Narcissistic

My mind always analyze
sensor all data coming in
confabulating an explaination
I am intoxicated, like in a trance
of a self and others
duality maintain a sense of self
a narcissistic trance, like alcohol induced intoxication
we get caught in this filter, consciousness
thus we have two emotion, reacting to senses and reacting to consciousness

Amnesia and dream is two different states
amnesia forgetting the self, in dream forgetting the environment
in amnesia senses is working, in dream senses is not working
in amnesia just the environment, in dream just the self
both are not reflexive
both can't say "myself"

there are two kinds of "bad guys", one is a perpetrator and another is called a hero
one cheats on game of life, another breaks from prison

psychopath don't enjoy pain, they enjoy others' pain
mystics endures his own pain

to think without thinking is the key
to smile in our heart
to wake up from the trance is to stop believing the trance
to see beyond the trance, like to wake up from dream
to get beyond the ego
to minimize the idol self
the egomaniac