denial-18/10/12

A man can deny socially undesired behaviors that he does all the time and gives him pleasure. He is blinded and fooled by believing that his social mask is his self, so his behaviors go underground. What he deny in self he will deny in others. Because others are self and self are others (selfothers). Because we see others as our self.

This is normal in childhood with the overdevelopment of persona as mask/defense against growing up. They adopt social roles/pretend in public to survive.

If you are asleep, even the outside physical universe is part of your dream, if you are awake, even your inside mind is part of reality. When asleep, reality serve your dream, when awake, your mind serve reality.

How do I wake up from this feeling-thought cycle? How do I wake up from this over stronger cognition? How do I wake up from getting hijacked by this internal world/dream?How do I drop the map if I want to? Why do I hold on to the map? because I don't know the road. Our mind is confabulation. We confabulate and think that it's true. We can only create mathematic and logical symbols, like map and language. Children confabulate because they don't know. Not that they don't know they confabulate, but because they don't know about the world. We only need knowledge when we are moving, like we only need skills when we are moving. We only anticipate when we are moving. We don't need anything when we are still. Movement trigger anticipation. MOVELESSNESS IS PASSIVITY/PASRAH, PSYCHOLOGICALLY PASSIVE, PASSIVE MIND. ACTIVE BODY, PASSIVE MIND. PASSIVITY IS NONIDENTIFICATION BETWEEN FEELING AND SYMBOLS. BODY/EMOTION REACT TO OBJECTS, FEELING DOESN'T REACT TO SYMBOLS. FEELING REACTION TO SELF. SYMBOLS ARE NOT OBJECTS.

"GOD IN YOUR MIND OR GOD WHO MAKE YOUR MIND?" LIKE A WRITER WHO IS IN THE STORY OR A WRITER WHO WRITE THE STORY?"

Our current thought create soon to be suffering. Our current suffering was created by previous thoughts. Suffering is our reaction to thoughts, or affect/effect to toughts, or afterthought.

ANTICIPATION OF DREAD IS WORSE THAN IS. DEALING WITH REAL SITUATION IS BETTER DEALING WITH IMAGINED DISASTER. BECAUSE WHEN WE ANTICIPATE, WE ANTICIPATE WORST DISASTROUS PROBLEMATIC SITUATION. REAL SITUATION IS RARELY AS BAD AS IMAGINED. EVEN WHEN IT'S BAD, OUR BODY AND MIND CAN DEAL WITH IT. WE CREATE OUR OWN NIGHTMARE. OUR MIND ONLY IMAGINE TO SOLVE PROBLEMS SO IT ONLY IMAGINE PROBLEMS. JUST LIKE EMOTION ONLY SHOWS UP FOR PROBLEMS. SO, THEY ARE NOT ACCURATE OR THE WHOLE PICTURE.

identification to symbols/ideas (PREJUDICE) IS CAUSED BY IDENTIFICATION TO FEELING (ATTACHMENT), ATTACHMENT IS CAUSED BY IDENTIFICATION TO PHYSICAL BODY AND ENVIRONMENT, IDENTIFICATION TO PHYSICAL BODY IS CAUSED BY IDENTIFICATION TO EMOTION (INTERNAL SENSES), IDENTIFICATION OF EMOTION IS CAUSED BY IGNORANCE (LOOKING TO UNDERSTAND OR SAFETY).

THERE ARE TWO CONCURRENT PROCESSES: PHYSICAL AND PSYCHOLOGICAL. PHYSICALLY, OUR INTERNAL AND EXTERNAL SENSES REACT TO ENVIRONMENT. PSYCHOLOGICALLY, THE PHYSICAL PROCESS TRIGGERS OUR IGNORANCE TO TURN ON OUR PSYCHOLOGICAL PROCESS (ATTEMPT TO UNDERSTAND OR SAFETY) WHERE THE PSYCHOLOGICAL PROCESS HIJACK THE PHYSICAL. IN ILLUSION, OUR PSYCHOLOGICAL PROCESS HIJACK THE PHYSICAL, IN ENLIGHTENMENT, OUR PHYSICAL HIJACK THE PSYCHOLOGICAL. IN OTHER WORDS, IN ILLUSION, OUR PHYSICAL LIVE IN PSYCHOLOGICAL WORLD, IN ENLIGHTENMENT, OUR PSYCHOLOGICAL LIVE IN PHYSICAL WORLD.

 UNCONSCIOUS INCOMPETENCE AND COMPETENCE, OUR PHYSICAL PROCESS TRIGGER OUR PSYCHOLOGICAL PROCESS. BUT IN CONSCIOUS INCOMPETENCE AND COMPETENCE, OUR PSYCHOLOGICAL PROCESS TRIGGER OUR PHYSICAL PROCESS. WE ARE SLAVE TO OUR PSYCHOLOGICAL PROCESS.

WHAT WE REACT TO RIGHT NOW WAS REACTION TO OUR PREVIOUS THOUGHT AND CURRENT ENVIRONMENT. CURRENT THOUGHT IS PREPARING NEXT REACTION.

 FEELING IS OUR INTERNAL SENSES REACTING TO PSYCHOLOGICAL WORLD. 

The twelve links are: (1) ignorance or unawareness, which imagines self and the world to have intrinsic existence; (2) conditioning, the karmic forces that ripen in the ground of ignorance from seeds sown in previous lives and form the conditioning factors of the next life; (3) consciousness, arising from conditioning, which carries the sense of self and operates through the mind and senses; (4) name and form, the totality of an individual’s mental and physical constituents; (5) the six senses: sight, hearing, smell, taste, touch, and mental faculty; (6) contact, the meeting of the senses with their objects; (7) feeling, the positive or negative sensations aroused by contact; (8) thirst, the desire to possess or avoid these sensations; (9) grasping, the physical, verbal or mental action that follows thirst; (10) existence or becoming, the coming into existence that results from grasping; (11) birth, manifesting in one of the six realms; (12) decay and death, the process of aging and passing away that inevitably follows birth. 

 Suffering slows down unnatural phenomena or anything that is not natural. Such as, group creation in time of individuation, or individuaation in time of group creation. Nature run its course and know what to do and we sometimes takes matter into our hand and create this friction when what we do is against nature's plan and this creates suffering and nature will always win.

Twelvefold Conditioned Arising
1) Ignorance, 2) Karmic Formation (Actions, Impulses), 3) Consciousness, 4) Name and Form, 5) Six Involvements (Six Senses), 6) Contact (with Six Sense Objects), 7) Feeling (Sensation), 8) Craving, 9) Grasping, 10) Existence, 11) Birth, 12) Old Age and Death.
"...ignorance. Where does it come from? What is its beginning? It cannot be classified as either conditioned or unconditioned but falls between the two. ...ignorance leads to karmic activity.
"Karmic activity is a conditioned dharma, and when it appears, consciousness, which makes distinctions about the manifestations of activity, arises. With the making of distinctions the trouble starts.
"Name and form are the trouble. Just mentioning them is asking for trouble, because you're bound to say, 'How are name and form troublesome? I don't understand.' Before I said anything, you did not have any problem of not understanding, but once I referred to name and form as trouble, the problem of your not understanding arose and with it the desire to know.
"This quest for knowledge results in the use of the six organs, the faculties through which you attempt to achieve understanding. You decide you want to know, and suddenly a visual consciousness appears as do the consciousnesses of the ears, nose, tongue, body, and mind. You think you can gain understanding through the six organs without realizing that the more you 'understand' the more confused you become, and the more confused you are, the less you understand.
"Since you do not understand, you tend toward further involvement, which takes the form of contact. You constantly seek encounters, east, west, north, south, above, and below, like a fly madly bouncing off walls. All that results from this desperate attempt to understand is a lot of bruises from all the bumps.
"After the determination to understand sets in and the encounters occur, there is feeling. 'Ouch! It hurts!' you exclaim when you are bumping into things, and 'Boy do I feel good!' when you are not. ' If no one bothers me I'm fine, but I can't stand criticism.' This is where feeling lies. Don't look for it anywhere else.
"Once there is feeling, love arises. With love comes hate. You like to get involved in pleasant situations, but you detest painful circumstances. Happiness and unhappiness come from love, and every day the trouble grows.
"Wishing to prolong your contact with the objects of love, you indulge in grasping. The reason you clutch at objects of love is that you wish to become one with them. You want them to be inseparable from you, and this grasping leads to becoming.
"Your attempt to have them for your own results in further births, which lead to old age and death. This is the Twelve-fold Conditioned Arising." (TD 31)
And what, brethren, is old age-and-death?
That which, of this and that being, in this and that group, is decay, decrepitude, breaking up, hoariness, wrinkling of the skin, shrinkage of a life-span, over-ripeness of faculties: this is called old age. That which , of this and that being from this or that group, is falling or decease, separation, disappearance, mortality or dying, accomplishment of time: separation of component factors, laying down of the carcass: this is called death. Thus it is this decay and this dying that is called old age-and-death.
And what, brethren, is birth?
That which, of this and that being in this and that group, is birth, continuous birth, descent, reproduction, appearance of component factors, acquiring of sense-spheres. This is called birth.
And what, brethren, is becoming?
Three are these becomings: becoming in Kama (i.e., desire)-[worlds], becoming in Rupa (i.e., form)-[worlds], becoming in Arupa(i.e., formless)-[worlds] (see Four Formless Realm Heavens). This is called becoming.
And what, brethren, is grasping?
There are these four graspings: grasping of desires, grasping of opinion, grasping of rule and ritual, grasping of soul theory. This is called grasping.
And what, brethren, is craving (trishna - see Love)?
There are these six groups of craving: craving for things seen, for things heard, for odours, for tastes, for things tangible, for ideas. This is called craving.
And what, brethren, is feeling?
There are these six groups of feeling: feeling that is born of eye-contact, feeling that is born of ear-contact, feeling that is born of nose-contact, feeling that is born of tongue contact, feeling that is born of body-contact, feeling that is born of mind-contact. This is called feeling.
And what, brethren, is contact?
There are these six groups of contact: eye-contact, ear-, nose-, tongue-, body-, mind-contact. This is called contact.
And what, brethren, is six-fold sense?
The sense of eye, ear, nose, tongue, body, mind. This is called sixfold sense.
And what, brethren, is name-and-shape.
Feeling, perception, will, contact, work of mind. This is called name. The four great elements and the shape derived from them. This is called shape. This is the name, this is the shape called name-and-shape.

1.  Ignorance (Avidya),  
2.  Karmic Formation (Samskara),  
3.  Consciousness (Vijnana),  
4.  Name (Nama) and Form (Rupa) - Thinking Aggregate (Samjna Skandha) and Body (Rupa Skandha),  
5.  Six Involvements (Six Senses - Shad Ayatana)
       of Eyes (Chakshur), Ears (Srota), Nose (Nasa), Tongue (Jihva), Body (Kaya), Mind (Mano), 
6.  Contact (Sparsha)
7.  Feeling (Vedana - Sensation),
8.  Craving (Trishna)
9.  Grasping (Upadana)
10. Becoming - Existence (Bhava)
11. Birth (Jati)
12. Old Age (Sickness) and Death (Jara [Roga] Maranam).
And what is consciousness?
There are six groups of consciousness:--eye-consciousness, ear-consciousness, smell-, taste-, touch-, and mind-consciousness. This is called consciousness.
And what are activities?
These are the three activities:--those of deed, speech, and mind. (See Ten Good Deeds and Ten Evil Deeds) These are activities.
And what is ignorance?
Nescience concerning ill, its rise, its cessation and concerning the way going to the cessation of ill. This is called ignorance.
So thus, brethren:--'conditioned by ignorance activities, conditioned by activities consciousness,' and so on to 'despair'--such is the uprising of this entire mass of ill.
But from the utter fading out and ceasing of ignorance ceasing of activities, from the ceasing of activities ceasing of consciousness, and so on to 'despair'--such is the ceasing of this entire mass of ill. (Kindred Sayings II 3-5)

IGNORANCE LEAD TO ATTEMPT TO UNDERSTAND, LOOKING FOR SAFETY, LEAD TO ATTACHMENT OR EMOTIONAL IDENTIFICATION, ATTACHMENT LEAD TO PREJUDICE.

ATTACHMENT IS EMOTIONAL IDENTIFICATION, DISCRIMINATION IS COGNITIVE IDENTIFICATION. ATTACHMENT IS THE PARENT OF PREJUDICE.