verbal and mental experience

mental experience is more powerful than sense experience
sense experience is more powerful than verbal experience
internal sense experience is more powerful than mental experience
habit is a building of our internal sense experiences
this is our passive karma
a reruns of our active karma
and we rerecord and reperform
this sense experience is the brick and mortar of our habit so called life
it's the emotional communication, our intranetwork communication
we have passive emotional memory and present active emotional reaction
like we have passive thoughts and active thoughts
passive behavior and active behavior
passive experience will run its course
only as conscious mental emotional experience
at the same time, we have little wakefulness/alertness/awareness (activeness)
to react to the passive experience
we are passively asleep/dreaming than just little bit awake
we are not a person who dream, we are a dreamer who is idle in his dream
we are zombies who pretend to be a person
blinds who pretend to see
actively, we only react to the passiveness

dunia rumah, dunia kerjaan, dunia sahabat, dunia cinta adalah complex
hanya ingat duka
terjebak oleh tubuh dan pengalaman jiwa yang tua dan menyakitkan
terjebak oleh pengalaman dunia yang bisa sakit dan mati
seperti menangisi orang yang bisa meninggal
jangan actively mengusik batin dan pikiran atau indera
buat ruang kesunyian dan suka cita dulu
dan diamlah dalam suka cita dan membiarkan batin tenang
seperti bubuk kopi yang turun ke bawah gelas
kemerdekaan karna lepas dari pengalaman
karna telah melihat bahwa aku bukan pengalamanku

kebahagian melepas itu seperti kebahagian lepas dari tanggung jawab
menyederhanakan keadaan batin/psychological environment anda
indera seperti bara
semakin sedikit yang bergerak,smakin dingin indera, smakin banyak yang lenyap
meninggalkan lapisan luar keberadaan

kelekatan itu seperti tali, ada 2 ujung, object dan subject, yg dilekati dan yang melekati
identifikasi terhadap object, AKU PERLU/HARUS. confusing level of conditional, treating temporal tenses into present tense.
fokus on the subject, tempat yg melekati dan apa yang melekati

melepas kesadaran indera
SEPERTI TIDUR
melepas kesadaran batin
SEPERTI AMNESIA
HINGGA YG TINGGAL ADALAH KESADARAN

duka adalah masalahnya
sensasi diri adalah akar masalahnya

mengendalikan, memegang kendali

SEE PASSIVE KARMA LIKE SEEING 3RD PERSON VIEW
LIKE SEEING OTHERS SUFFER WITHOUT GETTING ATTACHED
ACTIVE KARMA IS A CHOICE, JOY OR SUFFER THE PASSIVE KARMA