEY RECOGNIZE SIGNS MORE THAN SYMBOLS. THERE IS NO SYMBOLS RECOGNITION.

FOR AUTISM, IT IS A WORLD WITH NO NAME. IT'S JUST OBJECT WITH NO NAME. HIJACKED BY OWN EMOTION AND OUTPUT BEHAVIORS.

OUTPUT BEHAVIORS ARE BOUNDARY MARKER. TO BREAK AUTISM IS TO BREAK OUTPUT BEHAVIORS TO MAKE CONNECTION.

People with autism have emotions, but they are simpler and more like the emotions of a vigilant prey species animal.

For a horse who has previously been fearful of trailers to overcome his fear, the higher brain centers in the cortex have to send a fear suppression signal to the amygdala. This is called a cortical over-ride, which is a signal that will block the fear me mory but does not delete it. If the animal becomes anxious, the old fear memory may pop back up because the cortex stops sending the fear suppression signal.

Fear-based behaviors are complex. Dog trainers have learned that punishing a fear-based behavior makes it worse. When a horse rears, kicks, or misbehaves during training, it may make the trainer feel angry. The trainer may mistakenly think that the horse is angry. But the horse is muc h more likely to be scared. Therefore it is important for trainers to be calm. An angry trainer would be scary to the horse.

Fearfulness is a stable characteristic of personality and temperament in animals. Animals with high-strung, nervous temperaments are generally more fearful and form stronger fear memories than animals with calm, placid temperaments.

It is likely that horses would respond to different training methods in a similar manner. Horses with calm placid dispositions are more likely to habituate to rough methods of handling and training compared to flighty, excitable animals. The high-strung, spirited horse may be ruined by rough training methods because he becomes so fearful that he fails to learn, or habituate.
On the other hand, an animal with a calm, nonreactive nervous system will probably habituate to a series of nonpainful forced training procedures, whereas a flighty, high- strung nervous animal may never habituate. Horses who are constantly swishing thei r tails when there are no flies present and have their heads up are usually fearful horses. In the wild, horses put their heads up to look for danger.

As a creature of flight, how a horse reacts to novel or unusual situations or new places can be used to access his true temperament. French scientist Robert Dantzer found that sudden novelty shoved into an animal's face can be very stressful. A horse with a high-strung, fearful nature may be calm and well-mannered when ridden at home. However, his true temperament has been masked because he feels relaxed and safe in a familiar environment. When he is suddenly confronted with the' new sights and sounds at a horse show he may blow up.
It is the more high-strung and fearful horses who-have the most difficulty in novel situations. At the show there are many unusual sights and sounds, such as balloons and loud public address systems, that are never seen or heard at home. An animal with a nervous temperament is calm when in a familiar environment -- he has learned it is safe -- but is more likely to panic when suddenly confronted with new things.
The paradoxical thing about novelty is that it can be extremely attractive to an animal when he can voluntarily approach it. A piece of paper lying in the pasture may be approached by a curious horse, but that same piece of paper lying on the riding trail may make the horse shy. People working with horses and other animals need to think more about how the animals' perceive the situations we put them in.

we all have our autistic moment when we don;t connect with some novel situation or fearful moment. we regress to our more basic system of self preservation. high strung people experience it more than calm people. calm people is less sensitive. calm temperature autistic is mild autistic??? more sensitive fearful is more sever???



 style no substance

Tin, semakin gede anak semakin kecil risknya. You are right, they live in their own world. Seperti living inside their own shell kayak anak ayam yang belum menetas atau live inside a bubble. Sebenarnya kita semua pernah mengalami phase ini saat kita baru lahir. Bayi baru lahir kan belum liat orang belum attachment ke orang. they may see and hear others but they don't care. Phase ini dibilangnya Autistic shell. Kata "Autist" itu sendiri berarti "self", like they only feel themselves.
Kata living in the shell ini juga bisa diapply ke dunia spiritualitas. Anak remaja itu juga hidup di dalam shell yg disebut Narcissistic Shell dimana mereka cuma perduli diri mereka doang. Kita sebenernya masih hidup di dalam narcissistic shell ini seakan2 kita hidup dalam ilusi tentang "self" kita. Buddhism bilang "we are asleep" "kita seperti bermimpi". Enlightenment itu sebenernya narcissistic shell kita pecah. Menarik yah?

Jadi anak autistic itu seperti anak bayi yang baru lahir tetapi bedanya, anak baru lahir inderanya belum jalan sedang anak autis inderanya sudah jalan dan mereka gak ngerti input yg tertangkap oleh indera mereka. Mereka jadi takut sekali dan keluarlah compulsive behaviors to cope with it or to sooth himself.

Kita juga sebenernya mengalami autism saat kita tinggal di foreign country. Waktu gw di US, gw always merasa foreign. Gw bisa ngerti bahasa mereka, gw bisa ngomong ke mereka, tapi somehow gw gak nyambung dengan culture mereka, gak masuk. They don't understand me, i don't understand them. Pernah ngalamin gak lu? Anak autist itu seperti hidup di foreign land walaupun di keluarganya sendiri. They know but not familiar with their family.

Lu tau dejavu kan? Dejavu itu perasaan kayak kita pernah berada di sini, like we are "familiar with the situation, but we don't know"
Lawan katanya itu Ja ma Vu itu "know but not familiar". Org2 autism atau schizophrenia itu mengalami hal ini. Mereka tau istrinya, anaknya, tapi mereka kayak gak kenal.

Mengenai penembak connecticut itu, gw yakin dia itu bekas anak berkebutuhan khusus, spt autism. Mereka bilang dia akademiknya cemerlang, sudah bisa mandiri. Yg bikin dia nembak orang itu emotional factornya dia. Gw gak tau specifically kenapa dia melakukan itu. Tapi, kalau pake logic. Anak yang kebutuhan khusus itu kan punya rasa takut dan frustrasi dalam hidup yang besar. Ditambah rasa malu karna gak punya teman lama2 depresi. Mereka bingung dan gak ngerti kenapa mereka begitu. They will do things to make them feel better, mulai dari narkoba, sex, mencuri, lama2 bunuh diri. Yg dia lakukan itu a solution to a problem.

gw sekalian curhat yah... hehe

Disini yah Tin masih ketinggalan banget cara berpikirnya. Masih banyak percaya tahayul/supernatural. Gw diceritain sama temen ada temennya yg mau cerai karna dia ke psikologis dan pastur trus dibilang dia disantet dan ada yg ikutin, dll. Temen gw ceritain masalah2 tuh orang. Gw bilang ke temen gw, gak usah bawa2 setan aja gw bisa jelasin secara natural kira2 masalah relationship dia. Menurut gw yah Tin, ada 3 cara ngelejasin pengalaman hidup; common sense, natural explaination, dan agama/supernatural explaination. Common sense itu opini kita dari pengalaman hidup. natural explaination itu biasanya science. Ketiga explaination itu ada plus minusnya. Plusnya common sense itu paling accessable, minus nya itu subjective. Plusnya science itu lebih objective dan predictive, tapi minusnya terbatas. Plusnya agama itu ruang lingkupnya luas sekali, minusnya sangat abstract. Gw bukannya anti penjelasan agama, tapi menurut gw kita harus mencoba menjelaskan secara natural dulu sebelum penjelasan supernatural. Dalam dunia medis, kalau kita kena penyakit jasmani, kita cari penjelasan natural/science dulu, ke dokter, makan obat, dll, tapi mengapa kalau kita membicarakan pengalaman rohani, kayak relationship, negative emotion, kita langsung lari ke Tuhan? Gw sering disini cerita sama temen atau orang tuanya temen tentang masalah hidup, misalnya kerjaan, relationship dan mereka langsung jawabnya "minta saja sama Tuhan" trus mereka biasanya cerita pengalaman religious mereka. Buat gw, jawaban itu ngebingungin. falam hati gw gw mikir apa maksudnya minta saja sama Tuhan, trus dikasihnya apa? bukannya gw atheis, tapi gw bener2 gak ngerti. Mungkin mereka bener2 ngalamin pengalaman iman yg luar biasa yg ngerti Tuhan, tapi gw gak ngerti. Gimana mereka ngebedain suara yg mereka denger di pikiran mereka itu suara Tuhan atau imaginasi mereka? Menurut gw yah Tin, kita terlalu meng anthromorphism Tuhan. (anthromorphism itu me manusiakan sesuatu, kayak film disney binatang bisa ngomong kayak manusia). Kita sering denger atau ngomong kayak Tuhan tuh seorang manusia. Kadang2, orang mau gw melakukan sesuatu bawa2 Tuhan bilang "Tuhan mau kamu melakukan itu". Gw dalam hati ngomong yg mau Tuhan apa elu? Org sering ngomong Tuhan tuh kayak mereka kenal bgt, apalagi yg fanatik yah. Kita memang dibuat seperti citra Allah, bukannya kita membuat Allah seperti citra manusia.

Penjelasan spiritual itu penting, to see a big picture. Tapi itu sangat abstrak dan bahaya kalau disalahgunakan. Dan disini agama adalah kedok yang paling populer digunakan dan orang banyak yg tertipu. Disini konseling juga masih belum klinikal, jadi masih religious. Dan mereka kebanyakan pake ayat2 kitab suci dan common sense. Bahkan motivator2 terkenal, gw kadang2 ngedengerin, gw mau tau mereka ngomongin apa. Kebanyakan pake common sense dan sambil lempar kata "Tuhan" sekali sekali. Gw aja gak ngerti apa yg sebenernya mereka omongin. Mereka itu hanya "dr. feelgood" dimana mereka lompat2 teriak2 bikin orang senang di seminar mereka, tapi gak begitu berisi.

I think there are two problems that cause most problems in this world, ignorance and denial. Ignorance adalah ketidak tahuan. Kita pada dasarnya tidak mengerti tentang hidup kita, tentang manusia, tentang penyakit makanya kita takut dan pada saat kita takut kita marah. ignorance juga ketidaksadaran. Seperti anak yang autis tidak sadar tentang reality dan hidup di pikiran mereka, kita pun seakan2 hidup di dalam pikiran kita dan tidak mengerti bahwa pikiran kita yg menciptakan persepsi kita tentang dunia dan persepsi kita itulah yg kita sebut dunia. It's like living in a bubble. Denial adalah ignorance dalam dunia sosial, yg ada hubungannya dengan orang lain. Animals are ignorant but they don't do denial. Denial adalah hiding part of our self that is not accepted in public behind a more accepted mask or image. After a while, we forget that we are hiding something and we adopt the mask as who we are. We create a world around this mask. This is our narcissistic shell.

 

CULTURAL CONDITIONING

WE ARE OUR ENVIRONMENT
WHO WE ARE, OUR IDENTITY, IS OUR CULTURE
WE CAN'T BLAME OURSELVES OR ESPECIALLY OUR CHILDREN, WE HAVE TO BLAME THE CULTURE
THE ADULTS WHO CREATE THE CULTURE
THE CORPORATION, THE GOVERNMENT, EVEN THEY ARE THE VICTIM OF THEIR CULTURE
WE HAVE TO EXAMINE OUR THOUGHTS, OUR CULTURE AND DETACH OURSELVES FROM OUR CULTURE
WE ARE NOT OUR CULTURE
LET GO OF THE EXPECTATION AND STEREOTYPE OF OUR CULTURE
OR WE REMAIN THE VICTIM OF OUR CULTURE

TO LOVE IS TO SEE THING AND PEOPLE AS WHAT IT REALLY IS, NOT WHAT THE CULTURE SAY IT IS, AND TO GIVE WHAT IT NEEDS NO MORE AND NO LESS. WE CANNOT LOVE WHAT WE ATTACH TO. LOVE NEEDS ABSOLUTE FREEDOM FROM ATTACHMENT. LOVE IS ALREADY AROUND US BUT WE DON'T SEE IT, BECAUSE WE ARE TRAPPED BY WHAT THE IDEA OF WHAT LOVE SHOULD BE THAT WE DON'T SEE THE LOVE. JUST LIKE GOD IS ALREADY AROUND BUT WE DON'T SEE IT BECAUSE OF OUR IDEA OF WHAT GOD SHOULD BE.

ATTACHMENT BLIND US AND IS SELFISH IN NATURE. WE ARE ATTACHED FOR OUR OWN GRATIFICATION.

INVESTMENT

A STEAK IS A DIFFERENT INVESTMENT THAN AN EGG.
A COW DIES WHERE THE CHICKEN DOES NOT.

SPIRITUAL CHRISTIAN INVESTMENT LIKE A STEAK INVESTMENT?

SPIRITUAL LIFE

MAKE YOUR LIFE IN SUCH A WAY THAT PEOPLE SEE IT AS SPIRITUAL.
LIKE A PRODUCT, WE CAN ADVERTISE IT AS GOOD BUT ONLY IN LABEL
BUT A GOOD PRODUCT DOESN'T NEED INTRODUCTION
A DIAMOND IN THE MUD CAN'T BE HIDDEN
SPIRITUALITY IS NOT TO BE SPOKEN OR TOUGHT ABOUT
IT IS NOT SOMETHING TO FEEL OR DO
JUST LIKE FOOD, DELICIOUS FOOD SELL ITSELF

IN EXPLAINING NON PHYSICAL/PSYCHOLOGICAL PHENOMENA, USE THE COMBINATION OF PSYCHOLOGY, SPIRITUAL, AND COMMON SENSE. BUDDHISM IS PROBABLY THE CLOSEST RELIGIONS WHO BALANCE THE THREE. LIKE WE EXPLAIN MEDICAL PHENOMENA WHERE WE USE THE THREE.

BUDDHISM IS ABLE TO BRIDGE THE THREE FACTORS. IT IS NOT ONLY METAPHYSICAL BUT IT IS ALSO PRAGMATIC. WHEN WE LEARN SOMETHING WE LEARN THE DEFINITION/METAPHYSICAL, BUT WHEN COMPETENT WE MOVE TO PRAGMATIC.

walk the talk or talk the walk

WE CAN WALK THE TALK OR TALK THE WALK
JESUS TALK THE WALK, TALKING ABOUT WHAT HE EXPERIENCE
MOST OF US WALK THE TALK, WE TRY TO EXPERIENCE WHAT WE TALK ABOUT
IT IS MORE IDEALISTIC AND LOGISTIC, IT IS MORE SOCIAL
EXPERIENCE IS MORE IRRATIONAL AND REAL
WE TRY TO FIT OUR LIFE TO A STORY, SOMEONE'S EXPECTATION
LIKE A STORY OF EVE TAKING ADAM'S RIB. IT MAY BE AN EXPRESSION TO DESCRIBE OUR EXPERIENCE IN MARRIAGE, POETIC EXPRESSION
WE TREAT THE STORY AS REAL

WHAT IS MORE IMPORTANT, A PERSON OR AN INSTITUTION? A PERSON OR RELATIONSHIP?

WE BELIEVE IN IDEOLOGY MORE THAN EXPERIENCE, DOGMA MORE THAN EXPERIENCE. ILLOGICAL IRRATIONAL SUPERNATURAL EXPLANATION THAN RATIONAL NATURAL AND LOGICAL EXPLANATION.

THERE ARE TWO AGENTS, NATURAL AND SUPERNATURAL, REAL AND IDEAL,
ORA ET LABORA, PRAY AND WORK, USE NATURAL EXPLANATION BEFORE SUPERNATURAL. WHEN NATURAL AGENT NOT AVAILABLE, USE SUPERNATURAL. WHEN NATURAL AGENT AVAILABLE, USE ONE BEFORE USING SUPERNATURAL.

STRENGTH WEAKNESS

DON'T SPEAK ABOUT YOUR STRENGTH, LET PEOPLE SEE YOUR STRENGTH
SPEAK ABOUT YOUR WEAKNESS, SO PEOPLE KNOW THAT YOU ARE AWARE OF SELF
BUT LET PEOPLE SEE YOUR WEAKNESS TOO
DON'T COVER UP YOUR WEAKNESS
COVERING UP WEAKNESS CAN BECOME A HABIT AND ADDICTION OF PERSONALITY
THAT FOOL US AND OTHERS

PSYCHOLOGICAL INFECTION

WE ALL GET HURT GROWING UP
WE ALL EXPERIENCE TRAUMA GROWING UP
THESE TRAUMA CREATE INFECTION, THE OVERSENSITIVE SENSE OF SELF
IT'S CALLED THE "I" OR "SELF" IN BUDDHISM OR SPIRITUALITY
THIS IS THE PSYCHOLOGICAL INFECTION
WE GET ATTACHED TO THE INFECTION AND THE BANDAGE, THE SOOTHING ANTIQUE THAT WE PERFORM CALLED PERSONALITY
INTROVERT EXTROVERT THINKING FEELING INTUITION PERCEPTION SENSE AND JUDGEMENT
WE MUST DETACH FROM THIS INFECTION, LET GO THIS INFECTION
TO GET OUT OF THE SHELL
TO GET OUT OF THE TRAP OF THE COMPLEX, THE REACTION OF THIS COMPLEX

RELIGIONS

WE CAN LIVE IN RELIGIOUS WORLD, OR WE CAN USE RELIGIONS IN OUR LIFE
GOD IS BEYOND OUR SPHERE OF KNOWLEDGE
EVEN HIS CREATION IS BEYOND OUR KNOWLEDGE
WE DON'T KNOW ABOUT HIM AND THE UNIVERSE
WE WERE TOLD THAT IT WAS GOOD
WHAT WE CAN KNOW IS WHAT WE DO, THE HUMAN FACTOR
WHAT WE CAN KNOW IS WHAT AND WHO WE ARE, THIS IS CALLED THE NARCISSISTIC EXPERIENCE
WHAT WE DO IN THIS LIFE, HOW WE ACT, WHAT WE THINK AND FEEL
THIS IS CALLED HUMAN EXPERIENCE
EVEN IN THE MOST BASIC FORM, WE CAN KNOW WHAT WE SENSE ANY GIVEN MOMENT, THIS IS OUR SENSICAL EXPERIENCE

RELIGION USE ABSTRACT LANGUAGE THAT IS CLOSED TO IMAGINATION
HIGH LEVEL OF LINGUISTIC CLASSIFICATION THAT TRAVELS FROM THOUSAND YEARS AGO
RELIGIOUS LANGUAGE IS DIFFERENT THAN OUR EXPERIENCE
THIS IS THE TRAP OR ILLUSION THAT CAN BE CREATED BY RELIGIONS
LIKE THE JEWISH LEADERS WHO WERE SCOLDED BY JESUS FOR WEARING SYMBOLS OF RELIGIONS WITHOUT ACTING RELIGIONS

WE HAVE TO BUILD A BRIDGE BETWEEN OUR RELIGIOUS KNOWLEDGE AND HUMAN EXPERIENCE, BETWEEN RELIGIOUS EXPLANATION AND LOGICAL EXPLANATION.
WITHOUT IT, OUR RELIGIOUS INTERPRETATION IS SUBJECTIVE AND RELATIVE CONFUSED WITH ABSOLUTE.
LOGICAL EXPLAINATION WITHOUT RELIGIOUS EXPLAINATION IS SO LIMITED BECAUSE WE KNOW SO LITTLE.
WE HAVE TO EXPLAIN NATURE WITH NATURAL EXPLANATION BEFORE WE JUMP TO SUPERNATURAL EXPLANATION WHEN SUPERNATURAL WAS NOT EXPERIENCED. WHEN THE SUPERNATURAL WAS NOT EXPERIENCED WE CALL IT FANTASY OR IMAGINATION.

MANY PEOPLE USE FAITH OR HOLY SPIRIT TO EXPLAIN THE UNEXPLAINABLE. IT IS ILLOGICAL AND IRRATIONAL. IT MAY BE TRUE IN SOME CASES WHEN IT IS EXPERIENCED. WE CAN SEE THE EXPERIENCE FROM THE FRUIT OF THE EXPERIENCE. HOWEVER, MANY PEOPLE JUST COPY THE SYMBOL OF THE SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE AND CLAIM THE FAITH AND HOLY SPIRIT AND EXPLAIN THE NATURAL WITH ILLOGICAL IRRATIONAL EXPLAINATION TO WIN AN ARGUMENT.

JESUS DESTROYED THE HYPOCRISY OF THE JEWS. IT IS CHILDISH LIKE WHEN WE ARE A CHILD WE WEAR CHILDREN'S CLOTH BUT WHEN WE GROW UP WE STOP WEARING CHILDREN'S CLOTH. WE LEARN THROUGH WORDS, BUT THE WORDS HAS BECOME MAN. JOHN'S IS THE MOST PSYCHOLOGICAL CHAPTER IN THE BIBLE.

RELIGIONS IS THE MOST POPULAR MASK TO WEAR.

RELIGIOUS PRACTICE TO PRACTICE MORALITY
RELIGIOUS INFORMATION AND LOGICAL INFORMATION BOTH ARE NECESSARY
RELIGIOUS INFORMATION USE DIFFERENT LOGIC THAN LOGICAL INFORMATION
DIFFERENT ABSTRACTION LEVEL.
DON'T USE RELIGIOUS INFORMATION TO EXPLAIN LOGICAL EXPERIENCE
DON'T USE LOGICAL EXPERIENCE TO EXPLAIN RELIGIOUS EXPERIENCE.

RELIGIOUS PRACTICE IS LIKE HEALTHY PRACTICE, MORALITY IS GOOD FOR HEALTH.

2 LEVELS OF FAITH: THOSE WHO BELIEVE THAT THERE IS NO GOD AND THOSE WHO BELIEVE THAT THERE IS GOD. LIKE PSYCHOLOGICAL ATTACHMENT, SECURE AND INSECURE ATTACHMENT OR NO ATTACHMENT.

RELIGIOUS IDENTITY IS WHAT WE BELIEVE WE ARE. LIKE AN EAGLE IN THE MIDDLE OF DUCKS.