Ego Resistance

Ego resistance is like clinical resistance
where we deny or justify to delay or deny dealing with an experience
it is a sickness of an ego, an ego is sick at ease
ego is useful in completing human tasks
not so much dealing with crisis or at ease
it's like an instrument we use
it's a concentrated ideal of our self
more focused yet abstract
still scattered due to dualistic division

in an environment lacking ego cencorship, like in dream
ego encounter reality/trancendent environment
it is too terrifying to awake senses that it comes out in dream
however, in an environment lacking self, like in amnesiac
it is impossible to do human tasks

in awake moment, we experience both ego and transcendent experiences
an introverted view experience intense shame, fear, anger or the struggle of resistance
it is war between the ego and the bigger reality, the child and the parents
or it is an invitation to grow up
to let God comes into your life
the crack is not for us to slip into heaven
the crack is that heaven slip into our shell
it is not breaking the shell from inside
it is cracking the shell from outside
we just need to open and stop closing and guarding the entrance

there is internal and external reality that can hit us from both ego boundaries
psychological reality and social reality
intra and interpersonal reality