SLEEPWALKING OR DENIAL

WHAT DOES A SLEEPWALKER LOOK LIKE?

HE WILL LOOK FOR HIS OWN PLEASURE OR INDULGANCE AND AVOID RESPONSIBILITIES OR NEGATIVE EMOTION

HOWEVER, HE WILL TELL OTHERS HOW GOOD HE IS. HE IS CONNING OTHERS. BUT, DOES HE BELIEVES HIS OWN LIES? YES HE DOES AND HE THINKS THAT HIS NEGATIVE EMOTION IS JUST NUISANCE. HE MINIMIZE HIS NEGATIVE EMOTION AND BEHAVIOR AND PROBLEMS HE CAUSE AND MAXIMIZING HIS POSITIVE IMAGES. AT THE SAME TIME, HE MAXIMIZE OTHERS' FAULTS AND MINIMIZING OTHERS' POSITIVE IMAGES. THIS IS LIKE PUBLIC RELATIONS AND DAMAGE CONTROL.

HE AVOID THINGS OR PEOPLE THAT MAKES HIM UNCOMFORTABLE AND COMPLAIN THAT HE HAS NO FRIEND OR COMPLAIN THAT HE IS BORED.

HIS ENERGY IS SUCKED BY THIS FANTASY. HE DERIVE PLEASURE FROM THIS FANTASY AND AT THE SAME TIME DAMPENING HIS ANXIETY/ANGER. THIS IS CAUSED BY HELPLESSNESS WHEN WE FREEZE. WE SUSPEND LIFE AND FANTASIZE OR INVESTIGATE INSTEAD OF DEALING WITH THE PROBLEMS.

PRETTY SOON, HE TURN OFF WHEN ANXIOUS AND HIS FANTASY COMES ALIVE. HE IS A ZOMBIE WHO PLAYS A ROLE IN A MOVIE IN HIS MIND. HE GETS HIS SCRIPT FROM REAL WORLD, BUT THE WORLD IS SUCH A NEGATIVE PLACE. HE IMAGINE BEING A SUPERHERO IN A MOVIE SAVING THE WORLD AND SOMETIMES, A PERSON WILL PROJECT THIS IMAGE BACK TO THE WORLD, LIKE PUBLIC SHOOTERS.

THE ZOMBIE TURN OFF OR DENY HIS PROBLEMS/FAULTS/BEHAVIORS AND VICTIMS' HARM. HE SEES HIS ALTER EGO AND THE WORLD SEE A ZOMBIE. HE LIVES A DOUBLE LIFE, NO ACCOUNTABILITY FOR BEHAVIOR.

THIS FANTASY OR DREAM IS DEFENSE MECHANISM TO COUNTERACT TRAUMATIC NIGHTMARE FROM A HELPLESS SITUATION, TO THINK OF ANGEL TO COUNTER DEMONS. HOWEVER, WE CAN GET ADDICTED TO THE FANTASY LIKE DRUGS AND LIVE IN CLOUD NINE WHILE NEGLECTING OUR OWN LIFE.

THIS IS DRIVEN BY CONFLICT BETWEEN INDIVIDUAL AND SOCIAL. A SLEEPWALKERS' ARE LIVING SOCIAL'S EXPECTATION. HE IS LIVING SOMEONE ELSES' DREAM. THERE IS ANXIETY AND ANGER IN HIS HELPLESSNESS. HE IS TRAPPED IN SOCIAL'S NIGHTMARE. HE IS ACTUALLY NEGLECTING HIS SOCIAL LIFE AS PROTESTING OR SILENT TREATMENT TO OTHERS' EXPECTATION (NGAMBEK) AND RETREAT TO HIS OWN CORNER (FANTASY). HE CHOOSE TO CLOSE HIS EARS AND EYES AND IGNORE OTHERS AND PLAY BY HIMSELF IN HIS OWN WORLD.

WITHOUT OUTSIDE STIMULATION, HE HAS TO STIMULATE HIMSELF WITH FANTASY AND STRONG ALTERING DRUGS TO FIGHT OFF ALWAYS PRESENT ANXIETY AND MORE ANXIETY.

SO THIS SLEEPWALKING IS ACTUALLY A PROTEST TO REVENGE  PEOPLE/PROBLEMS WHO CAUSE US TROUBLE. "I AM NOT GOING TO SAY ANYTHING. I WILL NOT DO ANYTHING. I WILL NOT LISTEN TO YOU. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!" I PLAY WITH MYSELF AND AMUSE MYSELF AND AM AFRAID OF PEOPLE OR THINGS OR PROBLEMS.

ONCE HE CAN STOP PROTESTING AND START FIGHTING, HE WILL SOLVE PROBLEMS RATHER THAN SULK AND NGAMBEK. HE LET OTHERS DO WHAT THEY WANT BECAUSE HE GIVES UP TRYING, BUT PASSIVE AGGRESSIVELY ATTACK BACK BY GIVING SILENT TREATMENT FOR PAYING BACK.